Chosen for Pleasure (II)
Series Warnings: Strong Language, Mature Themes, Angst, Alcohol, Attempted Sexual Assault
Part (I)
I barely remember anything he said after him asking me to lunch. I just remember he grabbed my phone putting in his number. Holy Fuck. I had Jensen Ackles number. I had to pinch myself to make sure I wasn't still curled up on our rundown sofa in our apartment.
"call me when you're on lunch break, see you soon Ms. Wilde."
That brings us to now. I'm standing in front of the mirror in the bathroom of the cafe down the block, checking my reflection one last time. It's not everyday a super hot billionaire asks you on a lunch date. I wiped off some excess lip gloss before walking out to meet him.
“I ordered you some coffee, I hope that’s okay?” He asks smiling.
I shake my head yes before sitting down in front of him nervously fidgeting. What do I do with my hands? Why won't my knee stop bouncing? He must've noticed, he shot a hand out and put it on my knee to keep it from bouncing.
"everything okay Ms. Wilde you seem nervous?" He observes.
"I find you rather intimidating." I admit truthfully.
Jensen was quiet for a moment before leaning in close and whispering in my ear.
"you probably should."
I couldn't stop the chills that spread down my spine and the heat that flushed my face.
"so tell me about you?" He asked leaning back in his chair while sipping his coffee with a smug smile on his face.
Jensen knew the effect he had on women, I think part of him gets off on it. I didn’t want to give him the satisfaction of making me squirm. I was still nervous sure but slowly staring to loosen up a bit.
"there's not much to know about me, I've always been passionate about photography since I was a little girl, I uh met Stella when we were freshman in college and we've been roommates ever since. I eventually want to travel the world and photograph for vogue magazine." I said sipping my own coffee.
"what about your family?" He asked.
"my family? uh okay my dad died when I was nine and my mom never quite got over it." I murmured.
"what about yours?" I added.
"sorry sore subject." He said simply.
I didn't push, I didn't always like talking about my family either.
"okay it's my turn to ask you another question. where did you find my sd card, and how did you find out where I worked?" I asked swirling my finger around the rim of my coffee cup.
"As I was leaving I saw it laying on the ground. I asked the security guard in charge of the media, wasn't hard to find the location once I knew the name of the magazine." He simply answered.
I nodded slowly, it seemed like he was telling the truth but also like he was holding something back.
"and Stella's questions? ya know for someone who claims to not have a heart that was rather nice of you to fill out her entire questionnaire." I smirked looking up at him.
I didn’t know where this sudden burst of confidence came from, but I can tell from the look on Jensen’s face that now he was the one who was nervous.
"I don't, it's just if people are going to write things about me in a magazine, I'd rather it be my words than theirs." He answered still keeping with his tough guy facade.
"I don't know I think you may just be romantic under all that toughness." I joked.
I could see his eyes furrow a bit.
"are you Ms. Wilde?"
"am I what?"
"a romantic?" He clarified.
"I'm a photographer Jensen, I see the beauty in everything so I kind of have to be." I said biting my lip.
I could see his whole demeanor change.
"Julia, I don't think I can do this." He said suddenly pushing his chair out and getting up.
I was completely confused, he asked me to lunch? Was it something I said.
"I'll walk you out." Jensen said grabbing my elbow and helping me up.
"hang on, did I say something wrong?" I asked.
He didn't answer, just continued to pull me out the door. He started to pull me down the sidewalk, in front of the cafe.
"Jensen wait." I growled, prying his hand off my elbow.
"Look Julia, I don't do romance or relationships, okay, I do pleasure, nothing else. I'm sorry if you thought I was somebody else but I'm not. I'm not the man for you." He said quickly.
I stepped back from him. What did that even mean? He's a completely different person now than he was earlier. What changed?
"but just.." I started but all of a sudden a guy riding a bike flys past me.
Jensen grabbed my elbow pulling me in to his hard chest.
"you really need to be more careful." He grumbled as if it were my fault.
I couldn't believe him. Where was all this coming from? He was acting like a total asshole.
"Goodbye Jensen." I said ripping my arm from his grip.
