Nullification @exhaust-edd - Tumblr Blog

Exhaustion tumblr intro

♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎

Name• Exhaust / Null

She/her, They/Them

Unlabeled

18 years old

everyday blog will prolly talk Abt Ed issues n sh if it gets bad ion know

5'3

I like art, writing, music, and video games

Trying to be active more (⁠^⁠～⁠^⁠;⁠)⁠ゞ

♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎♱⛪︎

I wish my depression was constant 24/7 so I wouldn't have people thinking they were right after they tell me "ur going to be fine In a week". I feel like such a faker during depressive episodes all I want to do is kms but what's the point in trying if ik im gonna fail n get hospitalized. There's no point. I wish I could js sleep until this goes away. Everything hurts.

I don't think I'm a bad person. Or at the very least I don't mean to be. I don't know how to change myself to be more tolerable. I just feel broken. I'm too aggressive, I'm too blunt, I'm too loud. People confidently say I'm aggressive and blunt. But if u saw me in elementary you would be so confused as to how she could become me. I just want to know what happened in my life to have me turn out this way. I hope I can fix myself.

People r such fucking parasites I hate everyone except 4 my friends and my bf everyone else fucking sucks and I hate them holy shit they are all useless.

seraphofthevoid

strawberryjamikins

friend is easily scared by uncanny images, so i was gonna send him one as a bit and:

one of these is not like the others

vangoghcore

by briscoepark

anitoonzforever

Looks cool and pretty spooky!!

I wanna kill myself so fucking violently but that's the least of my concerns rn!

"don't you feel guilty? Don't u regret what you did" all I feel is regret. Guilt eats away at my soul every second I am alive. There is not one situation I have ever been in where I don't regret something or feel guilty about. When I die and bugs eat away at my flesh and muscles they only thing they will taste is sorrow. I am an angry person from actions alone but the anger stems from guilt and regret and yearning to try again. People say they wouldn't change anything now because it wouldn't be the same but I would change everything just to see if my choice was really the best one. My brain is a punishment of constant thinking that will never stop no matter how high I get no matter the amount of adrenaline I experience I will never stop thinking. Not until I am dead. So B4 you ever ask if I feel guilty or regretful know that the answer will always be yes because I never not feel that way.

I kinda hate myself a lot of the time. The only times I don't are when I'm with my friends or high. I'm gen a fuckin failure of a person. All I'll ever b is a girl and I don't even want it like that. Im in hell. I miss my boyfriend.