[false-therapist]

You are the closest thing I can get to my lover in this universe, which is why I cling to you so much…

I feel much closer than you than I really am and it makes me feel like a creep. But everything will be okay

I wish I could stop being like this

[false-therapist]

I have no interest in holding connections with humans, they are all the same, they will all leave me eventually

My lover is in a different universe, waiting for me. I will be truly happy one day

[false-therapist]

I hate people and I really don’t want anybody to look at me. Isolation is the only way I can live, People are a danger to me and I am a danger to others, I’ve always been different, the special one, and as uncomfortable as it feels I still bathe in the graveyard of my suffering as much as I reject it at the same time. I feel everything and nothing all at once, the days constantly switch from being hollow blurs to intensity that burns me down

[false-therapist]

I wish I knew you better

[false-therapist]

I wish I could be left alone forever

[false-therapist]

It gets to a point where the only stuff I find at least a little comfort in has nothing to do with people I actually know

[false-therapist]

Constantly criticizing complaining dissociating truth-telling yelling crying isolating and dreaming

[false-therapist]

Nobody is conscious besides myself

[false-therapist]

I hate everyone in my life so much, I can’t feel anything at all for anyone really, I can’t recognize my own life

[false-therapist]

I’m not fond of psychiatrists or therapists because I’m very convinced that they want to poison me

I don’t trust any of them, and I really don’t want to talk to any of them, that’s why I mask so hard these days to the point I dissociate so much just to avoid being forced to speak to one of those enemies

[false-therapist]

I want to do that but I would feel so guilty for doing so. ……I’m sorry god

I don’t think I will but the thoughts are overwhelming me

Maybe I do need “help..

[false-therapist]

Your life feels connected to mine even though we’ve never even met.

[false-therapist]

Technically we do not know eachother, but it feels like I’ve known you forever. I’m always thinking about you, everyday. I can’t really go a day without thinking about you, your mannerisms and wonders about you are ingrained into my mind.. profusely and deeply.

[theoptia]

Brian Cotnoir, from On Alchemy: Essential Practices and Making Art as Alchemy

[nixscriptum]

[quotefeeling]

“Speak your mind, even if your voice shakes.”

— Maggie Kuhn

[kitajgorod]