First, wanted to say 2 big THANK YOU, for this awesome and super-original event, for all these great songs I literally fell in love with (like, SO MANY GOOD DISCOVERIES THERE), aaaaand for the solid 35 minutes I took to decide which prompts and words I'd choose, because they're all so. So. So COOL
Okay soo, I'm a litteral simp for Todoroki. I just love him so much. And I just hesitated so, so, SO MUCH cause it's his last Os slot and I just didn't want to mess it kebdxbdkck so, hum, Im gonna tell you my choice, but really, just know I deeply hesitated with Yellow, okay?
Todoroki + 7 + speakers + ice + perfume ? Pretty please ?
Thank you in advance, I can't wait to read you since I just adored your previous posts (*^*)
I may or may not have had to find a pillow to scream into after reading thisβ¦.YOU ARE LITERALLY SO AMAZING STOPPPPP!! Iβm so happy you liked the event and the songs, telling me I picked good songs is like the best thing you could ever tell me π. Iβm so sorry this took so longggg, but I hope you like it!! Ilysm!!! Have an spectacular day/night!! π
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Characters: Todoroki x reader
Reader: Hates crowded spaces // nothing else mentioned
Type: Oneshot // Angst? // Fluff
Warnings: crowded spaces, mild anxiety attacks
A/n: Iβmβ¦..back? After not posting for likeβ¦.forever because school sucks Iβm back, and I missed it all. So hello, and my deepest apologies for this taking SO LONG! Alsoβ¦.I just want to point out that I do myself have anxiety, BUT, everyoneβs experience is different. If this offends you Iβm any way PLEASE LET ME KNOW and I can take it down.
It could have been a lovely Friday night. Filled with you and Shoto eating takeout and watching a good movie. Cuddling on the couch and staring at each other lovingly instead of actually watching the movie.
Nope, that was hardly the case tonight. Momo had thrown a huge party for class A, B, C, and other friends and family. She really wanted you and Shoto to be there. Since Momo was a good friend of yourβs, you agreed, even though you despised parties.
You stood in a darker corner of the room, looking at your phone. Shoto had gone to get you two some water so you were all alone. The room was dark as it is, only having small lights here and there and then a whole lot of neon brightness coming from where the speakers were.
The music was so loud, you felt like your ears had reached maximum capacity. The bass, you could feel it vibrating in your soul. The people, oh my the people. There were so many of them. Screaming, cheering, singing, dancing. So much going on at once.
Luckily, you kept calm, scrolling through your phone, trying to focus on your screen and not, everything else that was going on.
βY/N, hey, why are you over in the corner?β You heard Mina call as she walked up to you.
βDidnβt wanna, you know, people.β You got out, trying to yell over the loud noises.
βCome on, you gotta dance!β Mina encouraged grabbing your hand
βMina, I canβt. I suck at dancing.β You said, pulling back
βOh come on, just once!β Mina insisted, tugging on your wrist.
βOne dance.β You agreed, letting her pull you onto e dance floor.
You and Mina got out there and the first thing that came into your mind was how many people there were. Mina had your hands and hereβs and you two were doing sort of a sidestep spin kind of thing. It was Mina, you didnβt know. Probably some new TikTok dance or something.
However, you kept feeling yourself dump into multiple people and it felt like they were all closing in on you. You started to sweat, when did it get this hot? Keeping up a smile though as your let Mina happily guide you to the rhythm of the song that was blaring through the speakers.
Your breathing started to quicken. It was as if you couldnβt get enough clean air in. You felt every bit of air you breathed. it was all too deluded with perfume.
The song ended and you quickly asked Mina if she could show your way back to weβre she had found you. It had gotten darker in the room and your head was starting to feel a little dizzy from the lack of air you were I taking.
Mina had a look of disappointment, but agreed. Guiding you back to your exact spot, you thanked her quickly, then sat down on the ground, pulling your knees to your chest.
