Ticket stubs

a ticket stub to buried flaws

[exhumedflaw-s]

So as we sleep, those unconscious part of us, the one that hides beneath us, wander around to the places we are supposed to be, the places our waking life has no courage to journey to.

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[exhumedflaw-s]

I like birthdays. It’s the greatest paradox human has ever invented. The more years you live, the closer you are from dying.

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[exhumedflaw-s]

When the day has long gone and you're feeling empty. When you're feeling the universe conspire against you. When you got tired believing in yourself. Just remember how would your morning will be as you woke up. When you open your eyes and turn to your side to see his face as he sleeps. Your fingers tracing constellation through the freckles on his face. The giggle you let out when he wrinkled his nose upon the touch of your skin. When his lips curved into a small smile, that you knew he'll grab your arms and snuggle you under his arms. Remember what it feels like to bury your face into his chest while his drawing circles on your spine. Go on, try it. Either way, that's the least you can do. Deluding yourself to a world that you and him exist.

S.H

[exhumedflaw-s]

I'am afraid you feel so close our gaps between our spaces aren't called gaps anymore. The world has separated us in greatest distant, even the sea couldn't sail us back from each other. A cosmic divide. Our time is running poles apart. Soldiers march on different drummer. Rows will never be synchronized. But far cry from each other we still feel the same star above us. Distance turned into spaces and spaces into gaps. I'am afraid the moment came when our lives run in the same vein. We're so close distance turned into mere word. We are moving in the same tick. Drummers on the same tempo.Boats sail smoothly ceaselessly. But the music started to play in discord. Pulses throbbing off beat. Breath on peculiar exhale. Ebb and flow mismatched. I'am afraid the distance wasn't a problem anymore, but also started to matter. I'am afraid we are so close, my oblivion would not matter to you.

S.H

[exhumedflaw-s]

The only mistake you've done is being a person. A person who is hungry for answers , curious about life. So you seek and hoping you shall find but the world is never what it seems. You got trapped for finding answers. The eyes judge, the tongue rolls but never the mind opened. You are now banned from living life as it supposed to be; to answer questions, to know about life. Now, you only eat what it served, make the most out of it because you knew resisting will do no good. Look what have they done to yourself. Not experiencing life for trying to live it.

S.H

[coral]

[exhumedflaw-s]

The only time you will feel alive is the moment you were about to die. Like when you are falling from a high place, you fight with the gravity and just about you hit the ground you will feel the momentum of your body pushing the air before you, and for a second you feel every feeling you felt from your lifetime all at once.

S.H

[exhumedflaw-s]

Pure and fragile all she is, I am nothing but roughness and bitterness nobody wants.

S.H

[exhumedflaw-s]

There is something at night that makes us fools, making ourselves wrapped around a fantasy that on our day cannot even dare to imagine.

S.H

[exhumedflaw-s]

Last night while I was drifting to sleep I felt your hand hold mine. I’m aware it was only a figment of yesterday’s longing. God, you feel so real. I did not dare to move because if I did, I’ll lose the only connection I could get from you. So I let the warmth of your hand calmly lull me to sleep.

S.H

[caughtinyourhipster]

[dailyskyferreira]

"People ask me, "Do you hate yourself?" And I'm like, "A little bit!" I feel like I'm a bit of a masochist. Maybe I'm a little into it."

[exhumedflaw-s]

It’s stupid how we are afraid of ghost and monsters and confidently trust ourselves. Be afraid of yourself. Be afraid of what can you do to yourself. You bear the most terrifying device that can inflict pain and confusion. Fear your mind. Fear what it can do to you and the terror that it can make you believe anything it wants you to believe.

S.H

[pre-party]

♛

[gosh]

[exhumedflaw-s]

Turning my back is the hardest part. In that millisecond I thought if I say a single word or hug or kiss him would it turned everything alright? In that smallest amount of time I wondered many times if my decision is right, if I deserved all of this and if being strong is accepting what is right in front of you or fighting for what you truly desire and for what makes you happy. But even in this shortest amount of time, it is enough for me to know that when I heard him speak to comfort me and when I heard his reason, the table will turn and I ended up falling into his arms once again.

S.H

[exhumedflaw-s]

I gather up my courage and quickly turned my back on him and tried hard to walk away like nothing happened.

S.H