EXCUSES AND HALF-TRUTHS AND FORTIFIED WINE

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[excusesandhalf-truths]

We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime. It's easy. The first girl I ever loved was someone I knew in sixth grade. Her name was Missy; we talked about horses. The last girl I love will be someone I haven't even met yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your life, and you’ll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of 80 years. But there’s still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these loveable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.

Chuck Klosterman

[reallyginnyf]

Some things in life cannot be fixed. They can only be carried.

Megan Devine, Refuge in Grief (via reallyginny)

[excusesandhalf-truths]

Still, if the residual discrepancies in health care are explained, even just somewhat, by implicit racial biases, it is hard to have that discussion about amputations, an act which is itself so violent and painful for a surgeon to perform, especially when they have been working with the same patient over the course of many years. When I first spoke to Minc, even before she knew what I was calling about, she told me she was at Mount Sinai “trying to avoid performing amputations.” Later, when I reminded her of what she had said, she elaborated, “I amputate because I have failed—failed as a vascular surgeon, failed as a doctor… there are few words to describe seeing the patient after the procedure, disfigured… just shame.” I asked Minc if she feels this way even when the patient came in so last minute, it was beyond her power to help. “Is it possible,” she responded, “to spend decades removing parts of people, and emerge whole yourself?”

Noah Pisner - The Loss (http://www.themorningnews.org/article/the-loss)

[spiritualinspiration2]

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[nevver]

Ella Frances Sanders

[excusesandhalf-truths]

I've realized that I'll never really understand what we are to each other. 

If I believed in that sort of thing, I'd say we knew each other in another life. 

[excusesandhalf-truths]

It's my mother's fault, who praised me and loved me, sent me into the dreadful world as if it would tell me a story I'd understand

Stephen Dunn, Optimism (Different Hours)

[excusesandhalf-truths]

Willow

[nevver]

No choice

[her0inchic]

We can’t jump off bridges anymore because our iPhones will get ruined. We can’t take skinny dips in the ocean, because there’s no service on the beach and adventures aren’t real unless they’re on Instagram. Technology has doomed the spontaneity of adventure and we’re helping destroy it every time we Google, check-in, and hashtag.

Jeremy Glass, We Can’t Get Lost Anymore

[kari-shma]

It’s not hard to decide what you want your life to be about. What’s hard, she said, is figuring out what you’re willing to give up in order to do the things you really care about.

“Bittersweet” by Shauna Niequist (via kari-shma)

[excusesandhalf-truths]

What does an inoculation have to do for a brain. We use our brain to think and mouth and thought to speak also I don’t have a conscience to bother me. My brain is clear. The wonders of nature of a hen or rooster Take the egg. The shell is formed also the white and yoke in the shell and the embryo before hatching to a chick. The rooster is different from a male being in mating also cattle, horses, pigs, birds. These are some things to study of biography of things toil coil boil soil mary murry hurry bureau of statistics in Regina. Its here is a measure on the dates of birth (my) steer stear herd heard dare stare stare stair Don’t fly off the handle Don’t count your chickens before they’re hatched.

Writing sample from schizophrenic patient 

[excusesandhalf-truths]

I have failed at faith. I fear death, sometimes I fear my own organs – small worlds I will never see, and never fully grasp even though they’re right there inside of me

Anne Valente, The Astronomer's Guide to Solace

[nevver]

To do

[excusesandhalf-truths]

From the car window somewhere along the Alaska Highway. 

[excusesandhalf-truths]

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This summer my boyfriend and I hiked the Cottonwood Trail in Kluane National Park, YT. We drove there from Saskatoon, and shockingly, my 1996 Acura Integra made the trip (5700km) just fine.