ADHD, DYSLEXIA, ANXIETY, DEPRESSION AND ME!! I always knew I was different, was constantly teased for it. I always forgave people because I have always been an optimist. I had speech therapy in 2nd grade. She worked with me and one other boy on phonetics in addition to math, if I remember correctly. I thought I was being pulled from class to attend an EXTRA SPECIAL class, unaware that I had been labeled as special-ed as if it was a derogatory term. To me, it WAS special and it was there that I began to learn how to cope with having learning disorders. It's only as an adult that I began to get it. As a nurse, I know about comorbidities, things that tend to go hand in hand with others. I never lined them up in pairs, or grouped them. I just saw them as independent problems that each made my life more difficult. The scraps fit together though! They fit with each other like making a quilt from all the scraps, sewing them together with knowledge, and my life's work in progress is a work of heart, I can surely tell you that!!!! All the little things about me: Me forgetting to call my loved ones because I have no sense of object permanence, (leaving them feeling unloved) Me getting excited at the thoughts of canceling plans! Me watching my life drift by while I sit at home with the curtains drawn (moderate agoraphobia equals anxiety and panic attacks at the meer thought of going shopping), Me getting terrified that someone else will decide I'm just too much to bother with and decide they are done (again, fear of abandonment plus a history of the ones I love just leaving me behind), Me self-isolating and staying in my comfy zones Me feeling my anxiety and fear taking control of me every time I have a decision to make, preventing me from making one at all, Me sitting in one spot, silently berating myself for not getting up and cleaning something while at the same time I CANT MAKE ME MOVE because my brain won't let me decide its OK! My brain MUST go through all possibilities for every decision I need to make/have made so it can use the negative experiences to scare me back into my shell (because it's safer there). https://www.instagram.com/p/Cmsnp-OsthvYD-CfCxMLA25ZvUaLvqCygaE2f40/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
