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@ex-tlou-kangjun
So Iâve decided to drop Kangjun and just continue on with Seyong. I think it would be easier to just focus on one character for the transfer over at this point. Maybe eventually I will pick him up again but at this point I donât think so.
So basically, if you havenât already unfollow this blog.
The Lost Boys || Zitao x Kang Jun
(...)
âThat mouth will get you into trouble one day,â he grumbled, tugging at the older boyâs wrist so that Kang Jun fell against Zitaoâs side. âJust shut up and sleep.â With that, he used the arm trapped beneath Jun to pull him closer, only settling once the other boy was sprawled comfortably across Zitaoâs chest.Â
ââIâm not meeting with the President or the Prime Minister. Why would I need to dress so nicely? Plus, are you gonna find me nice clothes? There is no such thing anymoreââ Kang Jun growled, however not much annoyance behind his voice. During everything Jun didnât really care about appearances. They were in a post-apocalyptic world after all, there was no time to be vain and attempt to dress nicely. If anything you should be lucky to find anything at all, never mind something nice.
Jun frowned at the younger boy when he mentioned going to sleep. He wasnât tired and even though he was older he didnât care about making a food of himself, even if it made him look like a child. ââEven though youâre younger, youâre so old. Why do you wanna sleep all the time? I know Iâm a great kisser and everything but Iâm not that good to knock you to sleep from you being stunned.ââ
Laying next to Tao could send him asleep very soon so he occupied himself, jabbing Tao in his face with his finger. Tao was holding him down against his chest - which was nice donât get him wrong - so he decided to annoy him as much as possible.Â
Staring at the roof he sighed deeply, thoughts running through his head a million miles a minutes. ââCan I ask you a question?ââ he spoke softly, preparing himself to ask the question whether or not the younger boy said yes or not. ââI never really ask you about how youâre doing with your arms dealing.. stuff... Howâs that going?ââ If anything, one thing they never really talked about was their own occupation. Sure they had discussed Kang Jun being a midwife and how that would effect him living out in the Free district, but he never got the chance to ask Tao the same thing.Â
ââWhat I mean is, do you ever think of doing anything else? Iâm sure that you like doing it, otherwise you wouldnât be doing it in the first place... Youâve got potential to do a lot, Tao. I hope you know that.ââ
The Lost Boys || Zitao x Kang Jun
(...)
He only broke the kiss when he felt that his lungs would explode if he didnât, but even then Zitao only turned his head to trail open-mouthed kisses along Junâs jawline, the perfect arch of his neck. It took every ounce of self-control that Zitao had to keep from going further. The fingers once caught in Junâs belt loops shifted to curl tightly around his thin hips, thumbs resting just beneath the waistband of his wet jeans. Zitao dropped his forehead against Kang Junâs shoulder, ragged breaths exhaled against the otherâs heated skin.Â
âEasy,â he murmured, pressing another damp kiss against the pulse in Junâs neck, âEasy. Iâm not going anywhere.â
Kang Jun wasnât playing this game. The older boy could easily lose his pants - like Tao said - but thatâs something that wouldnât happen. He could see that it was something that Tao might of wanted, but he wouldnât give in to that satisfaction. Not yet anyway. ââI could. If you want me to, youâre gonna have to take them off meââ Jun replied, a smirk gracing his face. At this point he couldnât tell if they were joking, a part of him wanted them to be dong just that.Â
Feeling Taoâs tongue against his own was something that was short of strange. Strange in the fact that it felt nice, but also surreal. It was as if it wasnât happening, mostly because he didnât really expect it to happen at all. After holding in his feelings for so long he assumed that this would never happen, but it was. If this is what he had to look forward to if he stayed with Tao, then he would welcome it with open arms.
Jun closed his eyes and threw his head back as he felt the pressure of lips against the skin of his neck. He let out a small moan, completely absorbed into the moment. ââTao..ââ he breathed out, it coming out as nothing more than a soft whisper.Â
All that could be heard throughout the room was the sounds of heated breaths against one anotherâs skin. ââI know... Iâm not going anywhere as well.ââ They stayed there, Taoâs head resting against Junâs shoulder for some time. Jun couldnât tell you the exact amount of time, probably a few mere minutes. He couldnât help but think that it was maybe time for him to get changed, into some of Taoâs clothes. Kang Jun had limited clothing to choose from and basically everything he had was wet.
