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needless to say, two weeks ago on wednesday i attempted to take my life by chugging down about 80 20mg pills of paroxetine i felt like i have failed my friends, shattered friendships and was completely in the wrong time in the universe. i still feel like that- not as much anymore, but enough to complete my time here on tumblr.

for my own health i am leaving; i will miss those who do not wish to have my phone number for texting or calling, and will hopefully come to know each other in the future.

i made two attempts in one week, with continuing psychosis following intensive group and 1 on 1 therapy in princeton (after chugging charcoal and waiting in the emergency room for fifteen hours)

the psychologist believes it’s a schizoaffective disorder. im not allowed to drive- or at least they recommended it.

so without further ado

goodbye tumblr

im one less person to get angry about

one less person to make fun of (you know who you are)

one less person clogging up your feed

im alive, but im hanging on tight. the thoughts flood in sometimes, i wont lie.

but i love those who have forgotten me, who have wounded me, and my trust, people who stabbed me in the back with dropping me and treating me horridly before dropping me completely albiet for worrying about my well being?? for about a month or more of questioning if i was really that awful and bad to be around because i care too much and involve myself too personally that i scare people off, or friends still hanging on to ropes for me, for the sake of love and being as close as family

my journey may come to a close, or perhaps open up?

i dont know, only time, medication, therapy, love, and structure will be a part of i guess, understanding that i should be here

even if i feel like it is some big lie

so goodbye everyone.

if you miss your chance to talk because you are sleeping/etc

talk to ray foxstitches.tumblr.com

im queuing this for the morning and afternoon just in case

#q

needless to say, two weeks ago on wednesday i attempted to take my life by chugging down about 80 20mg pills of paroxetine i felt like i have failed my friends, shattered friendships and was completely in the wrong time in the universe. i still feel like that- not as much anymore, but enough to complete my time here on tumblr.

for my own health i am leaving; i will miss those who do not wish to have my phone number for texting or calling, and will hopefully come to know each other in the future.

i made two attempts in one week, with continuing psychosis following intensive group and 1 on 1 therapy in princeton (after chugging charcoal and waiting in the emergency room for fifteen hours)

the psychologist believes it's a schizoaffective disorder. im not allowed to drive- or at least they recommended it.

so without further ado

goodbye tumblr

im one less person to get angry about

one less person to make fun of (you know who you are)

one less person clogging up your feed

im alive, but im hanging on tight. the thoughts flood in sometimes, i wont lie.

but i love those who have forgotten me, who have wounded me, and my trust, people who stabbed me in the back with dropping me and treating me horridly before dropping me completely albiet for worrying about my well being?? for about a month or more of questioning if i was really that awful and bad to be around because i care too much and involve myself too personally that i scare people off, or friends still hanging on to ropes for me, for the sake of love and being as close as family

my journey may come to a close, or perhaps open up?

i dont know, only time, medication, therapy, love, and structure will be a part of i guess, understanding that i should be here

even if i feel like it is some big lie

so goodbye everyone.

if you miss your chance to talk because you are sleeping/etc

talk to ray foxstitches.tumblr.com

im queuing this for the morning and afternoon just in case

#suicide #psychosis #schizoaffective disorder #goodbye #tumblr

I did it and ill do it again

Urg

height, weight (or however you want yourself drawn), hairstyle and color, eyes, clothes, accessories, & other little fiddly bits (there's the info i need~)

Chubbly, 5'4, loooong brown hair past my booty mori clothes flowers in my hair! Deer ears and tail and hoofies with pretty dragonfly wings

tick tock tick tock

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do u have fone number

y yes i do

#eredar

perhaps it's a good thing my tumblr went away

i dont think i will be on much more- im trying to get into a nicer blogging community with a nice fandom base. i love you all, so if you are interested in maybe following my confusing adventure on dreamwidth let me know.

besides that, im not sure what else to say. im just....... tired of being tired.