Mary had a little lamb

Mary Gwendolyn MacDonald

[expectantmary]

translatingdirk:

Giving her a small smile, he nodded and allowed that portion of the subject to drop. As she spoke, Dirk mulled it over before giving a soft hum, “Honestly, you’re right. Financially is sometimes the best way and only way to help in a situation like this. Actions always speak louder than words do” he replied decidedly. Dirk hadn’t come from money, not really, but working in the Ministry had taught him how to see it for what it was and what it could be used for. “I can see that definitely, which is a shame. You’d think people would be more tasteful, but some people love any reason to be the center of attention,” he groaned, but he knew that there were always going to be people like that. Dirk gave her a small, sympathetic smile as she spoke, “I can imagine that’s been difficult,” he responded, “Kids are always a game changer, especially when you’re a single parent. I commend you for being able to do it,” he complimented warmly. A laugh escaped his lips as he nodded, “Honestly, it’s quite hilarious to watch the shock and often times embarrassment cross their faces,” Dirk admitted. Grinning he answered, “Most kids would rather not follow what their parents want them to do. If you ever want to learn though, I’d be happy to teach you, not matter the language it is” he offered warmly.

Mary was glad that he let it drop. But she nodded her head in agreement. “Exactly what I was thinking,” she said. “I know that events like this seem pretentious and wrong, sometimes, but I think that they can do a lot of good. When you bring a ton of rich people into one room, they all want to be better than the next, it will bring in a lot of money,” she said. “And that money will go to a good cause, and it will help people...so I think that this will be good,” she said. Mary had seen it happen before, they would want to have a way to look good in front of all the other families, and if that money was going to help St. Mungo’s? Then she was all for it. She nodded her head and then laughed slightly. “You would hope. But that is asking too much, I think,” she said, with a shrug. It was unfortunate. “It has...but I don’t regret any of it,” she admitted with a shrug. She ran her hand through her hair and then smiled as he complimented her. “Thank you,” she said. “It’s...hard. But...I love him, you know? I don’t regret any of it.” She laughed. “That’s great, there are some people that I would love to do that to,” she said with a grin. “I was a bit of a special case,” she said. “But you’re so right,” she smiled. “Yeah?” She asked. “Thank you. Maybe i’ll just have to try and find the time...maybe when things settle down.”

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catchlxve:

it definitely wasn’t the best idea she’d ever had, and she knew it. still, the possibility of being able to kill two birds with one stone ( though greta had always abhorred that cruel expression ) by speed reading through some work documents while on her walk back to the office was just too tempting to pass up — especially since she’d accidentally spent just a little too much time on her lunch break. 

being as hectic and as focused as she was, however, ( a new statement representing giants had caught her eye ), greta, unfortunately, wasn’t paying all that much attention to her surroundings, and the result that followed was swift and unyielding — her slight body jolting hard as she crashed right into someone’s side. 

“oh my gosh! i am so, so sorry! are you okay?!” greta immediately gasped, her dark eyes wide and overflowing with a mix of rising guilt and sincere concern as she looked to face the poor, unsuspecting person she’d barreled into. a couple of her folders laid askew at her feet, but she paid them little to no mind for the moment. “i’m nearly late for something, and i wasn’t paying very much attention to where i was going and — oh, i didn’t hurt you did i? i can be such a klutz sometimes, i’m telling you.” 

Mary felt like she was living in some sort of daze these days. At times, she felt completely like herself, and other times she felt like she was a zombie, like she was never going to be herself again. She knew that it was the exhaustion of having a newborn, of doing it all on her own, but it was hard. And it left her frustrated, that Rodolphus wasn’t helping, that he was living his life like nothing had changed.

Perhaps standing in the middle of the sidewalk wasn’t the smartest decision, but she had started to notice that Nikolaus just seemed peaceful when they were outside, but perhaps, it was simply Mary’s desire to be out of the small apartment that they were living in, where the baby’s wails sounded ten times louder than they did outside. But regardless, she should have been paying attention, and when someone suddenly crashed into her side, she managed to stop herself from falling to the ground.

She stood there in shock, for a few moments, before she shook her head. “I’m okay,” she said, managing a small smile at the other person. “Really.” She promised, not wanting her to have to fuss over her, especially if she was running late to something. “No harm done, I promise. And really, I shouldn’t have been standing there, like that. I should have been paying more attention,” she said, waving her concerns away. “But are you alright?” She asked. “Can I help you pick up your folders?”

