I currently got 56 pulls saved up, the events are pretty fun and easy compared to genshin lol
I might pull the next banner bc I saw Theres some cute pink haired girl.. I think her name was Cyrenne or smt similar unless I'm mixing up characters
I should be at like 50 pity or smt so I think I have a pretty good chance of getting her but it's a gacha game so you never know... Tho I still need to wait for Quinaifen to appear again, I'm not giving up on her. I will get her even if it means getting every 5 stars to do so.
The New banner doesnt have Quinaifen..... I don't want sampo and I got luka already... The fox girls cute but mehh, shes not firework girl. Even the 5 stars are not it to me, I don't care about them.
I want Quinaifen back on the banner do I can pull for her.
Turns out theres a 5 star called Cyrenne in the second phase, she looks so cute... But depending on how I like playing as her in the trial, ill either pull or not.
I should probs figure out what 5 stars ill get when I fail the 50/50, they could also be good..
The New banner doesnt have Quinaifen..... I don't want sampo and I got luka already... The fox girls cute but mehh, shes not firework girl. Even the 5 stars are not it to me, I don't care about them.
I want Quinaifen back on the banner do I can pull for her.
I'm about to start crashing out, so yk, I just casually started playing honkai star rail like few days ago and today I got myself to lvl 21, but omfg. I've done 60 pulls. SIXTY. for one 4 star character.
Her name is Quinaife, she's my baby that refuses to hop on the train and come home.
I'M CLOSER TO PULLING A 5 STAR THAN HER.
I'VE PULLED THE CHICKEN ULTIMATE GIRL TWICE, LYNC 3 TIMES AND SOME RANDOM 4 STAR CHARACTER THAT WASN'T PART OF THE BANNER???? DUDE I JUST WANT MY FIREWORK GIRL. NOT SOME HEALER OR A CHICKEN GIRL, WHERE ARE MY EXPLOSIONS?????
I'VE DONE WHAT I CAN FROM THE EVENTS ENDING TODAY BUT I CAN ONLY GRIND THIS GAME SO MUCH BEFORE MY PHONE OVERHEATS. I HAVE LIKE 5 HOURS OR SMT TILL THE NEW PATCH COMES OUT MEANING A NEW BANNER WITH DIFFERENT 5 STARS AND 4 STARS. MY FUCKING BABY'S GONE IN FEW HOURS AND I WON'T SEE HER AGAIN TILL SHE APPEARS ON THE BANNER AGAIN OR I GET LUCKY AND PULL HER WHEN SHE'S NOT ON IT.
I hate gambling. (99% gambles quit before they hit it big)
I'm getting that girl even if she's the last character I get. I'mma start saving up just to be able to pull for her once she appears again.
Mannn, I started playing honkai star rail like yesterday. Like the similarities with this and genshin is so obvious that i could tell their from the same company if I didn't know that already
At some point I noticed there wasn't an artifact thing in star rail and I was happy bc I've spend too much time in artifact domains on genshin. I thought the light smt was this games acuvilant of weapons and artifacts- I mean it is for weapons.. Just to figure out the artifact "relics"were just locked behind a quest???
I'm never escaping the artifact/relic grind..
I'm currently grinding to do ten pulls bc I found a cute girl that reminds me of Yoimiya, but a 4 star! Their called Quinaife if I remember correctly.. And well I can't be a Yanfei main anymore so that girls the closest I got rn
Tbh I kinda wanna try and do one of those ask blog things that has like a story to discover, yk, like those like the bendy and cuphead aus. Bloodclot, myth of the machine, ect.
But I also know my drawing skills aren't the best, not to mention I'd have to draw on paper and take a pic of that since it doesn't look as good when I draw on my phone.. Then again, I see people doing those kinds of blogs with art that's pretty decent and they have fans interacting with them and giving input on the story.
I already have one dandys world AU in mind if I end up doing this, it's actually an AU I have shown art for once. It's meant to be a fic but I haven't started on that yet so why not train my story skills and drawing skills at the same time? It could be fun.
The drawings: art1, art2, art3
(Idk how much of the og story you can see in those I'll keep)
Every single time I open up my subscriptions tab on ao3, I check my email to see which fics have updated then I start my ritual of singing the abc's till I find the fic that updated.