Giving a soft kiss to Taoâs ear he rose from the other boyâs lap, heading over to where Tao had disappeared to when they first entered the room. To the variety of clothing that he had collected over a long time. Thatâs the assumption jun could make anyway. Anything to wear would be good, it would be extra good considering it was Taoâs clothes. He took off his pants and surprisingly his underwear wasnât that soaked, they possibly could of dried a little bit. Jun didnât have to need to make up an excuse though.Â
Soon after he had returned to Tao, his pants were completely scrapped, leaving him only a shirt which had a few tears in it. It was more than enough to just sleep in. The shirt was slightly smaller than what would usually fit Junâs frame, although it still fit pretty nicely - it just wasnât baggy like most of his clothes. Seating himself next to Tao he took a look at the blankets underneath them. ââAt least theyâll be able to dry now. Then we can sleep together!ââ
The Lost Boys || Zitao x Kang Jun
(...)
âTao, kiss me. Please?â
Slowly, Zitao sat up, bringing their faces mere inches apart. He didnât kiss the other boy, though. Not yet. Instead, he lifted one of his hands and carded his fingers through Junâs hair. âWhatâre you so nervous for?â he asks, lips tilting into a slow grin. The words are little more than a whisper. He takes his time to study the otherâs face, committing the moment to memory. âItâs just me, Jun.âÂ
His hand comes to rest at the nape of Kang Junâs neck. He uses the grip to pull the older boy into a careful kiss. Itâs little more than a brush of lips against one another, as hesitant as it is reverent.Â
Even though Kang Jun had asked to be kissed, he wasnât prepared for it. Nothing could prepare him for the emotions that would follow at the contact. It was as if he had just been slapped with a brick, not because it hurt, but due to the fact that he stunned him. His eyes instantly closed as soon as Taoâs lips brushed against his own and he pushed his head forwards, trying to gain more contact.
The truth was, Jun was nervous. So nervous. Probably the most nervous he had ever been in his life, he didnât really know why either. Kissing your best friend isnât something that everyone does, although in this situation it seemed as if it was the right thing to do. Especially if it sounds as if one of them is begging for the other to kiss them, that person being Kang Jun. Jun wasnât really the begging person, but it seemed as if Tao brought it out of him.
The feeling of having Taoâs hands on his neck was exhilarating, he almost had his heart beating out of his chest. The sensation of having Taoâs lips against his own was something out of this world. He couldnât recall if this was his first kiss, he assumed that it wasnât though. He could faintly remember kissing someone when he was quite younger, it seems irrelevant to think about that now. Most importantly Tao wouldnât be too pleased if Jun was thinking about anything else other than himself whilst they were kissing.Â
Without much thought Kang Junâs right hand lifted and mirrored Taoâs own, resting against his neck. He didnât expect the kiss to turn into anything other than just a small peck as it was only their first one. Jun could wait until their kisses turned into something more, a longer duration too.Â
After an eternity, Jun pulled back and opened his eyes. Flashing a toothy grin he lowered his hand again, resting it by his side. In the moment he completely forgot about the world around him, completely everything about it. In their space there was no infection, no death or diseases. It was just, them. Kang Jun opened his mouth, about to say something stupid but he quickly stopped himself. Even he wasnât this selfish to ruin this moment with a stupid line.
ââYou know, there wasnât anything I needed to be nervous about. That was perfect..ââ the younger boy admitted, still slightly thrown by the sensation that the kiss gave him. ââIâm kind of sorry that Iâm still here wet... It would of been wonders better if I hadnât been. It was still perfect though.ââ Kang Junâs attention drifted to the necklaces around Taoâs neck and he reached out, gripping the lotus pendant in his hand. ââIt still looks more beautiful on you.ââ
Jun was still seated on Taoâs lap but he quickly readjusted himself, wrapping his legs around the younger boys figure. ââI wish we could stay like this foreverââ Jun mused. Looking at Tao softly he closed the distance between them again, him initiating another kiss.Â
It was different from the first one they shared, if seemed more encouraging and less hesitant than last time. Jun melted into the kiss, throwing his arms around Taoâs shoulders pulling himself as close as he could to the other boy.