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rabastahn:

He knew this conversation was much deeper than any they’d had before and he was grateful, she was family now. Even if no one else acknowledged her as such he would, he always would. He wasn’t sure she understood entirely, Rickard would actually kill her, but he’d do anything to prevent that and he knew she wouldn’t do anything to put her son in danger. “It’s alright.” he responded though he felt tired, tired of bearing the weight Rod shrugged off on to others. But he’d had no choice and before he had had no issue with it. But after Rod’s confession he found himself growing more and more bitter. “It is what it is.”

Mary shook her head when he said that it was alright. “It’s not,” she said, her voice surprisingly firm. Perhaps it was being annoyed at Rodolphus for everything that had happened, his rejection of their son, but she was annoyed. And suddenly, she wasn’t feeling like the tired, meek girl that she had been just a few moments over. “You shouldn’t have to. Rodolphus is a grown man...you shouldn’t have to fix all of his mistakes...his problems,” she said. She looked at him and took a deep breath. “I’m sorry,” she said, realizing that, maybe, she was overstepping her bounds. “I just...i’m really frustrated with him,” she said, looking down at her son.

[expectantmary]

Mary was exhausted. Nikolaus wasn’t sleeping at night, and neither was she. Sometimes it felt like she hadn’t slept since she had her son, that she had been awake for more days than any person could handle. Perhaps she was delirious at this point, from sleep deprivation, and she knew that she should reach out, ask for help, but she didn’t want to bother Lily or Rabastan, they had so much on their minds, and while she knew that they would both happily come and help, she was trying to do it on her own. Or as on her own as possible. The flat she was living in was paid for by Rodolphus, it was small, and above Flourish and Blotts, but it was exactly what she needed for them, and it was away from her mother. That was all that mattered. She was currently sitting in a back corner of the Leaky Cauldron, her lunch forgotten on the plate, her son, sleeping peacefully in her arms and her eyes shut, when she sensed someone hovering above her.

“If you wake the baby up, I swear I will curse you,” she hissed out, her voice barely above a whisper.

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rabastahn:

He tried to understand but the truth was that he never would, not fully. Fear he could grasp easily but not this kind, for her child, for her future. “It’s for your safety, you must know that. My father, if he found out—-I know it’s hard but you have to understand the danger you’d be in if my father found out. Better to lie to your friends, to your son, than lose your life.” It was stern, more so than before, but if she slipped for a single moment. And then he understood the fear better, how imperiled her life had been for the last ten months. How could he fix it? He couldn’t. “I wish I could reassure you better, that that would never happen but I don’t—I don’t trust my brother much these days. All I can say, again, is that I’ll do my best to protect you both.”

Mary understood why things had to be the way that they were to a point, Rodolphus didn’t want anybody to know the truth, and she knew that he didn’t want his father to know the truth, but beyond that, she thought that it was more for his pride than anything else. She looked up to him, not used to hearing him talk in that tone, and it frightened her to a point. “I know,” she said, although...she didn’t really know. “I do. I get it. I want to protect him, Rabastan. I would never do anything that would put him in danger.” She looked up to him and then shook her head. “It shouldn’t have to be your job,” she said softly. “Don’t think that I don’t appreciate it. I do. More than you even know. I just...you shouldn’t have to feel responsible for what your brother has done,” she said. “That’s not fair to you.”

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translatingdirk:

Nodding his head, Dirk gave her a smile, “I think that’d be a great way to get people involved in good causes, but I think there are some that are only willing to give when a tragedy occurs unfortunately” he admitted. A lot of people weren’t generous unless it benefitted them - boosted their status. “Thank you Mary, your expertise is very much appreciated. I think you’re absolutely right. The point isn’t to be the center of attention, and despite the fact that it’s a ball it isn’t really a celebratory event” he agreed. It was a much more somber event and he hoped people treated it that way. Dirk grinned at her and then looked at the little one she had in the pram, “I think that’s more than acceptable Mary. I can’t imagine motherhood leaves you with a lot of sleep, and no one can fault you for wanting to go home early.” Grinning, he gave a soft hum in agreement, “Languages are interesting, and to be able to speak and understand them is a different level of power I think. Not that I seek power so much, but it’s nice to have that knowledge. It comes in handy more often then one might think. If you ever want to know anything about any language let me know and I’ll do my best to answer,” he offered warmly. Giving a nod Dirk smiled, “You’re a great mum, Mary. He’s lucky to have you”.

