Realization at the club rn….
Going from the hot girl all the men flirt with in the club, to an awkward fatty covered in lard who’s only at the club to make your other friends look hotter next to you by comparison is a different level of humiliating 😶🌫️
the way I see guys glance at my belly then my face caked in makeup to hide the habits of a grease-filled diet and then watch their gaze turn to the other girls and see their expression soften is making me feel a mix of anxiety, humiliation and…something else 😳
like I’m thinking “I swear used to be hot!!! 😩😩” as I look down and feel the resistance of my double chin create fatty face folds while all I can see is belly.. can’t even see my feet 🤭 I can’t even see any girl who is bigger or as big as me here, they all have flat tummies, perfect hair and makeup… I’m jealous but at the same time I feel like I’m still one of them??
Not one man has smiled at me or approached me, but my friends have gotten guys numbers within the first 20 minutes of being here 🙃
But despite everything… I feel this is exactly what I deserve to be so I can’t be too sad about it 🥴🐷
like it’s no longer a silly little fantasy, it’s actual real life right now and my only response is the need to stuff my face 😩 literally the first thing that came to mind!! Not going back to the gym, not finding better-fitting clothes, not diets or healthy habits…. FOOD & lots of it
The club outfit in question…
I started my feedee journey prior to being clun age (18) and thus never got to experience that really and outside of pubs and clubs I don't really go out and thus never got to experience this side of things. I kinda wish I had started gaining a little later. I also wish I started gaining earlier so I could have been fatter by now but ehh you can't win