I walked the couple blocks back to our office, not expecting him to follow. What the hell was his problem? I do pleasure, nothing else. What was that even supposed to mean? Like sex? He only wanted sex? A fuck buddy? I threw open the door huffing into the office. Stella ran over with a concerned look. I was about to open my mouth and tell her what happened when Gray came running over to us.
"there they are, my two favorite girls!" He said wrapping an arm around each of our shoulders.
"uh who are you and what have you done with our boss?" Stella asked giving him a raised brow look.
"This months magazine has only been out for four hours and is already flying off the shelves due to your article on Mr. Ackles." Gray said.
Ugh, hearing his name made me even more cranky. I can't believe I was embarrassed like that!
"I'm so proud and because of you wonderful ladies, I'm giving everyone the rest of the day off!" Gray added ruffling our hair before letting go and walking away.
"okay I hope he never does that again." Stella said fixing her hair.
I didn't say anything just stood looking at my shoes. My mind racing with everything that just happened.
"sooo, how did lunch go, I didn't expect you to be back this early?" Stella questioned.
I could feel the rage building.
"ugh what a pretentious asshole!” I yelled, causing others in the office to look at me strangely.
"that bad?" Stella seemed shocked.
"let's just go home please." I sighed grabbing my stuff.
I should've known it was too good to be true. I just wanted to forget any of this ever happened. I felt stupid, stupid and embarrassed. Stella was quiet as we got in to the car.
"Let's go out tonight." She said looking at me.
She can't be serious.
"Stell, I'm not exactly in the going out mood."
She frowned at me. Yep she was serious.
"exactly which is the precise reason of why you should, come on Jules so what Jensen turned out to be a dick like everyone says, I mean it would be more worrisome if he was that good looking and had nothing wrong with him. " She rambled.
"Stell?”
“Yeah?”
“ YOUR NOT HELPING." I yelled making her roll her eyes.
"Okay then let's go out and celebrate Gray finally getting off our asses!Jules we made this months magazine, us! We deserve to celebrate that!" She pushed.
I sighed looking at my giddy best friend.
"you're not going to take no for an answer are you?" I grumbled in defeat.
If Stella was one thing, it was incredibly persistent and sometimes like now for example, annoying.
"nope, and that's why you love me, so what do you say roomie?"
"ugh fine, but just for a little bit, and I’m not drinking." I agreed turning up the music as she drove home.
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It was late in the evening now, Stella and I were getting ready to go to the club. I was in the bathroom fixing my hair. I really didn't feel like going out, but I knew it would make Stella happy.
“Stell, do you think this shirt is too revealing?” I asked looking at the red strapless top I wore.
“if anything it’s not revealing enough.” She joked coming in to stand beside me.
I was about to say something snarky back to her when someone rang our doorbell.
“I’ll get it, you finish getting dolled up!” Stella squealed heading for the door.
I heard her open the door, but no one talking.
“Stell who is it?” I asked coming out of the bathroom.
“not a who, a what. It’s a package for you. To Ms. Wilde.” Stella read.
nobody calls me Ms. Wilde. nobody but him. I look at the back of the card.
Julia,
I’m really sorry for how things ended, please accept this as my token of apology.
-Jensen
How did he even know where we live!? I rolled my eyes hesitantly unwrapping the package.
“holy fuck Stell.”
“what?”
I pulled out the vintage polariod camera, one I could only dream of owning one day.
“this is super vintage, one of these costs easily thousands of dollars.” I said showing her the camera.
so he thinks he can buy my forgiveness and I’ll just forget about him being an ass… yeah not going to happen.
“I have to send this back Stella.” I said carefully setting down the old camera afraid of breaking it.
“not right now you don’t, right now you have to put on this lipgloss and go dance your cute ass off with your best friend, come on Jules, forget Jensen and let’s live a little!” She pouted.
Gosh sometimes she could be such a child. I stood there silently giving her a defeated look. She uncapped the lipgloss and started swiping some on my plump lips, taking my silence as a go ahead.
“you’re quite annoying sometimes I hope you know that.” I joked checking my reflection in the mirror one last time.
