Faithfully yours

Excerpts from old letters and more. Love, parenting, trauma and everything in between. Dear S, you are my world.

[faithfully-yours-always]

"Hold tight, little one. The storm is rough but I'll be your anchor always. Whilst the waves crash around us, I'll hold you steady."

- From mama, with love

[faithfully-yours-always]

"You can't pour from an empty cup and there's no rewards for martyrdom but sometimes we sacrifice a little of us to pour it all into them and it's worth it, oh so worth it. This is unconditional, unwavering love."

- From mama, with love

[faithfully-yours-always]

You were the key to my heart. Now you're gone, it's sealed forever. I am done. I am gone. I am through.

Letters I’ll never write

[faithfully-yours-always]

There are still times I cry out for a mother, but not mine. Nothing on this Earth could put me back into a space of begging a parent to view me as human.

Musings

[faithfully-yours-always]

I wish it were me, not you. This world has far greater need for you than it ever did me. I would do anything to go back and swap places. You deserved to go on.

Letters I'll never write

[faithfully-yours-always]

The strangest thing I've found about my recovery is how brand new I feel, and yet how much I feel more myself than I ever have. Like I stripped away a lot of dead and useless parts to find myself hidden away underneath, just waiting to be discovered. Finally clean, finally allowed to relax and so utterly tender. Freedom.

Musings

[faithfully-yours-always]

I will hold you accountable for your future actions, and you know that, but know that I love you through them, always. Even when I'm sad, angry or hurt, I love you through it all.

Letter - 23/3/2020

[dopeequeendaisyy]

I fucking hate you. I always will baby 💔

[faithfully-yours-always]

Wtf is wrong with you. Stop this. I don't know you

[faithfully-yours-always]

And sometimes, like tonight, it takes everything in me not to drive to you, and fall at your feet, and ask for a new beginning. Absolutely everything. You deserve your space, and I’m not about to invade that. But God if it doesn’t destroy every part of my soul to stay away.

Letters I’ll never write

[cindy-mercredie]

Every night and day I am broken and destroyed to give you what you wanted… for me to stay away

[faithfully-yours-always]

Please stop reblogging my quotes and making comments on them like this. Use the tags for it. It’s weird otherwise.

[dopeequeendaisyy]

I feel disgusting, and I will stay away until I can pray you will come back 🙏🏻🙏🏻💔 meanwhile I know I don’t even cross your mind. Because I’m nothing to you 🥺

[faithfully-yours-always]

Dude, read above. There is a person behind this blog and its so weird to wake up to this shit on several of my posts. I routinely block people who do this. @dopeequeendaisyy

[faithfully-yours-always]

For the first time, there is nothing from my past I want back. I can finally just look forward - that, to me, is peace.

Musings

[faithfully-yours-always]

I spent so long chasing the wrong person that I lost myself in it and I forgot what it was like to be with the right person. Love is so much softer, happier and safer. Always easy? No. Always secure? Yes.

Musings

[faithfully-yours-always]

This blog needs a new name!

I'll take any suggestions!

[faithfully-yours-always]

"Why would such a place as this, where my world fell apart in so many ways, feel so much like home?" I wondered, before it hit me. Why wouldn't the place where I met you, fell in love with you and began my story with you feel like home?

Musings

[faithfully-yours-always]

I've punished myself for almost four years with endless guilt that I am bound to promises I made despite the ones you broke. That I owe you everything despite your deliberate hurtful actions, lovebombing and discarding those around you with ease. Your peace of mind in manipulating and harming others only serves to disturb me now. I draw a line in the sand as of today. I owe you nothing.

The Final Letter

[faithfully-yours-always]

I've learned now that if I give someone everything I have to offer and it's still not enough for them, then that is not a sign I need to try harder but a sign for me to get far, far away from that person.

Musings

[faithfully-yours-always]

I've learned now that if I give someone everything I have to offer and it's still not enough for them, then that is not a sign I need to try harder but a sign for me to get far, far away from that person.

Musings

[faithfully-yours-always]

I've punished myself for almost four years with endless guilt that I am bound to promises I made despite the ones you broke. That I owe you everything despite your deliberate hurtful actions, lovebombing and discarding those around you with ease. Your peace of mind in manipulating and harming others only serves to disturb me now. I draw a line in the sand as of today. I owe you nothing.

The Final Letter

[faithfully-yours-always]

I've punished myself for almost four years with endless guilt that I am bound to promises I made despite the ones you broke. That I owe you everything despite your deliberate hurtful actions, lovebombing and discarding those around you with ease. Your peace of mind in manipulating and harming others only serves to disturb me now. I draw a line in the sand as of today. I owe you nothing.

The Final Letter