being ace but also wanting some sexual stimulation and being insanely curious about what sex is like for others is so funny sometimes.
in those rare bouts of being genuinely hormonal, sometimes i daydream about figuring out what makes people tick. i think of taking someone pretty to bed and starting off with just having them show me what they like. and then i start to touch, here and there, murmuring observations and praises.
scraping my nails just hard enough for them to feel it, and laughing under my breath, "i love watching your muscles jump." i think of flicking my tongue over their nipples, carefully committing the texture and their panting breath to memory. biting along their shoulders and neck and stomach and legs with different intensities, some barely there, some indenting and purpling. trailing my hands everywhere, manhandling them how i like and how they'll let me. seeing how far i can push their legs to their chest, whispering in their ear how much i like what i see. squeezing the fat and muscle of someone's thighs and biceps just because, and shoving them harder into the mattress when their breath hitches. making them describe everything they feel out loud, even if they're feeling so much at once that they're struggling to---especially if they're struggling to. "you're so cute when you're babbling, tell me more, tell me more."
scratching at their scalp soothingly and waiting to see if they ask me to pull it. and if they do, sneaking an arm behind their back and holding them by the hair at the nape of their neck when they try to move. they look so pretty like this, why change it? we have all night. i'll flip you over once you finish getting yourself off, and have you walk me through what i can do with my hands and my mouth, how to flick my tongue and wrist just right to get you to fall apart.
maybe i can't get myself there, and maybe i'll never really want to, but getting you there? sounds fun. sounds like a game. sounds like a bunch of data points i can collect and analyze. i could write down how long it takes to push you over the edge with different toys in sharpie---on paper or on your skin, whichever you prefer. i could make a chart of all the different pet names that slip out of my mouth and which ones get what reactions, from uneven breath to moaning to begging. but, oh no, i didn't set my experiment up right this time and the data is biased, can we go again tomorrow after my chem lab? also, sorry, you moved around too much and made some of my observations inconclusive---can i tie you up next time? one less variable to deal with, you know?
let's go until i have your body memorized. who cares how many nights it takes? we could be a longitudinal experiment.
Ooh, we have a scientist dom! Hadn't seen one of these before! And so dedicated to their research, too... Very thorough analysis...
Where do I sign up to participate in your study? I'll be a good test subject, I promise ~
