Where do I start...hmmm... well I grew up in Houston, TX. Yes everything is bigger there, houses, yards and definitely people. Growing up there was pretty hard being short, black, and fat but I managed! Started doing nails as a hobby for my family as a kid, then to college for fashion then to hollywood at the age of 25 ( I'm about 29 in the photo)
I started to realize i was a little different early on. I remember being in elementary school at Grissom...My gym teacher was Mr.Diggs! All the moms used swoon over him but he played for my team... silly girls! He could see me always trying to get across the jungle gym or come in last during laps around the play yard. We had long talks about my weight and why it was important to try harder to loose it, but I was a kid and those ideas would fall away when a relative would say "its just baby fat, you'll grow out of it"
Well I'm 32 and it hasn't been that easy to "grow out of it" but in a way I did..mentally I mean. I no longer make excuses for myself or accept the ones other give me. All of these names never did me any good...big boned or pleasantly plump : /The worst part is that when I got older I decided to stay big, it was like a physical wall protecting me from the world. Being raised in a single parent home and my relationship with my dad made me weary of men, but big women in TX still have the upper hand lol. Hollywood was different, in TX it was " como'n ova here you big sexy thang" here its just the side eye or look of disgust.
When I moved here about 8 years ago I moved in with 3 friends. They were always trying to trick me into walking to the mall or something crazy like that, "thats what I have a car for" I would say. I always said "I can do anything...except lose weight" ha! I got into the wardrobe union shortly after moving to LA, that will make anyone drop weight. I was running all over town dropping off clothes and rolling racks I had NO time to eat! When I did eat I chose my favorite place at probably 1am on the way home..Jack in the Crack! Ummmm "Can I get a bacon ultimate cheese burger meal with a chocolate shaKe, curly fries and throw in a strawberry cheesecake, its just a dollar, why not!" I was working about 80 hours a week and lucky I had the best insurance because I was always using it. I felt awful, I was gaining weight (how!?!) my knees hurt, I was always sick, like cough/flim sick, you know! What's the first thing the doctors had to say??? "You know you really should think about losing weight, I think you might feel a little better!" I thought...Ok I know people hate fat folks but I'm not fat I'm just a little bigger than others. So I continued my unhealthy lonely lifestyle. Yes I know...fat girls date too but I still have those dad issues and its wrapped up in a coney island hotdog, I'm dating food, not men silly!
Goodbye wardrobe : ( Well I slipped at angel's flight while working on set in the rain at 10pm. Slipped my fat ass down the hill, it took about 6 big men to lift me up, I wondered why there was so many of them, like i said I'm not fat, just bigger than others : / I was on disability for 6 months wearing a big fancy boots and killing my other ankle with all my weight. After I was done I went back to wardrobe but this time I had plantar fasciitis. O my GOD this shit hurts like crazy, I know any minute my heel bone is coming through my flesh like a horror movie.
Ugh ok lets think of doing something else I guess? I started doing nail parties at home for spa party companies. That will started bringing in some dough since i was taking another break from the industry. I met a few chicks at some of the parties who where talking about how big the nail game was so I said lets do this..that was 4 years ago wow!
September 2010 I decided it was time, now I'm 85 lbs lighter with 15 lbs to go. Im taking a look back on my year, got any questions, let me know : )
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