At times, there is a darkness
At times, there is a darkness
That engulfs me
A feeling in the gut that upends me
Questioning every breath
As to why, i choose life, over death
Then, i realize, an all familiar sight,
A new day
Keeps the darkness at bay,
A few precious hours
In which i can see my way
To figure out all the reasons
I need to stay.
All the selfish thoughts fall away
When i think of leaving loved ones
By my hand
And not in God’s time
Worse of all,
Giving them, the impression,
It’s ok to leave this way
Even in another world
I don’t think my soul would survive
A loved one following my untenable actions
To myself i say
The storm will fade,
The tide will turn
The darkness will retreat
A new day will dawn
A chance to try again
The time of trail, is temporary
The best medicine
Is another day
The time of death, is permanent
No regret will revive you,
No tears or kiss will bring you back
I choose life,
Every step of the way
If not for me
Then for my loved ones
Who make we know
I have to stay
And only go
When God selects the day