.:OPPOSITES ATTRACT :. Kangjun & Bom
(...)
âThere is a chance that sheâs out there, you know? Everyone can protect themselves. If you donât mind me asking, how long ago did this happen?â, KangJun asked. Slowly the black haired one looked up to see his face. It was easily to see, that she is thinking back, trying to figure out how long it was. âIt was during the outbreakâ, she started with a soft voice, âwhat is over 20 years agoâŠ. forgot to count.â Â
She smiled at his last question: âIt would be like a dream, to meet her again.â
Hearing gunshots in the distance startled Kang Jun. It sent shivers up his spine, goosebumps appeared in his skin. He didnât know about Bom but he wasnât too happy about this situation. He was a part of the Fireflies and if he was close to the Military district, if they caught him they would probably capture him - worse yet, kill him. He hadnât come across many Military personal but he could only assume that they hated members of the Fireflies. Jun didnât really have an opinion on them, he knew that he was supposed to have a deep hated for those who worked for the opposing side, however he wasnât that type of person.
20 years ago? Knowing the fact made a frown appear on Kang Junâs face. Hearing the reality of the situation made it seem like Bom wouldnât see her mother again, which was hard to face. There was still a slight chance that the mother was still alive, however it seemed to be a slim chance. If anything she could of fled the country a long time ago for all he knew. âIâm really sorry to hear about that..â Kang Jun muttered, through a soft tone. He didnât mean to dampen the situation but his curiosity got the better of him. The reality hit him that he didnât really know anything else about the woman in front of him. She seemed older than him, by a few good years. She was more mature than him, that was something that could be easily guessed. Thinking more on it, the woman in front of him could actually be a part of the Military - or even a bandit. If she was a bandit, she didnât seem like the type to kill someone because of it, that would of already happened by now. âIf you donât mind me asking.. What faction do you belong to?â
"Listen, donât give up believing⊠Iâm sure that you will see her again. I know itâs been a long time, but please be persistent." Kang Jun thought back to the gunshots he heard before, looking around he didnât detect anything that seemed to be around. They were safe for now. "Have you ever tried to look for her? Maybe someone somewhere knows some information about her?"
The Lost Boys || Zitao x Kang Jun
(...)
He sat up straighter and shifted to face Kang Jun, letting his words sink in. Zitao watched as Kang Jun began to fidget, his eyes looking anywhere but at Zitao, and he feels his heart sink. Perhaps heâd said too much?
Then Jun finally speaks, and Zitaoâs lips pull into a slow smile. âYou donât sound very certain,â he teased, barely keeping the amusement from his voice. âWhich is too bad, because I know I want to be with you. No kindas or maybes attached.â Â
''If it means getting into trouble with you, I hope I don't stop running my mouth. You fidget too much, it's cute'' Kang Jun admitted, giving a grin to his best friend. It was really the only exception to the rule when it came to Jun's mouth. Like he had admitted to himself earlier, he spoke too much. Mostly things that maybe he shouldn't say, shouldn't admit. He teased too much and sometimes it was things he had just meant to think and not voice. At the end of the day he didn't mind with Tao, if it was his boss - well... she would of slapped him several times. It was a good thing she wasn't here, or anywhere near or in fact.
Kang Jun realised a little too late that he was wrapped in a blanket whilst he was still pretty wet, when they made their trip to the Firefly District - whenever that was - he made sure to remember to grab some blankets and bring them back. He knew that Tao wouldn't be too happy about them being wet, but Jun was just forgetful, nothing he could really do about that.Â
Jun remembered back to the time Tao was talking about. He remembers that it was in particular quite a bad storm and he usually waited for Tao to come over, they would cuddle and fall asleep. It didn't happen very often he would admit but if it did, he could count on Zitao coming over. That time he didn't really know why his dad got so defensive and angry about Tao coming over all the time, he kind of just flipped at Jun and told him that Zitao wasn't allowed to come over anymore when there's a storm happening.
