Where the monsters go to bed

Writing down some inner things // less frequent due to return to school to get a degree

[fedupwithyou]

I think

I might

never

love another

as much

as these

overflowing

emotions

I harbour

for you

[fedupwithyou]

May I live

in all your daydreams,

run rent free

through your mind.

May your dreams

be filled

with us,

and the memories

we left behind.

[fedupwithyou]

And suddenly

the air feels lighter,

the sun brighter,

our laughs louder,

and life

is worth loving

again.

[fedupwithyou]

Your arm

around me

pulling me closer

in those dreams

most real

I can almost

believe

it

[fedupwithyou]

I dream

of your touch

of your lips

of the alcohol

lingering

on them

while we entangle

in the dark

with the moon

as our only

witness

[fedupwithyou]

You linger

on my skin

your lips

tracing patterns

I have yet

to decipher

A midnight venture

we both

cannot

resist

[fedupwithyou]

The feelings ebb

and flow

away

unlike

the tidal waves

I used to

drown

in

but

they’re still

always

there

[fedupwithyou]

Falling is easy,

they said,

it is the crawling

back up

after hitting

the ground

that takes people out

[fedupwithyou]

The sweetest eyes

kept telling lies

while

my tattered heart

broke apart

[fedupwithyou]

Let me

kiss away

the words

hanging

on your lips

as we both

drown

in the moment

where our hearts

beat

as one

[fedupwithyou]

Take me

on road trips

around the mountains

engulfed

in nature

in a sun-drenched

field

with memories

only our love

can fill

[fedupwithyou]

I often

return

to those blue nights

The ones

with no worries

the ones

with no pain.

How did we end up here?

[fedupwithyou]

Where

did the eyes go

that loved me

so deeply

that for once

I wasn’t afraid

to fall

you didn’t catch me in the end

[fedupwithyou]

You promised me the stars

yet here we are

[fedupwithyou]

How do you

prepare

for imminent

disaster

when

you

haven’t taken

the first step

yet

[fedupwithyou]

I love deeply,

unrestrained,

unchained

by every scar

others

may have left

[fedupwithyou]

My sweet,

my love,

my poisoned evergreen,

my hemlock,

my euphorbia milii thorns,

do your words

sting

as poisonous

as the promises

you once

swore

true