Mary sighed and then nodded her head in agreement. “You’re right,” she said. In all honesty, she could think of many people that she knew from the Pureblood circles that she used to run in that fit that description. Her own mother would certainly fall into that category, unfortunately. “I know,” she agreed. “But at least they’re helping, even if it’s only financially. Honestly...that seems to be one of the best ways sometimes.” Mary didn’t know much, but she did know that money always talked, money always opened doors that were otherwise shut. She nodded her head. “It’s not, but if I know anything about balls, i’m sure there will be some people that treat it that way. It’s the unfortunate allure of a ball and dressing up and money.” She knew. She had been that way at one point in time. She laughed softly and then nodded her head. “That’s true,” she agreed. She doubted that Rodolphus would be happy to see her there, anyways. It would really complicate things. “I’m getting used to the whole, no sleeping thing,” she said lightly. Doing this alone...it was rather difficult. But she wouldn’t change anything. She smiled. “I can imagine how shocking it must be when you pull out a language when people have no idea that you are even listening,” She said, imagining the look of surprise on people’s faces that had to come with that. “My mother always wanted me to learn another language, preferably French, but I was never one to do as she wanted,” she said with a light laugh. “I regret it now, though,” she said with a shrug. “Thank you,” she smiled, a real smile . It was nice to be told that she was doing a good job.

[severelyseverust]

Rod, Severus, Mary // The Weight of My Mistakes

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severelyseverust:

Severus thought it was strange, to be in Mary’s room with Nikolaus in his arms. He was rocking back and forth with him laying on his chest. He was quiet, not quite asleep, but not crying either. Mary sat on the bed, she needed to rest, and he was here to make sure she rested as much as possible, ready to be at her beck and call and help wherever he could. It was all so surreal, everything had happened so quickly that Severus had barely had time to wrap his head around it, but he was here, feeling as if his chest was wide open and his heart was visible to all in the little body in his arms. He didn’t know something could be so innocent, so pure, and so loved only with a few hours of life. This was what family was like, and the emotions that stirred in him had never stirred in hims before, a want and a need for this. His own family, his own life, it was dangerous territory. It was more than Severus had ever wanted. He never had a family to call his own, Rodolphus was the closest thing before this that he knew as family, and even then it was more like a business than a comfort. He never let Rodolphus see him hesitate, see him vulnerable, he was always the perfect soldier, ready to do what needed to be done and get what was necessary for their success. Rodolphus, in many ways, knew little of the man Severus was, because Severus had never allowed himself to be that man. 

He looked at Mary, his face softening as he pushed the dark thought from his mind and kissed Nik’s head. “Are you sure you’re alright? Don’t… need anything?” He asked before he gave her a sheepish smile. “Sorry, I know I keep asking… I don’t mean to fuss over you,” He said just as there was a cut clear crack in the air and Severus knew the time had come. The pop of apparition was one he knew well, and when the door of the house turned downstairs and he heard footsteps come up the stairs he felt his stomach twist in anticipation. The cruel realisation that this family, as much as he loved it, would never be his, like everything he ever loved, it was Rodolphus’. He owned nothing, because at the end of the day Severus was nothing. Just as his mother had told him. This time, it was his own doing. 

@expectantmary

Mary was exhausted. Childbirth had been more taxing and difficult than she had expected. No class had really prepared her for what it would be like, and nothing could prepare her for what it was like, bringing a child home. She felt highly unqualified, bringing him home, although all of the healers had been so encouraging, everybody at St. Mungo’s had been great. At the hospital, she had been glad to have the healers there, checking on her and the baby, making sure that they were doing okay. But then they had been discharged earlier that morning, and now it was all on her. She was afraid of breaking him, even though the healers had assured her that babies were not as breakable as they looked. But Nikolaus was so small, and he looked so fragile, and she loved him more than anything. Holding him in her arms, she had been completely taken aback by how strongly she loved him the moment that he had been placed on her chest. Even now, sitting on her bed, Nikolaus sleeping in her lap, she was afraid to move and do something that would hurt him, or wake him up. He had fallen asleep about fifteen minutes ago, and she didn’t want to wake him up so soon, she wasn’t sure if he would go back to sleep quickly. Mary was glad, however, to have Severus there still. She hadn’t been sure if he would stay with her after she came home, but she was honestly so glad that he was there. It helped, having someone there with her. She was still recovering from the birth, and it honestly just helped, having him there to go and get her water if she needed it, and didn’t feel up to going downstairs to the kitchen. And it was nice to have the company, as well, someone to talk to, someone to go through this with, so she wasn’t all alone.