“I know, it’s one of my many shining qualities.” She said pulling me towards the door to our awaiting Uber.
I sighed looking at the camera one last time before we shut the door. I was so confused. Why apologize? Did he actually feel bad? Or did he think I was going to run to the media and gossip about him? Was he trying to buy my silence? Maybe Stell was right, I mean what harm could possibly come from forgetting, even if just for tonight. I impressed Gray, something I’ve been trying to do for months now. I deserved to celebrate that!
“okay miss moody, I’m going to need you to stop overthinking there and relax.” Stella said digging an elbow into my side.
I rolled my eyes at her.
“I’m thinking you were right, let’s have fun.”
“that’s my girl!” Stella cheered.
I could see the fluorescent lighting as we pulled up to the club. The music was so loud I could feel it pulsating through my skin as we entered, finding a table to set our stuff down at.
“yum yum look at all this eye candy.” Stella said licking her lips.
“mhm not bad.” I shrugged looking at the sweaty bodies drinking and dancing all around us.
A waiter comes in our viewpoint carrying a tray with two shots on it. I looked at Stella confused as we’d only just arrived, not having time to order anything yet.
“ladies, compliments of that gentleman over there.” the waiter says pointing to a handsome gentleman.
He wasn’t as handsome as Jensen but definitely not bad. We gave him a small smile to which he returned.
“see not even five minutes here and you’re already getting attention.” Stella said grabbing the shot and throwing it back.
“please, how do you know he didn’t buy them for you?” I scoffed.
Stella was one of those girls that looked flawless without even trying. She garnered men’s attention whenever we went anywhere. I loved that for her.
“I’m not the one he’s giving the fuck me eyes to.” She smirked.
I nervously turned my head around to look at the handsome guy. He stood puffing a cigarette while making eye contact with me.
I turned back around quickly a brush spread on my cheeks.
“told you so.” she smirked.
I quickly picked up the shot, I know I said I wasn’t drinking but at this point I needed the liquid courage to help me through the night. I threw it back feeling the familiar burn in the back of my throat. Hmm a Scotch guy.
“oh god Jules he’s coming this way.” Stella said turning me around.
Sure enough the handsome stranger was walking towards me, a smirk playing on his lips. He gets closer muttering a quick hi. He leans in so I can hear him over the booming electronic dance song that plays through the speakers.
“can I just say you’re the prettiest girl that’s walked through this door tonight?” He said, his voice husky.
Stella was usually the one getting the male attention so I had no idea what to do now that it was focused on me.
“thanks, and thanks for the shots.” I quietly said in his ear.
“of course, want a drink gorgeous?” He asked.
I knew I probably shouldn’t be drinking so much especially drinks from a stranger, but part of me didn’t care. I mean I was celebrating after all. I look towards Stella however she was now grinding on a stranger a full mixed drink now in her hand. I sighed. I wanted to forget. So I was going to forget.
“how about some more shots?” I whispered seductively.
I didn’t know where this was coming from, but it felt kinda good.
“I like how you think.. uh” he said realizing he didn’t get my name.
“Julia.” I filled in for him.
“Julia, I like that. I’m Sebastian.”
Sebastian walked over to the bar ordering us more shots. I glanced at Stella making sure she was okay. She caught my eyes mouthing a you go girl. Sebastian came back with four shots.
Whiskey. I couldn’t help but think of Jensen, he smelled like Whiskey.
Fuck I'm supposed to be forgetting.
I quickly threw back the shots. I grabbed Sebastian’s hand pulling him over to where Stella was grinding on her guy. Our bodies moved in sync as his hands started to explore. It had been awhile since a man touched me in more than a friendly manner so the way his hands roamed around my hips and up my sides made the heat flush to my cheeks. Or maybe that was the alcohol talking. Whatever it was I liked it. It continues on this way, me throwing back shots while Sebastian's body clashed with mine.
“you’re so fucking hot, what I wouldn’t do to take you home.” He spoke biting his lip.
I was definitely feeling the effects of the alcohol at this point. My head was getting a little fuzzy, my better judgement going out the window.