I do not know my abc's. I once thought G was at the very end of the alphabet when in reality it's near the start.. AND THAT HAPPENED WHEN AO3 TOOK LIKE A MIN TO UPDATE EVERYTIME I CLICKED ANYTHING, I HAVE 7 TABS OF SUBS. THE FIC WAS IN THE THIRD AND I STARTED ON 6, CHECKED 7 JUST INCASE AND THEN WENT DOWN THE NUMBERS AND SKIPPED 3 BC "if it's earlier in the alphabet it's not in 3" WELL I AM A DUMBASS.
The only plus from my suffer with slow ao3 was the fact I played sudoku and sometimes minesweeper while waiting. (The fic I had subbed wasn't even one I was mentally stable enough to read at the moment so I didn't even get the relief of good amazing fluff fic)
Mannn, I just managed to load into a match with this Lara and omg, I loved her. I didn't exactly get to play with her a lot because I trusted the other two teammates to unhook her- I shouldn't have done that, my fault ;-;
But like I'm absolutely awful against most killers, especially nemy who was the killer I was against in that game but please lara teach me your ways...
Not me comparing what i rewrote and the og like "this scene... this scene was _words in og and now its _ wirds.."
Like og in its unfinished form is roughly 3k words, with the first scene veing roughly around 500 words. That scene in the rewriten? 1k words. I'd say im one third of the way through, but the og had 4 scenes not counting the unwritten one. So I'm noe left rewriting those 3 plus the one that never managed to even get written.
Depending on the writing? Each scene might be around or more than 1k, so perhaps a 5k chapter if im lucky lol
I keep switching between my og and rewrite while im rewriting because as much as i hate the og, it still has some good moments.
Like in the rewrite, there's play fighting but thats mostly it. Then i look over to the og one and i see-
Bff doing her best to try to keep the mc safe, bff rambling off how she could get the mc a safer job when the mc doesn't want anything else then their current job. Its what they had always dreamed of, they don't want to be baker or a cashier. Their happy with their job, but the bff cant understand that because the job the other does is one the elders dont approve of.
LIKE YEAH I LIKE THE REWRITE BUT LIKE THE OG? THAT GOT DEPTH. IM KEEPING THAT SCENE BECAUSE IT SHOWS OFF THE MC AND BFF'S DIFFERENT VIEWS SO WELL.
Its not just "you should be a baker" its "Your not safe out on the ocean, you should be a- like a baker or or.. A cashier! It would be so much safer, nothing could hurt you!" And the other isnt just "i like the waters" its "I feel more at home when im abroad a swaying boat. Feeling free while watching the waves crash against the hull, the way the light relefects on the waters is more beautiful than when the light shines from behind the leafes on a sunny day."
Like AAAAAAAAAAAA
The biggest reason im even rewriting is because i accidentally made the mc extremely childish in some scenes, like to the point i had to rewrite the whole scene just to fix the interaction.. idk how i did it when that same writing also made one of the best and heartaching moments within all my wips just few hundred words before
Omg i love baby killers, especially baby nurses!!???
Like i just met a baby nurse that did their best to chase me but they clearly new to nurse consider they just kept chasing and only used their blink when i was too far away.
But omg imma start straggling these survivors bc why the hell yall tbagging a newbie when YOU ACTUALLY END UP GETTING HIT???? The only reason i got hit was because the nurse surprised me but they weren't that hard to avoid, especially how they didn't use their blinks much.
I just wanted to play as Bill quick bc i need bloodpoints and he got few random add ons my main ran out of just to end up all men team which, yk what? Sure, why not. BUT WHY YALL SO RUDE, STOP TBAGGING THE NEWBIE????
Like these ppl cry and whine when the killers are tryhards without mercy with op perks, then they go and bully the baby and fun killers. LIKE I WANT TO FIND FUNNY KILLERS BUT I NEVER FIND THEM BECAUSE YALL BULLY THEM AWAY??? And when yall just tbag and bully the newbies they then just refuse to play killer which then only leads to ppl only playing against experienced killers you only escape by pure luck.