She smiled when Severus leaned down and kissed Nik’s head. She was reminded of how much he had done for them, how much he was sacrificing by being there, and she felt a rush of love for Severus. She didn’t think she could have gone through the birth without him by her side. “I’m okay,” she promised him. “But...I don’t mind the fussing,” she admitted with a quiet laugh, not wanting to wake the baby up. When Mary heard the crack, she knew that Rodolphus was there. She felt the pit in her stomach grow, she was so nervous about seeing him, of him seeing their son. Mary looked to Severus, wanting to see some sort of reassurance, although she doubted that Severus knew how she was feeling. 

At the knock at her bedroom door, she took a deep breath. “Come in,” she said softly, and she looked as Rodolphus entered the room. “Hi,” she greeted after a moment. She was unsure of what to say, so she carefully picked her son up, cradling his head, to show his father. “This is your son, Nikolaus.”

@rodolphuslcstrange​

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daggersareagirlsbestfriend:

“Men and women both, we only change as we wish,” She said as she looked at Mary and smiled. “I suppose you’re right, it’s best to look at the positives, however unrealistic, though you are beautiful, I’m sure you’ll be lucky,” She said as she grabbed a new glass of champagne. “I hope so too, for the both of you,” She hummed as she saw Rodolphus disappear. Seeing Emmeline was nowhere to be found either, she could imagine where they were both headed. “I should keep walking around, but it was a pleasure Mary, all the best to you and your baby.”

“True,” she agreed with a small smile on her lips. She had been forced to change for her son, but she didn’t regret it. She wished that Rodolphus would change for him as well, but so far, she realized that she was only going to be disappointed. “Thank you,” she said, hoping that she was right, although she wasn’t in a rush to find anybody to be with. She just wanted to get through everything with her son. She nodded her head, not noticing that her attention went elsewhere. “It was nice to meet you,” she said. “Thank you. I hope you have a good night,” she said with a smile. 

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rabastahn:

He hated hearing that, how deep her fear was and wished there was something he could do. Being there for her was all he had right now, and for Nikolaus. “I would never call you stupid Mary, you just—very afraid, if you don’t mind me saying.”

Mary knew that he was right. She was afraid, and she hated that about herself. But there was just so much on her mind these days. “You’re not wrong,” she said. “I just...I’ve had a lot on my mind...ever since I got pregnant. It’s been hard. I don’t like keeping so many secrets, the truth about my son.” It was one thing to lie about where she got a necklace or about why she skipped class. It was another thing to lie about her son’s father to the people that she loved. “I worry that I won’t be a good enough mother, that someone...someone will take him from me,” she finally admitted. As irrational as it was to fear that, she couldn’t help it. 

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rabastahn:

he nodded, swaying a bit to keep Nikolaus happy. “It’s only been a few days, don’t you think it’s al ittle early for those fears to creep in?” Maybe he was wrong, he wasn’t a parent, but he hoped she could find some more confidence, she always seemed as if someone had just yelled at her, or was about to, it hurt him to see.

Mary smiled, she liked watching Nikolaus with Rabastan. She wanted her son to have family like Rabastan. “Maybe, but I’ve been afraid my whole pregnancy,” she shrugged her shoulders. “But I do know that it’s stupid, and I’m doing a fine job with him. I guess...I just need to get more confident about parenting.”

