𝕲𝔬𝔡'𝔰 𝕸𝔬𝔰𝔱 T𝔯𝔲𝔰𝔱𝔢𝔡

"And the angels who kept not their first estate, but left their own habitation, he hath reserved in everlasting chains under darkness." -Jude 1:6

[fallenguardianofeden]

Spn writers couldn't stop at an unsatisfying ending for Gadreel they had to go and give the whole show an unsatisfying ending, huh?

[fallenguardianofeden]

Seriously though it's been just this ending again and again. Gadreel, then Cas, then Dean, all told by TPTB that they don't deserve a happy ending and that they will never get to enjoy the normal life they wanted and fought for.

[fallenguardianofeden]

Spn writers couldn't stop at an unsatisfying ending for Gadreel they had to go and give the whole show an unsatisfying ending, huh?

[thecastawaybrotherlucifer-blog]

SPN || Closed || 2014

[thecastawaybrotherlucifer-blog]

The threat of tears had successfully been pushed back, and Lucifer felt the dread that came with responsibility. He had been responsible for what had happened to Gadreel and he could not deny his brother that. “I had known that that would have been your punishment, and it was a risk I decided to take,” he sighed, pulling away.

Something twisted inside of him. The sudden awareness of how close they had been hitting him. His brother probably didn’t want to be near him right now. Lucifer could hear it in the bitterness of his tone. The fallen angel looked down, sighed, and then back into Gadreel’s eye. He would be honest and honourable.

"But it was never supposed to come to that," Lucifer explained quietly. "Once the humans had eaten from the Tree… Once Adam had taken a bite out of that Fruit, our Father was supposed to see how they cannot be trusted. How mankind do not deserve what they had been given. He was supposed to have seen how unfairly He had treated Eve with His favouritism towards Adam." Lucifer paused, then stated the obvious. "But it didn’t work. And I am so sorry, brother, that it has come to this."

[fallenguardianofeden]

Gadreel's face fell. So Lucifer had known that it was a possibility. He knew he was being irrational but he couldn't help but be hurt by the confession, and the way Lucifer pulled back. The urge to reach out and pull himself back into the archangel's sturdy grasp fought against the urge to pull further away. The latter won, if only by a slight bit.

"They were not bad creatures, Lucifer," Gadreel said softly, his eyes falling away from the other's when he finished talking. This was a much easier topic to discuss. His feelings on humanity, after all, were far more clear cut than his feelings towards the archangel himself. "They did not deserve to be tricked any more than I did."

[illyria3955-archive-deactivated]

fallenguardinofeden(closed)

[illyria3955-archive-deactivated]

[ fallenguardianofeden ]

         She cocked her head to the right side, looking at him. “And what goals did you think I had besides searching for my parents?” She asked, as if she knew what the answer would be. It would be what they all would say, causing chaos, giving into her demonic taint. Ruthless, powerful, destructive. Yet, she was none of those. A girl who didn’t know her strength, who didn’t want to be who she is. A girl who cares for others, and not enough for herself, and yet when she cant control her powers. She seeks a way.

         Even though she tried to forget what happened. Waking up from the dead, wasn’t that easy. As bruises had gathered in spots on her stomach, and her powers were weakened, and her joints hurt with every movement. Packing up her car in the lot, she froze and spun around when she heard the familiar voice.

        ”As much as that sounds delightful, healing might not work.” she told him her eyes looking him up and down. “Did you seriously come here to heal me, or did Metatron send you again to try and keep me dead this time?” she asked. Her tone was level, yet she wasn’t going to take being murdered lightly.

[fallenguardianofeden]

He expected the hostility in her voice. He would have been surprised had she greeted him with anything but, truthfully. But he'd had plenty of experience with that tone from plenty of others, both humans and angels, so it did not bother him in the slightest. He remained still where he stood, arms still half raised.

"I... have not spoken to Metatron yet," he confessed while still eyeing her warily, though he knew it was not her he should be wary of. His words were true. Telling Metatron he failed was an unappealing thought as it was. He knew he would be met with either disappointment or mockery and then sent off to try again. Though he was unsure what stalling would accomplish, he would have to report to the Scribe eventually. But not yet.

"I should not have simply expected that blade to work on you. My failure to prepare properly ended up causing you meaningless pain. That is why I am here." There was more to it than that, of course. She seemed sincere in her desires to locate her family rather than cause chaos and death as Metatron seemed to imply. Being an assassin with a conscience was a confusing task indeed.

[dudeim26]

Now came the tricky part “I don’t know how he did it, only that he did. I do know that you were good at your job, but he managed to slip past you, probably by disguising himself somehow” he was pretty sure that in that book Sam had read once Paradise Lost or something like that, that Lucifer had disguised himself as a Cupid or something “Sam said that you must have figured it out pretty quickly, with how fast reinforcements came to catch Lucifer. Like I said that thing has been translated and edited so many times most of it is inaccurate, if you are mentioned it’s only because someone mistranslated and thought your name was another name for Lucifer” Grabbing his brother’s hand Dean tugged it away from the Bible “It’s in the past, and from what I understand you’ve already paid for it”

[fallenguardianofeden]

"He should not have been able to sneak past me," the young angel repeated, strains of panic entering his voice. "He should not have wanted to. Lucifer is an archangel," Gadreel insisted, as though Dean did not already know that. "He should not have done that." His eyes darted up from the book at Dean's touch, fearful gaze meeting the hunter's. "Paid for it?" he repeated, his voice dropping to almost a whisper. "What does that... where have I been all these years?"