“I have to pee.” I said pulling Sebastian’s hands off my ass and starting to make my way to the bathroom.
I got to the back of the club to the bathrooms but of course there was a huge line for the women’s, there always was. I grabbed my phone out of my pocket bringing it to life. I had a missed call from my mom. I had to remember to call her back when I was sober. But then his name caught my attention. Jensen. I scrolled over his contact information, meaning to delete his number. I’m forgetting him. I bit my lip as I hovered over the delete button. I hesitated though. You know what, before I deleted him, I was going to give him a piece of my mind, knowing without the alcohol in my system I wouldn’t have this much courage again. I clicked the call button bringing it to my ear. It rang a couple times before his voice filled the speakers.
“Julia? What’s wrong? I hear music where are you?” He asked concerned.
“Mr. Ackles I just have to tell you that you can keep your stupid camera, I don’t want it.” I slurred trying to sound tough.
“God Julia have you been drinking, you sound drunk? Where are you?” He growled.
“uh yeah I’ve been drinking Mr. Grumpy Pants, and I'm dancing with a hot guy. And for your information he told me that I was the prettiest girl here tonight.” I laughed feeling the encouragement from the alcohol.
“Julia guys say things like that in hopes to get in your pants.” Jensen grumbled.
I could almost feel him rolling his eyes as he said that.
“well I might just let him cause he actually wants me.”
I could hear Jensen growl on the other end. I was really getting under his skin, which is exactly what I wanted.
“Julia tell me where you are right now.”
I could hear him breathing deeply, like he was trying to prevent himself from losing his cool.
“sorry no can do, I gotta go though it’s almost my turn to pee.”
“Jules I swear to god…”
I heard him start before I clicked end call. I felt satisfied with myself.
“I told him.” I said to a girl standing next to me.
She gave me an awkward smile that indicated she had no clue what I was talking about. I felt my phone vibrate in my hand. Jensen’s name flashing over the caller idea. I quickly answered bringing it to my ear.
“look man..” I started but he quickly cut me off.
“stay where you are, I’m coming to get you.” Jensen ordered.
“wait what? Jensen you can’t be serious? Jensen?” I spoke but I was met with only dial tone.
I tried to dial him again but it went straight to voicemail. I tried again with the same results. He couldn't actually be coming here. Could he? How did he know where I was? Oh god, I felt like I was going to be sick. I left my spot in line making my way outside the club. I needed some fresh air. It was now after midnight and the air had grown colder. I rubbed my hands up and down my bare arms trying to get warmed up. Sebastian came out standing in front of me.
"there you are, I thought you disappeared on me." He said wrapping his arms around my shoulders.
"yeah sorry I'm just not feeling the greatest, needed some air." I slurred.
"well how about we go back to my place and I make you feel better?" Sebastian purred, rubbing his hands down my arms and sides.
I was never really going to go home with him, I'm not that reckless. Now that I know Jensen is potentially coming, I wanted to get away from Sebastian as quick as possible.
"I don't think that's a good idea." I said firmly without slur, pulling away from him slightly.
"oh come on baby, I promise to take care of you." He pressed, pulling me back in so I was trapped between his chest and his arms wrapping around my lower back.
"no, no I'm okay." I said trying to push him away.
"come on.."
"she said NO."
It all happened in a blur. Jensen showed up grabbing Sebastian's shoulder throwing him off of me. Sebastian clattered to the ground with a thud. Jensen stood in front of me, blocking me from Sebastian. I could see his back muscles clenching as he huffed in anger.
"what the hell is your problem bro?" Sebastian seethed.
"my problem bro is you trying to take advantage of someone who can't even stand up straight." Jensen yelled causing other patrons to look our way.
I scoffed.
"uh for your information I can stand up perfectly fine."
Of course as I said that, I stumbled forward a bit, right into Jensen. He wrapped a protective arm around my waist, holding me still in his side.
Sebastian looked at him up and down, as if he was sizing him up.
"whatever, no piece of ass is worth this much hassle." Sebastian said standing up and brushing the dirt off his clothes.
"I'll have you know my ass is really nice sir." I defended, but that was just the alcohol talking.