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daggersareagirlsbestfriend:

Kamila grinned, raising an eyebrow as she looked Mary up and down. “I suppose it doesn’t, but it’s pitiful… ‘Oh I’m sure our relationship is different’, ‘No you don’t understand’, you name it, I’ve heard it… Severus was crazy in love with Josephine, and yet Rodolphus didn’t hesitate to sleep with her, they were quite the pair, we all thought they’d be King and Queen, but alas… Here we are… I’ve seen these men promise women the world, and then turn and promise it to another,” She said shaking her head, “That’s why we must get the world ourselves,” She mused as she finished her drink and put it to the side, looking at Mary once more with a smile. “If you find such a man, that’ll be a surprise, but I hope so, I wonder if women will be so kind his way… But then, wouldn’t that be ironic? Severus Snape and never getting a happy life, not in love, not in work, and it’s all by the people that claim to care for him oh so much,” She said with a small giggle. “Perhaps.”

Mary suddenly felt uncomfortable. She bit down on her lip. “Well...yeah, those kinds of things are pretty sad...men don’t seem to change unless they want to...you can’t make them do something that they don’t want to.” She thought of Rodolphus, who had made everything so complicated, made her life more complicated. Mary frowned. “Well, that’s terrible. I just...would like to believe that there are truly good men out there, you know? Instead of getting pessimistic.” But she was pessimistic about plenty of things, she thought, she didn’t know why this one was different. Mary nodded her head slightly. “I can see your point,” she admitted. She looked at her and then shrugged her shoulders. “I hope so. I hope that we can both be happy, whoever that is with, you know?” She said. 

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rodolphuslcstrange:

His hiss of laughter was humorless. Of course Severus would want Mary paraded around mere days after childbirth - he suspected it was meant to be a display of strength, of solidarity between the two of them. “You should be resting, not on your feet,” he reiterated. His hands gestured to the empty leather-bound sofa and his hands rested along her upper arms in an attempt to guide her to sit down. As he stepped closer, he noticed the quiet bundle in her arms in the poorly lit room. His breath died in his throat. He watched the flickering of Nik’s eyelids, a telltale sign that the noise around him was enough to stir him from his slumber at last. “Why did you bring him here, Mary?” he hissed. “You know that he is never supposed to see the insides of this manor at all. It’s not safe for him here.” Not in the lion’s den, not when his enemies lurked in every shadowy corner. He prayed that she would not walk past the enchanted portraits of his ancestors with Nikolaus in her arms; he had a feeling that they would recognize one of their own immediately.

Mary was startled by his laughter. She looked at him, her eyes wide. She hadn’t quite realized, until that moment, just how angry he was that she was there, that Severus had wanted her to come. “I’m fine...” she trailed off, but still, she allowed him to guide her to sit down, until he stopped, suddenly, and she looked up at him. She hadn’t really thought through coming to this tonight. For one, she was exhausted, she felt uncomfortable in her dress and she just wanted to get something comfortable on and go to bed while Nikolaus slept. And two, it was suddenly very clear to her that Rodolphus didn’t want her there. Didn’t want them there. She could feel her son start to stir in her arms, and she looked up at him. “What else was I supposed to do?” She asked, her voice cracking as she was overcome with a million different emotions. She was suddenly sad, and exhausted, and confused, and she really just wanted to go home and get in bed with her son. “Severus wanted me to come, and I have nobody to watch him. I don’t trust anyone with him.” She looked up at him. “He won’t remember it, Rodolphus, nobody realizes. He’s been asleep all night.” She thought, unless he was awake when Severus had him. He had been sleeping with her. 

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translatingdirk:

“I very much appreciate it. I don’t want to look too out of place. The Ministry as a whole doesn’t hold gatherings like this often so it’s never really been my domain” he admitted. Dirk knew how to dress on a regular basis, and he was quite comfortable with his fashion attire, but galas and balls were out of his element. “They do look lovely, and they’re very sharp. It gives a different appearance” he agreed. Dirk gave her a smile, “Well thank you. I don’t think this is the setting to test it out, but maybe someday I’ll try out one of the brighter suits,” he teased. Nodding his head, he replied, “I can see that. I’m sure everyone will love to see a baby among the mix. At the very least, it’s for a good cause”. Dirk gave an almost sheepish smile, “I’m a bit of a linguist if I’m honest. Names are particularly interesting because of the significance they hold,” he admitted. Nodding he hummed in agreement, “Absolutely, and it’s brilliant that he has a mum that knows that”. 