I recently got my ps+ back so i can play dbd again and OH MY GOD. I DID NOT MISS THESE SURVIVORS AT ALL. first match doesn't go well bc i forgot the run button, thats my fault.
Second match? Two ppl in basement, third obsessed with one machine and refusing to leave it while im stuck tryna sneak into basement. The two who were hooked in basement and got saved? Dead minute or two later. The person obsessed with machines? Refuses to save me when im hooked and gets grabbed off machine.
Third match? Oh BOY. i was the first to get hooked because i lost track of the killer and didn't realise they were still following me. Guess what happens? I get left on hook. I watch as someone elsd gets hooked near me, that person gets unhooked and HEALED ON HOOK WHILE IM GOING INTO SECOND PHASE. i honestly just started failing all the skillchecks only to get saved the last second, i didn't even care anymore and just found the killer and got hooked.
I can't even play with my duo rn bc she got stuff to do and is only free after a week so im stuck with randos who are either newbies or got one braincell.
I'd be helpful, I'd unhook and heal if yall did the same back. But no one does so, they all just watch me die on hook while the killers no where near me.
I only today got to the "impostor syndrome" vod from zam and omfg i love ittttt!???
So spoilers under the cut incase you haven't seen the vod or different pov of it yet ^^
SO THAT VODS PRETTY LORE HEAVY HUH. I'll be honest I haven't watched the last hour of the vod just yet but give me a min to ramble then I'll continue watching- and like I absolutely love Zams and everyone else's acting!?? Like honestly in certain parts I'm uncertain if it was acting or them just being genuinely surprised by what was happening.
AND WHEN THEY SUMMONED THE DOPPELGANGER??? THE WAY THE DOPPEL JUST SLOWLY TURNED AND SWITCHED SKINS BETWEEN EVERYONE IN THE ROOM??? OMG I CAN JUST IMAGINE AN ANIMATION VERSION OF THAT. HELL, I WANT TO MAKE AN ANIMATION VERSION OF IT AS THE DOPPEL TURNS TO ZAM AND MATCHES HER. AND IM NOT TALKING ABOUT A PERFECT REPLICA, NO. IM TALKING ABOUT THE SAME AS ZAM BUT THERES JUST SOMETHING WRONG. LIKE HOW HUMANS FEEL OFF WHEN STARING AT SOMETHING NOT QUITE HUMAN.
The doppelganger is Zam as far as anyone who doesn't know her well would think. But the missing antennas, the lack of avoiding attention and how she stoods tall without the fear Zam has. It's obvious to Zam and those she knows, but even then.. in a panic it's hard to pay attention to little details..
BUT OMGGGGG WHEN THE DOPPEL WAS GRACIE????? THE WAY EVERYONE TRIED TO TELL THEM APART BY THE BELLS AT FIRST TILL THE DOPPEL GOT ITS OWN BELLS AND JUST- THEY JUST STARTED RING AND RINGING, LIKE A BELL OF DOOM. IT WAS SO SCARY, LIKE THE EVER SO FAMILIAR RING OF HER BELLS AND "Blessed bells!" NOW JUST A RINGRINGRING OF BELLS OF SIN OR SMT IM NOT GREAT WITH WORDS
Not to mention the self blame different characters had??? Zam blaming herself for letting the chicken out of the circle briefly and her walking in circles afterwards in the resource world!? "I should just leave the school" LIKE OMG YES, YOU DO BUT THE PROFESSOR WONT LET ANYONE LEAVE SO SHE'S STUCKKK
Along with the way Legs just completely started being like "nonononoo" when anyone mentioned the doppelganger??? My guy got trauma and it's been only a week- or the way Gracie seemed so scared even after the doppelganger was gone, i can just imagine her hugging her bells as she asked "if I dropped my bells, could you give it back to me?" Its obvious that the way the doppelganger rang the bells, HER bells, was so off putting for her. The noise that she used as comfort, twisted and ruined.
And omg i love that the way they got their new powers was through fearrrr!!! Its just shows better how magic isn't just pretty particles, it can be also a fear response. The magic Zam got from it being one she could use to get away, which fits as she would most likely be the one to try to run. Sausage got a peam of light, which he could use to defend himself and others- not to mention his cooldown on that seems short!