[fallenguardianofeden]

The Walls Come Tumbling Down || huntersxandxangels

[huntersxandxangels]

"Don’t apologize," Azrael told Gadreel, making sure his tone didn’t sound like an order "you have nothing to apologize for. You weren’t troubling me, either."

[fallenguardianofeden]

Gadreel nodded, his posture relaxing ever so slightly. "But it was foolish," he insisted, though he still wasn't sure he agreed on the 'not troubling Azrael' theory. He felt he had much to apologize for, specifically his own weakness. But pushing the matter would accomplish nothing.

[fallenguardianofeden]

"Am I dead?"

“No. Not anymore, at least.”

[femalehumansamulet]

“Because they hold memories. Not pleasant memories, but they are part of who I have become nonetheless,” Tamimah said frankly.

[fallenguardianofeden]

Gadreel nodded, his broken wings flexing unseen behind him. “Fortunately for you I am still recovering myself. I only healed you enough for you to survive.” He fell quiet for a few moments. “I am sorry that you’ve had to face such pain,” he said quietly, though he knew such pleasantries were pointless. 

[thehunterswinchester]

"Not really, it seems like quite a few angels seem to like him, but I’m not sure if most of them do. Metatron is the only angel in Heaven, and I’m sure he doesn’t like any of us right now" Sam said truthfully. The next time he spoke to Cas he would have to ask the angel to tell his followers, they acted more like ducklings really, that Gadreel wasn’t like how their stories said he was. Misguided perhaps, but not evil, or in league with Lucifer. "Come on, better get back to the Bunker before we get spotted"

[fallenguardianofeden]

“At least the other angels are willing to speak with him,” Gadreel pointed out, once more trying and failing at hiding envy. He was happy for his brother, truly; Castiel was a good angel and he had done well to earn his followers. But he wished that the angels had been so forgiving with him as well. His face scrunched up slightly at the mention of Metatron. “I believe the feeling is mutual,” he said dryly. He nodded in agreement at Sam’s suggestion, following the hunter quietly.

[all-shattered-illusions]

She knew she would be fine once they were out of the room, away from the sigils on the wall that sapped her strength. But where did she want to go? She wasn’t entirely sure, but she did know one thing.

"Not in the Bunker." It was almost a plea. "I don’t care where we go — a cafe, a library, a park even — but not here. I need to get out."

She leaned against him gratefully. Once on her feet again, she realized she was even weaker than she’d thought. She knew that would change, though, once she was away from the wards.

She listened in silence as Gadreel spoke with Sam. As the conversation ended, she managed to offer the younger brother a small smile. She knew he hadn’t meant to cause her any discomfort, and he’d have no way of knowing what her captivity would do. She did wish that he’d listened to Castiel, but it was pointless to dwell on that now.

Right now, she just wanted to focus on the moment. Gadreel was alive, her Gael was back… and that was all that mattered.

[fallenguardianofeden]

He nodded, understanding her desperation even without the urgency in her tone. He couldn’t blame her for wanting to be as far away from her place of imprisonment, however temporary it may have been, as possible.

“There is a park not too far from here.” It was a peaceful place. Gadreel loved modern humanity and all it had created, but sometimes it was nice to be surrounded by pure nature. “Would you like to go there?”

As they walked he let a wave of his grace wash over her, returning some of the strength the sigils had stolen from her. 

He was glad to see Kellen smile at Sam. He was rather fond of the Winchesters himself, and it was a relief to know that his best friend did not hold a grudge against the man for his misguided actions. Though he would have to have a talk with Sam in private when he could... He didn’t think this would happen again, but it was better to be safe.

[deanbitchwinchester-archive]

"Tired, still, but very not dead." Dean chuckled, yawning again before smiling to Gadreel. "I…" Dean took a deep breath, because yes he was a dick that tried to kill Gadreel with the First Blade when he came back to help. But…

"Gadreel, I’m sorry, for everything I did. I was an idiot, blind to everything." he said softly, looking away from the angel in shame.

Why did he come back to this pitiful being?

[fallenguardianofeden]

“That is a very good sign,” Gadreel agreed, not wanting to think about how close Dean had come to being dead. He pushed more of his grace into him, hoping to give him an extra boost of energy. 

His gaze softened at Dean’s apology. It was unneeded, of course. Gadreel had long since forgiven the hunter his actions. 

“It was I who betrayed you, remember,” Gadreel pointed out, his turn to hide his face in shame. “I am the one who should be apologizing. I cannot fault you for fighting back. You had no reason to trust me or let me live.”

[fallenguardianofeden]

❦

Send me a ❦ for a reaction to your muse playing with mine’s hair

Gadreel looked up from his book when he felt something moving against his head. Seeing that it was Wynter he tilted his head curiously. But he didn’t want to ask and give her any reason to stop. It was clear she wasn’t trying to hurt him, and he had to admit it did feel nice.

