Being positive about ... well being negative :P
Ever wondered what its like to be an ADHD person? To be wanting to do something one minute and to be drifting into something else before you come back to what you've started out with and on the way totally lost track of time.
That's me everyday. I would never admit this pattern about me. I always blamed people around me to influence my negativity. But subconsciously I am always looking at the dark side of things. It reflects in my speech too, not to forget the downright insolence inflected towards the people I live and hang-out with everyday.
I like to believe everything is possible with good behavior and a kind and patient approach. But my negative instincts overpower my thoughts and I become who I am- a "repeller" . Most of my friends see me as a whiner. ..
But I don't want to talk about what my friends see me as. This blog is to find the better in me. For me to make the most of being negative. It's not like I hinder the work-flow , I only curb the enthusiasm. Which according to me is pinching the salt and not rubbing it. I only see the dark side of things, I don't focus on it. But I seem to have a bearing on my listeners. And that's where trouble brews! Oh wait did I mention how I don't mind my tone of speech? So even if say a nice thing , which is very rare, my audience doesn't get it. I can't blame them. But I only realise the fault in my approach when its all over. The conversation is mute and everyone has decided to move on. Without giving me a chance to re-take.
Welcome to the non-digital, real- physical world. Where one doesn't read you like a book but watches you like a movie. Look good, talk good. If you're bad you are a villain and the sooner you get eliminated the better it will be for the protagonist to achieve his/her goal.