7th Grade
I cant exactly remember how i spent my summer going into 7th grade but i knew i was ready to get back into school. It’s the year we became one. School was a breeze for me at least middle school that is.. so i had friends. i meshed well with every group of kids, i was a people person. I had my best girlfriend by my side everyday, were going to call her M. M and me are still inseparable she's probably one of the few best aspects of my life to this day. She will come up many time through my story... I liked school at this point, it was way better then being at home. About two months into the school year i was getting more determined i knew i still wanted the boy i was crushing on last year. The older boy, i think we started chatting on Facebook, i was friends with him because he knew my sister. (they kissed during truth or dare once) We passed each other every day in the halls and shared smiles. Then came the day when he finally tried to say hi in person, he pronounced my name wrong so i walked right into class ignoring him.. before the end of the day he learned how to say it and tried again, i was so intrigued by his bluntness no other boy was like him, the pull between us was insanity, i knew i wanted him mine very quickly. I was 12 he was 14 in the 8th grade because he was held back in the past. He was a bad boy, he cussed out teachers, his friends drove, he was funny, bubbly, confident, so attractive to my daddy issues, crazy little girl self, On October 12th in 7th grade i decided i wanted to hangout outside of school. So me him and M walked to my house. I never had a boy over before, i didn't even think about what my mom would say i was just excited. He came inside met my dog then we all walked to the creek in my neighborhood.. we shared our first kiss that day. He ended up cutting through the woods to walk home and me and M ended up going to her house for the rest of the afternoon. My mom never found out. The day we kissed was October we didn't start dating until February 1st. I strung him along for awhile, he asked me out pretty much everyday, we would talk on the phone and chat but i never hung out with him again until we were official. i just wouldn't commit. I'm glad i gave myself those few months i deserved more youth. I grew up to quick and learned the hard way that i should of waited until 15 for a serious relationship just like everyone else did. February 1st he asked me to be his girl in the hallway yet again, and this time i said yes. From there every single day he would walk me home or found a way to come see me. He was possessive from the start he wanted me to hangout everyday he wanted to talk on the phone all day after school but i was attracted to that. i loved the way he made me feel wanted. I see now i was just to young.. I snuck around with him a lot, my mom caught us and that's when she met him. she wasn't impressed, he lived in a rough area, rough housing. but that didn't stop us. The end of the school year approached and he was kicked out of school for bad behavior he didn't go for the rest of the year and he was just waiting for High school and i was waiting for 8th grade and a summer spent with him...