Jensen put a hand over my mouth quickly.
"Julia stop talking, and let's go." Jensen growled giving me a warning scowl before starting to lead me away.
I probably should stop talking.
"It wasn't like the bitch was going to put out anyways." Sebastian called after us.
Jensen stopped us in our tracks. I could hear his breathing start to pick up again. Jensen unwrapped his arm from my waist before turning around and launching a punch right to the side of Sebastians face. Sebastian fell down hard, not expecting Jensen to strike him. Jensen leaned down and whispered something I couldn't make out. It was all too much, the alcohol now effecting my stomach.
"I think I'm.." I started but wasn't able to finish as I emptied my stomach right there on the sidewalk.
In this case most men would jump back in disgust, but not Jensen. He ran behind me grabbing my long hair, holding it back so I wouldn't get messy. I hurled again, feeling like absolute shit.
"ugh please don't look at me." I told him before puking again.
He didn't say anything, just rubbed my back with one hand and held my hair with the other, once I thought I was done, I slowly stood up leaning in to him. I had no energy to hold myself up at this point.
"come on, lets get you out of here." He said into my ear.
"but wait, Stell, I can't just leave her." I groaned in pain, my throat raw from my puking episodes.
"I already got her in a cab back to your place." He spoke pulling me towards a car.
He gently put me in the back seat before climbing in beside me.
"Lay your head in my lap and relax." He said running his hand through my hair.
I slumped over in his lap, letting the effects of the night wash over me. I felt so weak, my muscles ached. I sighed relaxing in to his hand. My eyes slipping closed, my mind slipping into darkness.
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The blinding light from the sun, woke me out of my deep sleep. I clutched the duvet closer to my body, slowly fluttering my eyelashes open. I groaned as I tried to move, everything hurt. Oh god, I'm never drinking again.
I looked down, not immediately recognizing the bed I was in. The sheets and comforter just felt expensive. I sat up trying to get a view of my surroundings. I was definitely in a hotel room, but not just any hotel room. Jensen's luxury suite.
I looked down at my body, I was shocked to find out my pants were discarded, and I was wearing a large Metallica shirt. My cheeks flushed red. I didn't remember getting undressed last night. Jensen must've undressed me. I felt so embarrassed.
The bathroom door opening startled me. Jensen came out, a pair of black sweatpants snug on his hips. He was shirtless, and water droplets, dripped from the end of his hair, down his toned chest. I couldn't help the way my eyes raked up and down his body. I bit my lip staring at the gorgeous man stood before me.
"how are you feeling?" He asked, pulling out some ibuprofen, and a glass of water.
"like, I've been hit by truck, but nothing that I don't deserve." I said gratefully taking the pain medication and water.
Jensen watched me intently as I swallowed both the pills he gave me.
"uh did you uh undress me?" I asked addressing the elephant in the room.
"I had to, you threw up all over yourself and me." He said.
I felt the heat go all throughout my body in embarrassment.
"I'm sorry you had to deal with that." I piped up.
"It could've been a lot worse, what were you thinking getting drunk like that." He growled crossing his arms.
Wait was he seriously mad at me? He's the one that told me he didn't want to do this.
"you can't seriously be mad at me for going out." I scoffed.
Who does he think he is?
"well I am mad Julia, I'm palm-twitchingly mad. I'm all for drinking and having a good time but you put yourself at serious risk last night, how could you be so stupid?" He yelled.
"okay that is so not fair." I yelled back.
"you're lucky I was there, and your lucky all I did was throw a punch." Jensen seethed breathing deeply in anger.
I was about to make a rude comment back, but I realized I was right, I was lucky he was there. Had Sebastian pushed further, I never wouldn't have been able to fight him off. I was so confused. He pushes me away but then comes to rescue me. What did he want?
"why am I here Jensen?" I asked looking at his clenched jaw.
Jensen stared at me intently as if trying to formulate an answer, or an excuse, I wouldn't know which is which. It was a moment before he responded.
"It seems I'm incapable of leaving you alone." He said turning away from me.
Holy Fuck. I felt my heart rate increase and the heat igniting my skin.
"then don't." I whispered biting my lip.
