Severus had always been a decisive man. When we was seven he decided his fate was his own, and in Hogwarts he proved that to be true. He worked harder than anyone he knew, he mastered anything he set his mind to, and he was loyal to no one but himself. After all, no one had been loyal to him his entire life, and he wasn’t foolish enough to think otherwise. That had all changed when he was assigned to take care of Mary. Her and Nikolaus had taught Severus more about himself than he ever knew, and he wasn’t sure that was a good thing yet. He knew that his unwavering personality came to hesitate and soon to decide Rodolphus was now nothing more than a depleted resource. Once he had been perfect, the face for a revolution, charming and smart, but he had gotten too comfortable and became nothing more than a cocky man with more mistakes than virtues. Severus made sure all his mistakes, shady deals, and fears stayed under the carpet, and he did his job well, he was the brains where Rodolphus was the face, since Severus always preferred the shadows, and he was sure that was what his life would be, until Nikolaus was born. Severus had had enough, had seen enough wreckage, pain, and disaster that Rodolphus left in his wake, and how he didn’t even notice how he destroyed those he called dear. First it was his own brother, who he claimed to save and instead destroyed, then Severus, his heart and his love for Josephine, then it was Josephine, to this day still looking at him with large eyes, then Mary, Evan, Helena, Narcissa, you name it. Rodolphus had probably hurt them and not even noticed his own selfish need left him alone. With no one but Emmeline Vance, a woman who barely had her own head on right.
That’s why he was here today, sitting in Mary’s house with Lily Evans of all people in front of him. All sitting like they were some type of fucking friends having tea. They weren’t, his dislike for Rodolphus now didn’t mean he liked Evans, oh no, he still disliked her, but he respected her. Perhaps more now than he ever had, because of Mary, because of Helena and Alecto. Nik was asleep, just put down by Mary in his crib as she entered the deadly quiet room where she had left Lily and Severus who didn’t speak in fear that he’d end up saying something to anger her, instead waiting for the moment that Mary returned to speak. “Right, then,” Severus said as Mary entered and he looked at her and then Lily. “As I’ve said before… This isn’t a social visit,” He said as he cleared his throat, trying to relax. He usually was so relaxed around Mary, and now he was… stiff, composed, with a small frown on his face. “I imagine we don’t have to tell you the truth since it’s likely you already know it, and were waiting for the moment that Mary told you, but… I… We have come to the decision to share this with you, because as…” Severus strained himself as he looked at Lily and he felt bile rise in his throat. “As much as I… do not see your point of view, I believe you are the… correct person to trust with this… I trust you, with this,” He nearly choked out as he leaned back in his chair. “Merlin I’ve finally gone mad, I knew this day would come, I knew that this would happen…” He whispered to himself. “Mary… If you’d like to be the one to tell Evans.”
Getting the call from Mary asking her to come over wasn’t surprising in the least bit. However, the fact that Severus was going to be their during their little meeting was. Lily had suspected that he wasn’t the true father for a while now, but she didn’t have the heart to call Mary out on it. Frankly, there was one person that fit the bill, and Lily had assumed it was him all along; Severus stepping into the role only confirmed her suspicions after her initial shock and frustration was felt. Still, Mary needed her to be there, and if the woman was keeping a secret from her, she assumed it was for good reason. Despite having little information about the meeting, Lily went. The red head hoped that Mary wasn’t going to ask them to make amends. She could be civil with him when necessary, but after their less than stellar history, forgiveness wasn’t in the cards.
Sitting in Mary’s home staring down the beast in front of her was almost comical. Her best friend was putting Nik to bed, and she was happy to keep the silence. It should have been uncomfortable, but Lily like staring down; it was fun to make him squirm sometimes. At one point, his digs and insults had upset her, but Lily’s skin was thick and the petty insults rolled off of her. Still, when Mary came into the room, she gave her the warmest of smiles, and patted the seat next to her - handing her a cup of tea that she’d made while Mary was caring for her son. “I was hoping it wasn’t - no offense Mary, you know I love seeing you” she hummed. There was a tension around them and she didn’t care for it in the slightest. It put her on edge, even though she had a feeling she knew what this was about. Watching him stutter out a compliment towards her was more satisfying than she wanted to admit. After all the petty insults, the targeting during school, hearing him say that he respected her - trusted her even - made her want to smirk. However, Lily didn’t do that, but instead turned to Mary and gave her a warm smile. She couldn’t help but give a soft laugh as Severus spoke, “Maybe you’ve just come to your sense” she mused, a hint of playfulness in her eyes. Her attention went back to Mary almost immediately though, “You can tell me anything, Mac, you know that right? Doesn’t matter what it is, I’ll be right here” she promised.