Mary nodded her head. “I understand the feeling,” she said, assuring him. She had spent so much time preparing for events like this in the past, making sure that she would fit in. “I’m sort of surprised that the Ministry doesn’t do this more often, it’s a good way to raise money,” she said. “But I promise, if you stay with something classic and casual, you will absolutely fit in!” She promised. Mary nodded her head. “Very true. I think that it takes a very specific setting to try something brighter. An event like this...I would say that it might be a little bit...inappropriate to wear bright yellow or something, you know? Given the intent of the event,” She said. It was something that she had just realized, this wasn’t just a typical event, it was for people who had lost their lives. Mary smiled. “I hope so. But I’m not planning on being there all night. I’m going to be entirely too tired, I think.” Mary wasn’t sure how people would react, but she told herself that it didn’t matter. “I think that’s really cool! I loved going through the baby books and reading about the meaning behind names. If I knew, I probably would have bothered you about it all,” she teased. “Life’s hard enough, I wanted to give him a name he could be proud of.”

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fiercelily-evans:

Laughter spilled from her lips as she nodded, “Honestly, I’m sure I’ve been compared to much worse. At least Nancy Drew is a good influence” she grinned. There was something about Mary that had always drawn her in, and she wanted nothing more than to protect her. She was so much more than people realized, and Lily felt honored to have such an incredible person as her best friend. A true smile spread across her lips, “Honestly, I’m so happy for you love. He’s going to be incredible Mac, mark my words” she hummed. Lily had no doubt that any child that shared Mary’s DNA would be a great one, even if his father was Severus Snape. “There’s strength in names, definitely. I’m sure whatever you choose will be fitting” she smiled. 

Loyalty ran through Lily’s blood, and she wasn’t one to give up on people. Losing James had been gut wrenching, even if it had been for the best. There was nothing that Mary could do that would make her leave her, no matter how difficult things got. While Lily didn’t seek comfort often, she knew that if she ever needed it, Mary would be there for her. Even now, as she filled her in about the aftermath of the event, she had the other woman to lean on. “I love you too Mac, both of you. I’ll always be here for you” she promised, extending her loved to the child that Mary would bear. Lily smiled warmly, “You’re stronger than you think are love, but you’ll never have to worry about it.” 

Shaking her head, she gave a sigh of relief, “It would have resulted in another massacre I’m sure. Thank Merlin she didn’t win” she mused. Lily loathed to think about what Emmeline would do in such a powerful position. A grin pulled at the corners of her lips, “You’re right, he would. If they’re stupid enough to keep him on, I’ll make sure he suffers for it” she admitted. Lily tipped her head back as she laughed, “I don’t doubt that for a minute, Mary. Remind me not to piss you off” Lily teased. As she continued, Lily couldn’t stop the laughter, “Fuck sake I’d have paid to see that”. 

“True, and Nancy Drew is a pretty good role model if you ask me. She doesn’t listen to anyone, and she fights crime...well, sort of. You know what I mean. I think that’s pretty badass,” she grinned. “Just like someone else I know.” Mary loved Lily, and nothing would ever change that, could change that. She was never judgmental, even when Mary made stupid decisions. She was there when she needed to vent about something, and she never made her feel like she was being stupid, even when she knew that she was being stupid. It was a friendship that had gotten her through everything, without Lily, she didn’t know what she would be like. “Thanks, Lily, I’m excited to meet him. I feel like i’ve bonded so much more with him the past twenty four hours now that I know that he’s a boy,” she admitted. “I know that a name will just seem perfect eventually. But I don’t want to rush naming him and regret my decision in a few years.”

She had always admired Lily for how loyal she was to her friends. Mary liked to think that she was just as loyal as Lily was, but she knew that that wasn’t necessarily true. Her mind went back to Peter, and how terribly she had treated him. Deep down, she regretted what she had done, but she realized that she couldn’t take any of it back. Lily never would have done something like that to a friend, and Mary aspired to be more like Lily. “I know. And I will always be there for you, regardless of what’s going on or what you need me for. I will always be there,” she promised. Mary didn’t know if she necessarily believed Lily, but she smiled anyways. “Thank you,” she said, honestly. 