Being that it was his best friend and the type of person Kang Jun was, he didn't listen to him. He snuck out and trotted over to Tao's like nothing was wrong. Jun has always liked the rain, thinking that it is peaceful and it helps him relax. That's usually why he waits it out with Tao, he's calm during one and he makes sure that his best friend feels the same way also.Â
He remembers the laughter that they shared, telling jokes to each other to avoid Tao getting scared. The stories that they told - ones of mystery and adventure. A world where the infection didn't exist and they could go wherever they wanted, just the two of them. It was important for Jun to spend as much time with Tao as was possible. He loved him, at that point it wasn't romantic - that came a year later. He had still loved him unconditionally, it was as if they were meant to be friends for life. He intends to let that be the case now.
It's very difficult to imagine what his childhood would be without Tao, up to the point he disappeared that is. They met at a very young age, inseparable since. In another life you could say that they were probably Siamese twins, considering how much time they spent at one another's side. He wouldn't trade it for anything, even if someone offered the end of the infection and a world of peace - he would selfishly turn it down. Tao was and is still important to him.
Jun was shook from his thoughts by Tao's words. He wanted to be with him? Sure it was what he was expecting considering that was what they were talking about, but to hear it was a different thing all together. It brought a smile to his face and butterflies began to tingle in his stomach, like it had done many times when they were kids.
''I take it back. No maybes or kindas about it... I wanna be with you too'' gulped the older boy, still finding it silly that they were still at this point. They should of at least had three kids by now, even though that wasn't possible. They should of made quick work of the seven years they had missed, which incidentally meant the kids. Jun couldn't handle kids though, too much hassle.Â
Turning to the younger boy he jumped on him, the blanket completely forgotten. It would of been quite a site, Jun thought, a topless Kang Jun throwing himself onto a topless Zitao. ''Yeah! I wanna be with you too!'' the older boy shouted, leaning down to give Tao a kiss on the check. If he wanted an actual kiss, Tao would have to initiate it. Jun didn't want to mess it up, the younger boy would be better at doing that anyway.Â
With Jun on top of Tao, he threw his arms to either side of the boy, trying to get as close to the boy as he possibly could. Tao was probably getting soaked by now and he was scanning the boy's face, trying to guess his emotion. He couldn't tell. If the younger boy was angry that could turn into a problem, but he would cross that bridge when he gets to it.Â
In a moment of courage he stopped acting silly and straddled Tao's hips, sitting up straight. Honestly he was acting too silly for the moment and that was something he could curse himself for later. ''Tao, kiss me. Please?''Â
The Lost Boys || Zitao x Kang Jun
(...)
He dropped his hand back into his lap and studied Junâs expression for a beat, looking for any signs of regret. The tightness in his chest eased when he found none. Taking a bracing breath, Zitao took one of Kang Junâs hands in his and looked up at the other boy. His lips pulled into a tiny smile.Â
"Now we get our stuff and head home," he decided, standing and pulling Kang Jun up with him. "This isnât a conversation I really imagined having in my underwear." Â
"Yeah⊠I was scared that you would reject me - seems silly now" Jun retorted, a smile gracing his face for what seemed like the millionth time. Just looking at the other boy when his eyes were closed was enough to give Jun butterflies. He had always felt them when he was with Tao, it was mostly forgotten about though, him just thinking it was natural. Especially if it was with someone you looked up to highly, now it was more the case since Tao was taller than him.
Kang Jun took Taoâs hand and was pulled up by the other boy. Tao was right and it was exactly what he was thinking himself, this place wasnât where they should of been having this conversation. It wasnât far from home anyway, it would give him a chance to think about what he wanted to say to the younger boy, clear his mind a little. He couldnât get away without another comment escaping his lips, âItâs a nice view though, Tao. Someone could definitely get used to it.â
He took steps ahead and tried to keep up with Tao as they walked, wondering whether or not he should grab his hand, entangle his fingers with his own. He chose not to in the end, deciding that there was time to do that elsewhere - preferably in the safety and solace of their home. Â Thinking about it, it would have a different meaning now. If they got together it would actually be âtheirâ home and the simple thought caused Jun to blush severely, he just hoped that Tao didnât notice or if he did, didnât mention it.