...man i really wanna draw like Zam scared in a corner, the shadow of the doppelganger looming over her.. but I'd probably actually have to color it which is boooringg. I don't want to try and color my drawings >:/
I didn't draw dragons for a day and my ability to draw em IS FUCKING GONE sob
Im just rambling under the cut
Like yesterday I skipped drawing them because I had other stuff to do and I needed to go to bed early, guess what? MY MIND WAS FULL OF DRAGON IDEAS AND HEADCANONS!??
One headcannon I came up with during my sleepless night: what if sone if the original dragons were partners and stuff. I know most just think of those like "they were all mothers" bc they had eggs, but what if some of them were together so certain eggs might be siblings... like Zam's and Sausage's eggs since their both like space themed?
So following that headcanon, it's logical to think the baby dragons won't be exact replicas of their parents. Sure they have similarities like colors and powers, but also differences like horn shapes or wings.
Different thing to mention that kind fits into my previous yapping along with what I'll say afterwards, I absolutely love creating more of varieties with my dragon designs and I do just mean the basics like wings or horns. No, I mean like having some dragons with fur, some more Chinese dragon looking(flying without wings) or maybe like a wyvern(a dragon similar to a bat in body shape). Like VARIERITY.
I don't remember the exact thing I was thinking of, but I do know it was towards a player who I know only as "snakes, lots of snakes" bc i remember them meeting zam, sausage, gracie and bubbles(maybe?) And one of the snakes mating with bubbles. LIKE THATS ALL I REMEMBER ABOUT THEM. And like i thought of their dragon like "what if their a wyvern... but like underdeveloped so they got no back legs?" So they'd be a 'snake' with wings.. LIKE I EVEN COMPLETELY DESIGNED THEM IN MY HEAD WITH LIKE THESE FRILLS THAT SOME LIZARDS HAVE AROUND THEIR HEAD???
Another dragon idea i had (maybe to add to my Fleece desing..?) is the idea of like ram horns, like the type that like will grow into their head if its not cut. Because from what ive heard(im not certain if my infos correct), Gracie is like an cult member? I think it would be fun to slightly imply in the dragon design that even if the shepherdess gifted Gracie with the dragon and shared their power, the shepherdess can also take it away if need be. Like a double-edged sword. The dragon's horns can be used to defend but they also can harm the dragon itself, kind of thing.
Then there's the idea of Scott's dragon. I could do a refence back to rivendell with reindeer horns or i could also do horns made of ice. One thing i know is that i want to have the dragon design full of icicles where ever possible. Below the snout? Icicles. The tips of the wings? Icicles. Tail? Icicles. ICICLES, ANYWHER POSSIBLE. Maybe even like cracked ice like texture in some areas, possibly the horns. (Btw i got zero clue what the baby dragon looks like lmao)
And ofc, Pyro's dragon! Ive seen a clip or two that shows the baby as fiesty! I'd like to think they'd have one or two lit fires in their body, or maybe even be made of magma? Maybe their spine is on fire that goes from their head till the tip of their tail, or they could have wings made of fire(wings of fire, ha) along with their tail lit on fire like charmander from pokemon..
But thats all my ramblings abt this for today, I'll be back with more ideas later...
Funfact, the two dragons i drew up there were meant to be pyro's and scott's dragons ;-;
So from my understanding... the three things that show up at the top of my blog below my user and stuff.. are the 3 most popular posts of mine.
So do tell... WHY IS ONE OF THEM AN AWFULLY DRAWN DRAGON, ME TALKING ABOUT DRAWING TWILIGHT SPARKLE AND NOT EVEN A PIC AND ME TALKING ABOUT GETTING INTO THE FANDOM AND FIGURING HOW ZAM'S OUTFIT WORKED.
WHY THOSE 3!???? WHY COULDN'T IT HAVE BEEN MY BETTER DRAWING OF TWILIGHT, HOW I DREW FEECE OR A N Y T H I N G ELSE????
Soobbbb, I'm thankful for the likes and reblogs(and those who followed) but do yall really gotta show off my ugly stuff first 😭