[lxvingdeadgxrl]

Whoa there, he was pretty adamant about the veggies not having souls. It wasn’t that she thought they did, really, it was more of a joke than anything else, but still. “Well, I’m sure the vegetarians will be glad to know that.” she mused, picking the peel off of another clove of garlic.

“Alrighty.” she added. Wyn liked things on the garlicy side, but when she said garlicy she meant garlicy. Like, it burned your mouth with how much garlic was in something. Best not to do that to him…

She added a few cloves to what she was working on stirring them around the pan, the spicy, garlicy scent perfuming the air. “Mmm. Don’t think we’ll need to worry about vampires for a month.” she teased, chuckling softly.

[fallenguardianofeden]

Garlic had no affect on vampires. He almost told her as much, before he remembered that most humans weren’t hunters and didn’t know such creatures truly existed. He would rather not clue her in to such things if she didn’t already know.

Instead he watched over her shoulder as she stirred in the newest ingredient, almost transfixed as he watched her turn the random assortment of foods into a meal. Human creativity never ceased to amaze him. He pulled himself from his wonder– he was supposed to be helping, after all– and began putting the other foods back into the fridge. “Is there more that needs to be done?" 

[fallenguardianofeden]

This was his only hope. The young man sighed as he came to a halt on the outskirts of an abandoned bar. This had to be it.Quietly the stranger pulled out something from under his shirt. It was a necklace with something glowing hanging on it. It's light brighten the darkness around him. The small gem around the mysterious young mans neck pointed to the building on it's own. There was no doubt. He was in here. Slowly the brunette walked forward, letting the light of his stone guide his way.

Gadreel had been sitting on a nearly broken old chair in the abandoned building Metatron had left him in, reading a spare copy of a book the scribe had lent him. The ring of the surrounding Enochian symbols hummed in the back of his mind as he flipped the page. For his own protection, Metatron had assured him. It wasn’t at all like a prison, he’d promised. And yet Gadreel was to stay until he received further orders, and was not under any circumstances permitted to leave. For his own safety. He understood, of course. The Winchesters were still after him, and the sigils would protect him from them. Hopefully.

He froze when he sensed a presence lingering nearby, quickly backing up until he was hidden in the shadows. He watched the door cautiously, waiting for the stranger to either show themselves or go away. 

[mercys-keeper]

 Gail chuckled softly before pulling away some, sensing the awkwardness he had brought upon the poor Angel. “S-Sorry about that. And dude it’s alright. So you screwed up humanity. Psh, big deal. We would’ve screwed ourselves up sooner or later without the little mess up of y’know, letting a snake in a garden.” Gail shrugged. “But what happened to you wasn’t something you deserved. I’m glad to be helping you man. We’re both outcasts just trying to find our place. Guys like us need a companion.” 

[fallenguardianofeden]

Gadreel remained standing tall, the nervous flickering of his eyes the only outward tell of his embarrassment at ruining an otherwise affectionate moment. “No, the fault is mine. I am… unused to such behaviour. That is all. My apologies.” He nodded at Gail’s words, alternating between avoiding his gaze and watching him curiously. “Deserved or not, there is nothing that can be done now except move on. As for companionship… I certainly do not object to the idea.”

[fallenguardianofeden]

Does anyone else remember when everyone was talking about Gadreel’s “parroting” tendency? Because to this day that is probably the cutest thing this little angel does.

[fallenguardianofeden]

I dub thee - Brosef! (for the ridic nickname meme)

Give my muse a ridiculous nickname.

“…Brosef? I do not understand. I thought nicknames were supposed to be based on one’s name or personal traits. Brosef sounds nothing like Gadreel.”

[saunteredslowlydownward]

“Well, on the plus side,” Gabriel pointed out, patting the other angel on the shoulder in a reassuring manner, “you’ve got me to help you adjust.”

[fallenguardianofeden]

“And for that I am grateful,” Gadreel agreed with a nod. “You have done more for me than I can ever repay you for.”

[fallenguardianofeden]

Never mind, there's already a great Abner. I'll find someone else or continue to read :)

You don’t have to, there have been a couple Abners throughout the last year and there’s never too many of one character. But if you’d rather not, that’s fine too. Feel free to message me if you end up making a new blog for any characters, I always love starting new roleplays!

[fallenguardianofeden]

Hi, I was wondering how hard it is to start an rp blog? I want to start an Abner one since there aren't any, but I'm slightly terrified

It’s usually fairly slow for the first couple days to a week, depending on how lucky you are. But you shouldn’t let that frighten you away! After all, the hardest part is finding your first few people to roleplay with, and you’ve already found one person who would be ecstatic to roleplay with an Abner! 

When you do get your blog started up, I would love to roleplay with you. And this fandom is always helpful with suggesting new people to follow. 

[fallenguardianofeden]

thecastawaybrotherlucifer replied to your post “Guess who’s back? (Back again)”

You're here! Yay! *cuddles*

*nuzzles* I’m flattered that I was missed! Gadreel missed Lucifer like a lot by the way.