As they walked Kang Jun turned his head towards Tao, licking his lips before he began to speak. âSooner or later Iâm gonna have to go back to the Firefly District.. Get some things, since Iâm staying out here nowâ the older boy asserted. It wasnât a matter of him wanting to go, he needed to go. A flash of brilliance shone in his eyes and he gasped slightly, his face contorting to an even bigger smile than before. âIf you can, please come! You can see my sister, sheâll be thrilled to see you after all these years. Especially after thinking you were gone, like most of us.â
Kang Jun tried to ease the tension between the two with idle chatter as they walked, literally about anything he could think of. When they finally reached their destination, he let Tao deal with the door (Jun hadnât figured out how to actually work it yet). Seeing the makeshift bed in the middle of the room made the older boy close his eyes and let out a heavy sigh, happy to be able to rest. But resting was something that could happen later, he had things to do, things to say even.
Walking over to the set of blankets in the middle of the room he sat down, motioning Tao to join him as well. When Tao did he leaned into the other man, taking in his warmth, quickly realising that he wasnât changed yet. âDo you want to get changed? Or should I take my pants off, make it so weâre even?â It was another comment that he was oblivious to, Tao would need to help him with. With a lot actually. It was something he needed to work on, or was it maybe his charm? He didnât think it was.
Wrapping himself in one of the blankets he leaned off Tao, Turing his head to face him instead. âSo tell me, when did you fall for me?â Jun questioned, quirking an eyebrow as he did so. âI think for me it was maybe when I was ten, donât really know what happened but I just knew my feelings for you changed. You were so cute as a child, still are.â Jun reached over to pinch Taoâs cheek, taking full advantage of him being the older one of the pair.
Calming himself down, he waited until there was complete silence. He didnât want to talk over Tao if he said anything important, surely he would do considering the topic. Avoiding eye contact he stared anywhere else but at Tao. âI kinda, maybe wanna be with you⊠Maybe⊠KindaâŠâ
The Lost Boys || Zitao x Kang Jun
(...)
Taking the hand wrapped around his, Zitao lifted Junâs hand to one of the necklaces hanging around the teenâs neck. He curled the older boyâs fingers around the lotus blossom pendant reseting against Zitaoâs collarbone. âI was going to confess to you that night. After weâd had our âadventureâ and your mom had stuffed us full of cake.â Though heâs holding Kang Junâs hand in his, keeping it curled around the necklace, Zitaoâs gaze never strays from his.Â
"Iâm sorry I never got the chance," he finishes quietly.Â
The older boy leaned into Tao's touch, closing his eyes as he felt the younger boy's thumb brush against his jawline. Just the mere feeling of having the other boy touch him set his skin on fire. At the mention of his thirteenth birthday he opened his eyes, eyeing the necklace that was laced around his neck. He does remember it, remembers the joy that he felt when he received it. Honestly, Tao could of gave him a rock for his birthday and it would of been the best present in the world. The fact that it was something as beautiful as this was such an added bonus.Â
He was going to confess to him? Wait, what? Zitao felt the same way? It was something that Kang Jun found hard to comprehend. His best friend - his crush - had felt the same thing he was feeling? It made Jun think even more about the situation. Two things came into mind. First, when did he first have feelings for him. Since they were alike he could only imagine the ironic-ness that there would be if they started to have feelings for each other at the same time. Secondly, did he still feel the same way. Maybe he could conclude that this was a yes, mainly because it sounded as if he still felt the same way. Especially in Kang Jun's case, those types of feelings don't just disappear. It had been seven years though.
''Don't apologise..'' the older boy breathed, his hand groping the necklace that was in front of him. He would admit it again, but it looked better on Tao than it would on him. ''I'm sorry I never got the chance either, I was so scared.'' He twisted the pendant around looking at it from different angles, it was a beauty. It must of been the most beautiful thing that he had ever seen, in this day and age that was something that couldn't be said that easily.Â
Jun lingered his hands against Tao's collarbone for longer than he should of, wanting to feel the skinship that it brought. He let out a heavy breath, concentrating on the pendant that was still in his hand.Â
After what seemed like an eternity he pulled back his hands, resting them on his knees. ''At least everything is out in the open now..'' he muttered to the other boy, a grin etched onto his face. He raised a hand, cupping Tao's face, like the other boy had done just minutes ago. ''Now you know that when I say your beautiful... I'm not joking.''
There was something that plagued his mind though. Where do they go from here? Sure it was easy enough to say that they maybe got together and worked everything out, but was it that simple? In Kang Jun's view they had a lot to talk about, a lot of feelings to admit to each other - more so than what they had done so far. It definitely would be the best day of his life, if something happened between the two of them.
