Sad And Depressed❤️

Just another depressed fangirl in the world. I like to rant occasionally and no one knows who I am on here so I'll use this to rant all I please. Stay strong, lovelies. 💋

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Depression

The husband and I got in a fight and he finally came and apologized. Then got mad all over again because I ”wouldn’t just accept his apology and move on.” Like what you don’t understand is I can’t just go from suicidal to rainbows and butterflies in 2 seconds.

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Cancer

Why doesn’t God give cancer and other terminal illnesses to those who are suicidal? We want to die anyway so why not make it easier on everyone and give us the illness instead of children and those who love life and want to keep living.

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Moms

I would give anything to have a good relationship with my mom. All we do is fight. I thought moving out would help that but it seemed to make it worse.

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Suicidal Tendencies

Life is really sad when the only reason you've not killed yourself is because of your pet. Like anyone can be told I wasn't happy and wanted to be set free and they can know what was wrong, but my cat, she will forever just think her human left her and never know why.

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Envy

I straight up envy those that have good relationships with their moms. Like I'd kill to be able to get along with mine.

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Boyfriend's Family

Someone on his side of the family called me "abusive" because I smacked his arm when he tried to hit me with one of those paddles with the ball attached to it. They didn't see that he tried to hit me so they just think I hit him for no reason. They also don't know that I grew up verbally abuse and have been in abusive relationships in the past, so naturally my instinct is to hit and punch when threatened. But I guess I'm the abusive one so I'll just take being hit.

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Work

Does anyone else have that one person at work that just makes you want to drink your life away?

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Sad

Maybe sad is the only feeling I'm meant to have.

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Mute

I'm just going to stop talking to anyone. Anytime something comes out of my mouth someone gets mad. So I'll just be mute from now on.

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Wedding Bells

So I've been engaged for about 7 months now, and I'm no closer to planning the wedding than I was when he proposed. Everyone makes me feel like shit because I've not planned anything and because I'm only 19 and stressed the duck out with college and work and such. So I'm basically thinking just killing myself would be the easiest thing to do as far as planning the wedding.

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Actor

I'm so sick of pretending to be okay.

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Adulting

Does anyone else find it hard to be productive at work when the night before you were talking yourself in and out of suicide? Depression as a teen sucked but having depression as an adult is WAY worse.

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Finals Week

Depression + finals? Let the cutting and suicidal thoughts begin.

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Anorexia

I can't wait to move out of my parents house so no one will be around to force me to eat. I'll finally be skinny again.

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Sadness

How do I begin to tell someone that I want to kill myself? 💊🔪

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Anorexia

When you've actually had an okay day and you can handle eating dinner but your mom makes you feel guilty for wanting something specific made at home instead of eating out. Yeah thanks. I'll just be hungry. It's better that way anyway.

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Books?

I really need to order new books but I don’t know which ones to get… Any suggestions?

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The Beautiful Series by Jamie McGuire! I loved the first book 'Beautiful Disaster'!