ok one day i’ll be able to be happy and content with where i am in life, but today is not that day. just gotta remind myself to take baby steps bc im still recovering from hella shit & don’t wanna ruin any progress i’ve made. idk we’ll see how this works out.
lol maybe one day i’ll be comfortable again with people leaving and coming, people lying to me, people hurting me.. still unsure of how i feel but i’ll be fine i guess.
maybe i just have to stop caring so much about what people do. i need to worry about myself over others bc why tf am i always worrying so much about other people when it’s not even reciprocated.
i’m gonna be selfish and stop carrying all this pain and do things for myself again. i haven’t appreciated my own success and shit that i forgot that my dog’s birthday passed bc ive been preoccupied with other people’s shit. i forgot my dad’s birthday & missed my grandma’s funeral. idk fucked up in my previous life to fuck up again in my current life lmaoooo
holy fuck i haven’t rly put into words of what’s been on my mind for the past two years.. kinda felt nice letting it out on a site i know is dead :)
ok back to my hiatus on this site. goodbye.