''I have one question. Where do we go from here?''
The Lost Boys || Zitao x Kang Jun
(...)
Carefully, he shifted closer to Kang Jun, using the hand on his knee to lift himself until his face was inches from the older boyâs. Zitao kept his movements painfully slow as braced his hands on either side of Kang Jun, bracketing him between the teenâs arms and putting them in the same position theyâd been in only moments before. This time, Zitao didnât back away though. He held Junâs gaze, trying to decipher the other boyâs expression.Â
''What if I don't want to forget?'
Kang Jun let out a hollow laugh, shaking his head slightly. It wasn't up to Tao to say things like that, but then again Tao had every right just as Kang Jun did. He couldn't bare to look at Tao in the eyes, he just couldn't do that. It wasn't that he was embarrassed, he knew that if he did he would confess everything. Jun was conflicted as it was what he wanted but also what he feared. He had kept it quiet for so long so it wouldn't hurt to keep it hidden, would it? Wrong. Dead wrong.
It didn't help when he came face to face with Tao, the other boy not letting him look away. ''I'm tired of lying to myself, Tao... I'm just so tired of it..'' the older boy breathed out, his breath surely reaching the other boys face. ''I wish I could just say everything I want to.. But I can't for some reason..'' With that he raised his hand, hovering it over Tao's own and squeezing it. He estimated that Tao's face was within reaching distance and he so wanted to lean over and kiss him, touch him. Again he didn't.
In fact he did lean forward, but not to kiss the other man. Instead he leaned forward and rested his forehead against Tao's own, closing his eyes. ''You make me feel so safe... I'm so thankful to have you in my life....'' pausing he pulled back slightly, so their foreheads were no longer touching. ''I don't know what I would do without you honestly... I'd probably be dead on my back somewhere,'' Jun admitted, forcing a small laugh out at his attempt at a joke - if you could even call it one.Â
This location was definitely not the place to have this conversation, at the very least Kang Jun was glad that it was in a safe location. He would be distraught if anything happened to pop up if they had this conversation elsewhere, he would be pissed. From what seemed like nowhere he gained a jolt of courage, thinking on something his mother said to him long before she had passed on. 'Rue the day, Junnie.'
'I like you.''
The Lost Boys || Zitao x Kang Jun
(...)
It wasnât like he hadnât noticed the way Kang Junâs gaze would follow him, eyes a bit darker than Zitao recalled and expression unreadable. The teen had decided to attribute it to separation anxiety, though. Theyâd been apart for seven years. It was more than justifiable to assume such a thing. After all, Zitao could barely let Kang Jun out of his sight without having a small panic attack, illogically convinced that the older boy would disappear if he wasnât within armâs reach. Â
He should of expected Zitao to say something like that, but he didn't. He thought that it would go unnoticed, or Tao would dismiss it like he usually did with most of what Jun said. Completely froze in place, Jun didn't know what to do. He could easily say something that would make it all blow over like he was joking, but he could go for it. Maybe he should of, even if it risked losing the friendship. However it didn't seem like that would happen. If Tao was so disgusted by the idea of Kang Jun hitting on him he would of said something by now. There was always subtle flirting between the two, but it didn't go further than there. Not one of them dared to do anything about it, they didn't even say anything about it. Brushing it off as if it was what they did, which it was.
'Ermm... I-I.. I just know when I see someone who is attractive...'' Kang Jun replied, avoiding eye contact with the male. ''You've always been attractive... I would even go as far to say you're hot now... But then again you always were...'' He again looked elsewhere, trying to desperately avoid the gaze that he assumed he was getting. Maybe this could work for the better, maybe this could ruin everything. Only time would tell.
Kang Jun didn't want to say anything else on the topic, save himself from seeming like a complete and utter fool. Shutting his mouth always seemed like a positive thing, he had it said to him enough. A lot of his colleagues had said that his mouth would get him into trouble sooner or later. Best to keep it shut then. He wanted to say more though. Tell Tao everything that he felt, everything that had been feeling for those seven years of hell. There wasn't a day that went by when Kang Jun didn't think about him.
''Can we maybe... forget I said anything? Please...'' he uttered desperately. He wanted nothing more than to forget this ever happened. But then he looked ahead to Tao and everything seemed to come back, rushing back in fact. It was as if there were multiple trains wanting to dock at the same station but yet only one could at a time. There knew everything he wanted to say, yet he didn't.Â
The Lost Boys || Zitao x Kang Jun
(...)
