I have this ridiculously and annoyingly good friend. Emphasis on annoyingly. Her kindness, goodwill and well, humanness (mainly, her need to aid the rest of mankind to surpass whatever triviality stumbles along their way) often sickens (nauseates) me. But then, perhaps its because of my former inability to thoroughly and effectively sympathise and comprehend sentiments (the ones that count anyway). If I were to enumerate the instances I witnessed her benevolence, I might heave with the halfway mark substantially far and away. Yes, she is inexplicably what I consider as a definitive example of a human so she is most certainly flawed. And since I could not for the life of me puke by enumerating her flaws, I shall enumerate 1/1000th of her transgressions (and surely, she misses my wickedness)
the INNUMERABLE times she fell asleep at the designated hour of our project, paper, any academic related work; thus, hahaha she is unable to contribute much (okay fine she contributed but mostly to appease my anger and well, not as much)
*insert the rest of our nearly petty arguments*
Okay so I suppose not as terrible as I considered it to be. Still. I cannot count the number of times she apologised profusely while catching up with me as I do what I tend to do - read: walk away. (Light bulb moment: I suppose this is where my dramatic flair progressed from fits to timely exits.)
Before I get carried away with nostalgia, I must state the moments I *gulps* cherish value highly appreciate hold dear the most, when we talk, or for the sake of wistfulness and sentimentality, when I ramble, rant and she admonishes, responds appropriately, and when we swap stories, poems, quotes, movies, etc. that we consider as noteworthy, and well, our innumerable repartee (speech class, any class, after and in between classes). (I should have collected the I'm sorry notes she gave me, albeit, I think I still have some.)
And since I have a ton of school work to accomplish, I'll cut it too short of what she may deserve but nonetheless contains my gratitude.
Reanne Eraña Medina, to the address of my senseless thoughts, the sort of yin to my yang since she feels too much and I do not feel enough, the genuine friend I do slightly miss and adore, happy fucking birthday.
What you need to know: you are capable, you enlighten, you are loved all too well despite your incapacity to properly maintain friendships, lastly, there are certain days that I do love you (this is as much as my pride - what you dearly need - allows me to admit).
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