"Jules, I told you..." He started but I cut him off.
"you don't do relationships, I know, but that doesn't mean we can't have anything." I said surprising him, even surprising myself.
Jensen didn't respond, I looked up at him to see him grabbing a piece of toast spreading some jam on it.
"you need to eat something, you threw up a lot last night." He said handing me the toast and ignoring what I said.
I hesitantly took it from him, biting off the corner. He sat down on the bed staring up at me, as if he were checking that I was actually going to eat it. He had a commanding presence and I didn't know whether to be incredibly intimidated or incredibly turned on.
"I'm really sorry you had to deal with me, I hope I didn't disrupt your night too much?" I questioned hesitantly looking at him.
"just my sleeping arrangements, I'm not use to sharing a bed.
Holy Fuck.
"we uh slept together?" I asked.
"well you slept in the bed and I slept in the bed so if you want to call that sleeping together then yeah." He said taking a bite off the other corner of my toast.
"we uh didn't do anything did we, just slept?" I asked in a shaky breath.
Jensen leaned in close to my ear. I could feel his breath on me, making shivers run down my spine.
"no, you see when I fuck, I like my women to be conscious and consenting, besides if we did, believe me baby you'd definitely be feeling it right now." He whispered seductively.
I couldn't help but clench my thighs together at his words.
Holy Fuck.
I was speechless. I felt the heat spread between my legs, and the breath get caught in my throat. I bite my lip looking in his eyes.
"so is that all you want, someone to pleasure you?" I spoke softly not trusting my own voice.
"that's part of it, but that's not entirely all there is to it." He said.
"then what else?"
Jensen smirked looking down at me biting my lip. He towered over me even sitting.
"why? are you interested?" He asked cocking his eyebrow.
I shuddered at his husky voice. He knew exactly what he was doing.
"maybe, what do I get out of it?" I asked feeling a burst of confidence.
"Me." He smirked putting his large hand on my bare thigh.
Holy Fuck.
I gotta stop thinking the word Fuck.
"that's quite pretentious of you Mr. Ackles...but say I am interested, are you going to clue me in on the rest?" I asked seductively cocking my head to the side.
Jensen wore a shit eating grin, like he had me exactly where he wanted me.
"not right now, I have to go into the office, and I want to take things slow." He laughed getting up.
I breathed out a shaky sigh. Fucking tease. God this man was doing things to me. He threw me my clothes that were now freshly laundered.
"get dressed, I'll take you home." He smirked.
I got off the bed heading in to his large ensuite bathroom. I grimaced at my reflection in the mirror, my hair was a mess, my makeup smeared. I splashed some water on my face and ran a wet hand through my hair to hopefully flatten some of the flyaways. I slowly pulled my pants back on, discarding his shirt and replacing it with mine. I grabbed some mouthwash he had on the counter, swishing it around to get the taste of alcohol and vomit out of my mouth. I bit my lip looking in the mirror. This was crazy.
I hesitantly grabbed the door handle slipping out. Jensen now stood in a suit and tie, looking as handsome as ever. God he looked good.
"ready?" He asked looking down at me.
I nodded my head having to peel my eyes away from his body. I had to stop staring before I did something I regretted. He put a hand to the small of my back leading me out the door and to the elevator. I didn't have to look at him to feel his gaze on me as we waited for the elevator. We walked in when it arrived, standing side by side but extremely close. The air between us was thick and heavy. I bit my lip trying my hardest not to look up at him, and fiddled with my hands at my sides.
"you know what fuck slow."
I gasped as Jensen grabbed my hands pinning them above my head and me to the back of the elevator, his lips crashing in to the arch of my neck. He kissed it roughly, trailing kisses up my neck along my chin and back down again. I moaned as his core pressed in to mine, his mouth traveling further down to my collarbone. He sucked on a especially sensitive spot making me whimper in pleasure.
Fuck did he know what he was doing.
He pulled away just as the elevator doors opened, a couple other men in suits walking in. He stood beside me smirking at the thought of getting caught. I hope I didn't look as flustered as I felt. Only one thing was running through my head.
Holy Fuck.
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