You looked around, seeing if you a could possibly make out Shotoβs silhouette coming towards you. Nothing, you saw nothing but people and bright neon light coming from the front of the room. You smelled nothing but strong and flowery perfume. You heard nothing but blaring music.
Your mind was overwhelmed. It couldnβt take every sense besides taste and touch being overwhelmed. You felt your throat tighten to the point your breathes where extremely shallow.
You tried to breath, you tried so so so hard to breathe, but every attempt, got you less air. At one point you felt like you were drowning. You couldnβt breathe, you were going to die. Glancing around frantically, trying to find someone, anyone to plead at. There was no one, only a bunch of people dancing to the music.
People, people that might be looking, watching. Watching as you broke down, watching as you suffered. What are they thinking? Why arenβt they doing anything? Are they laughing? You couldnβt hear anything at this point, your ears were drowning everything out besides your shallow breaths.
You felt a hand touch your wrist and you quickly looked in front of you to see your boyfriend with a concerned look on his face. He took your hands in his quickly, giving them a warm embrace.
βY/n. Itβs me, Shoto, your safe, Iβm going to take you outside okay? Somewhere quiet.β You faintly heard him say.
You focused on his touch, trying to slow your breathing. He got up and brought you up with him. Shoto looked around for a door, and thankfully found one not too far away from where you two were.
He took your hands and slowly lead you through the crowd of people. You did you best to focus on things that werenβt the feeling of being closed in or the pact of normal breathing happening. Reaching the door, he pushed it open
You wouldβve felt the cold air hit your face if you were paying attention, but you werenβt. If your mind was focused and calm you would have seen that the sky was even darker tonight because of the clouds covering the glittering stars. You would have seen that the trees were bare and missing leaves because of the bitter winter. Though most importantly, you wouldβve seen that your caring boyfriend was doing his best to get you two toward his vehicle as soon as possible.
Your mind was being pulled back slightly when he helped you into the car. You felt the heat hit your face and looked around realizing there was no one else in sight besides your Shoto. He helped with slowing down your breathing, which aided your mind with going back to a semi-normal state. You let yourself focus on looking at snow starting to fall. You felt Shotoβs cold but soft hands holding yourβs. You smelled the cinnamon air freshener you had gotten him for his car as an early small holiday gift. It was all so comforting it was calming you down.
βYour hands are as cold as ice.β You finally said, when you had calmed down enough to talk.
βI forgot my gloves at home.β He simply stated
βYou should put them next to the heater.β You said, taking his hand and putting it near the vent blowing warm air.
βThank you y/n.β He said
βThank you? For what? Warming your hands, Iβm pretty sure you couldβve done that on your own.β You joked
βNo, I mean, yes, I could have warmed my hands just fine. I mean, thank you for staying with me during the holidays. Itβs always kind of a hard time becauseβ¦.weβll, you know.β Shoto confessed, implying the struggles with his family making this season very hard for him.
βHey, anytime, itβs my job to here for you because I love you. And, I want to apologize for back there, I just-β you were cut off
βY/n, there is no need to apologize for what happened. It is okay and valid and all the other normal things in between. It simply became too much for you, which is understandable. Everybody has their breaking points, and sometimes, we surpass them and things like this happen.β He told you, in a calm and normal voice.
βI know, but I hated to pull you away from the party.β You said
βAgain, it is completely okay. I would choose being here to help you over staying in a loud and crowded room of people any day of my life.β
βAre you serious?β You asked out of somewhat disbelief
βYes, I am, I really am.β He assured you.
That night, Shoto made sure to get you home and in bed safe and sound. He insisted on staying with you until you fell asleep, and unknowing to you, he left you a small note of on your nightstand that had a lyric he had heard on the radio the other day that reminded him of you. The note read:
βI want you to know that the snow isnβt all that cold if youβve got someone to hold. Thankfully my someone is you.β - Much love, Sho
He wanted you to awake and have something there to put one of those bright smiles on your face. He deeply wished he couldβve been there to see it.
Hope you have a good day/night!
amandla