“Yeah, I’m sure that it would have,” she agreed. Emmeline had always intimidated her, and she didn’t keep it a secret that she supported everything that Rodolphus’s campaign stood for. “Things may not be perfect, but at least Emmeline isn’t in one of the most powerful positions,” she pointed out. They had to celebrate the little things, Mary believed. She grinned at Lily. “Make him resign,” She laughed. “If anyone could do it, it would be you. Make his life hell. He deserves it, the bloody prat,” She said, shaking her head. “You could never, Lils,” she said with a laugh. “I like you too much,” she teased. Mary laughed. “He was taking too long in the ice cream aisle! Pregnant women need their ice cream!”

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emmavnity:

“Actually, I might just go,” she said, running her hand through her hair. It was more about her manager insisting that she needed to go than anything else; Emma hated the whole concept of a bunch of pureblood idiots gathering, listening to boring music and acting like they were philanthropists. “Are you looking forward to it?”

“Well, maybe you can just make a quick appearance, take some pictures to prove that you were there, and then you can sneak out?” She offered with a laugh. She sighed and shrugged her shoulders. “I would rather be home sleeping, I think, i’m exhausted, newborns are tiring,” she said with a laugh. “But I want to support the cause, you know? Help St. Mungo’s rebuild and everything,” she explained. 

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daggersareagirlsbestfriend:

It was a fraction of a moment, but she saw it. The surprise on her face at the mention of the would be Minister. Was she another doe that once fell for the oh so popular Lestrange? No, there was no way was there? Severus was known for not touching the women Rodolphus had, though she was still to see this oh so popular baby. Would it have Severus’ intense blue eyes? Mary’s light golden brown? Blonde hair or red? Neither? Severus was too calculated for a child outside of wedlock. “Oh I think all women are interested in that kind of man, it’s just a matter of if you’re the flavor of the month for him,” She mused with a sigh to see if it would rile another response. “No, it isn’t I am pleasantly satisfied in the bedroom, and outside I have the love of my family, otherwise it’s a waste,” She said honestly with a shrug. “I understand, my brother and I have a couple of years in between us, it’s known to happen,” She said with a kind smile her way. “Though I wonder if Severus would approve, or if another man would, it is so hard to find a good man to be a father or a man that wants to be a father to another man’s child, especially one so… involved,” She said as she saw Severus appear with the child at the other end. “Why, you look like a perfectly happy family, no woman would dare to interfere, nor would any man… Isn’t that lonely?” She asked turning the question on her. 

Mary shrugged her shoulders when she said that she thought that all women were interested in that kind of man. She wanted to pretend that she hadn’t been interested in Rodolphus for so long, but she also knew that she wouldn’t have her son if it wasn’t for Rodolphus and she wouldn’t change that for anything. Every change she had made in her life was for her son, and she would never take that back. “I suppose you have a point,” she conceded. “Although it doesn’t say much for the man when he has a flavor of the month, does it?” She asked. Of course what she had had with Rodolphus was a one time thing, she didn’t consider herself in that category. Their relationship was different now, it had to be. They had a son now, and while she wouldn’t force Rodolphus into his son’s life, she felt like it was better off for her son to have no contact rather than forced contact, she was never going to keep her son away from his father. She just couldn’t find it in her to be petty. “I admire your honesty,” she said. Mary didn’t think of herself as someone who was desperate for a boyfriend or a relationship, but she did want one eventually. “Yeah...I suppose you are right,” she said. “But whoever that man may be in the future, he will have to accept that my life is complicated and be able to deal with Severus and my son,” she said with a shrug. Those men existed, she was sure of it. Mary bit her lip and shrugged her shoulders. “I...don’t know,” she admitted. “Perhaps.” 

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rabastahn:

She wasn’t the right person to tell, they weren’t quite friends and he’d never been open with family—except Rod. And Rod betrayed him far worse than anyone else in his entire life had, it had Rabastan building castle walls from steel instead of crumbling stone. He knew she cared, genuinely, she wanted to but this relationship would take time. “That’s what matters, and you want to do what is best. You’re a good mom Mary, so just keep up the good work.” He laughed at how corny that sounded.

Mary let it go and she gave him a small smile. “Thank you,” she said. It was nice to hear, she was filled with so much self doubt lately, about whether she was making the right choice or not, but hearing people say that she was doing a good job helped to boost her confidence. “I am trying,” she said with a shrug. “My mother was never the best...so I’m trying to not turn out like her, you know? I don’t want Nikolaus to feel like I felt growing up,” she shrugged. Nikolaus was never going to have to deal with what she had dealt with as a child, she was sure of that.