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@f0rever-l0st
TRIGGER WARNING:
i have an ED but i do NOT promote or glorify it. this is my way of coping and feeling better. please stop getting my account terminated, youāre only making me worse.
PLEASE DO NOT REPORT ME, SIMPLY BLOCK ME.
if you are not an ED blog, do not follow me.
(i was previously g0ne2w0nderland2)
Wish I could cut the damn fat off.
TW: ranting, thinspo for myself, body hating for myself and myself only
i must take control of my life. i must take control of my eating. i need to have the willpower. i will not spend another year being fat and getting fatter. hitting 200 pounds is the worst thing that has ever happened to me, i canāt believe i thought i was fat at 108 pounds. now i am so horrifically fat, the rolls and stretch marks are so gross and i feel so dirty. iām going to get myself back. iām going to get to my lowest weight ever and then some. iām not letting this be my body forever
again everything i say negatively is solely only about myself, i would never ever say anything negatively about another personās body or shape etc. i encourage recovery, i do not promote anything for anyone other than myself. this is my only safe space to vent and release my emotions in a healthy way.
i actually love when i get the shits because of how light i feel afterwards, i feel so empty and clean
for someone obsessed with losing weight Iām not very good at it
šÆā” i can fast easily ā”šÆ
šÆā” i can fast easily ā”šÆ
šÆā” i can fast easily ā”šÆ
šÆā” i can fast easily ā”šÆ
šÆā” i can fast easily ā”šÆ
I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween.I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween. I will lose twenty pounds by Halloween.
Starving out of spite is so much easier.
THIS. you made me feel like shit, now iām gonna starve myself especially to make you feel bad about it
(and because iām a fat pig of courseš)
food is not a reward.
not being able to smoke fucking sucks because itās the literal only thing that helps me sleep, not even ambien works for my fucked up brain. but i have to detox because iāll have to drug test for a job once i start applying. nights seem longer and longer when you stare at the fucking wall for hours
only good thing about detoxing is not getting the munchies and eating literally everything in sight, thatās the main reason iāve let myself get to such a horrific disgusting weight. so hopefully over these next few weeks iāll be able to lose what iāve gained from that and then some.
and also to prove a fucking point. iām a horrible person yeah? cool, your words hurt and youāve kicked my fucking ed back into overdrive so thanks babe!!! never knew youād be the motivation i needed! thank you for making me feel even more worthless and shitty than i already do! :) <3333
The urge to just run away and leave everything behind
bruh you know youāre extra fat now when you tell your parents youāre fasting for the day and they donāt even try to stop you š back when i was actually fucking thin iād be watched like a hawk and be forced to eat and now that iām a literal fucking whale they donāt mind if i donāt eat
i hate myself so much :D
TW
iāve never wanted to die more than i do right now. i have no purpose in life, i have nothing to look forward to, the person who i thought i was going to marry doesnāt want to marry me, im at my fattest iāve ever been, im in so much debt, i canāt even get a job yet for my degree bc i have to pass the licensing exam first, itās all just too much and i just want to fucking die
i have no friends that i can rely on, im so fucking alone
i wish ana would fucking kill me once and for all but iām 200 fucking pounds so itāll be fucking months or years before i even get close enough for my body to give out
i just canāt do it anymore. iām not living im existing and i donāt want that, i just want to be gone
better in the waste than on the waist <3
just bc i'm āļøving doesn't mean i can't be silly
i WILL be skinny
Need someone to physically reach into my body and take all my digestive organs out so I canāt eat anymore lol