He blinked when he spotted Kang Jun staring at him. âWhat?â he blurted, a little taken aback by the intensity of the other boyâs gaze. Cautiously, Zitao waded closer until he could sit on the step below Kang Jun, shoving the elderâs legs aside so he could fit. He tipped his head back to look at him curiously.Â
It didn't phase Kang Jun one bit when Tao emerged from the water in only his black briefs. Should it of stunned him? Maybe if they weren't best friends and only acquaintances, but no. They had known each other for what seemed like forever and the seven years they had spent apart didn't seem to mess that up. It's like they continued on from where they left off with their friendship and Kang Jun's feelings had continued to be present as well. That part he didn't really know how to feel. On one side he was happy to feel the same things about the younger boy, however he still didn't think that anything would happen, especially if he didn't say anything. He didn't plan on doing that.Â
Jun was snapped out of his thoughts by Tao speaking up. ''Sorry, was in a world of my own'' the older boy lied. Technically it was the truth but he wouldn't admit it was because of Tao. A sudden blush rose on his cheeks when he remembered that he hadn't actually been back to the Firefly District to get the rest of his things. ''Uhmm... I was just thinking that I don't have any clothes... You're gonna have to lend me some'' Kang Jun spoke up, slightly shy at the idea of wearing Tao's clothes. He had done it before but now Tao was grown and it would be different, wouldn't it?
He didn't plan on moving from his position for a bit though. It was calm down by the water. All that could be heard was a muffled noise in the distance from outside and a few water droplets dropping onto the water, making a noise that was quite atmospheric.Â
'Cause it was what Kang Jun did, he decided to say something that he was completely oblivious to. He knew that he often didn't really think about what he said, usually when it came to what he was actually thinking. Sometimes he would blurt out what was meant to be a thought but instead he actually had given it a voice, the other person was normally taken aback by it. Although it depended in who the person was, this time it was only really good thoughts about Zitao.
''You know, you've gotten really handsome'' Jun announced suddenly, looking at Tao like he had just made the sun rise just with a thought. He didn't know what brought him to say that but he was something he noticed in the moment. ''I guess I didn't notice it because we were always so busy, but in the last few days I've noticed it.'' This time Jun didn't really feel shy about saying something like this, that was different from the norm. ''I hope you don't mind me saying that..''
The Lost Boys || Zitao x Kang Jun
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Zitao shoved away from Kang Jun and backed into deeper water, submerging himself completely and scrubbing his hands over his face and hair. Hopefully, he looked like he was just washing himself and not trying to scrub away the thoughts muddling his head. He stayed beneath the waterâs surface until his lungs began to burn. Only then did he risk coming up for air, slicking his hair back off of his forehead.Â
He thought to himself. Had he become more of a baby since he was a kid? It could of happened, he wouldn't of been surprised. ''Well, I am cuter than when I was a kid'' he teased, sticking his tongue out at the other boy. ''Guess that means someone is gonna need to hold me'' he whispered, not really sure if Tao heard him or not. It didn't really matter either way.Â
Kang Jun waited patiently waited for Tao to resurface to the water. He was under the for quite a long time and it would only be a matter of time before he did so. The older boy found it quite odd how he suddenly pulled away from him, but he assumed it was due to Tao needing to wash himself. Jun needed to do that also, but he still had time, he could wait for Tao first.Â
When Tao finally resurfaced he let out a small laugh as he watched the younger boy move the strands of hair that had stuck to his forehead due to them being wet. ''I'll say it again, you look good wet'' Jun said through muffled laughter, trying to tease Zitao again. It was something that he could do to Tao that he liked doing. He liked to see Tao squirm whenever he was given a 'compliment' to react to. Kang Jun thought it was a nice compliment, yet a cheeky one.
Jun followed suit though, moving forward into the deeper water. Pushing himself under he quickly scrubbed his body with his hands, trying as best as to get the sweat off his body that had accumulated from earlier. When he was happy with his effort he got out of the water and walked up a few steps, sitting on one of them. He began to stare at Tao, a smile on his face. A million and one thoughts began the float through his mind.Â
