cold hands .

just a normal girl. trying to find a purpose.

[aphroditehearmyprayer]

2500 years old statue of Aphrodite

[feedelocean]

JUST WHY

Why can’t I love? Why do men’s hearts wither in my hands? Why can’t I ever keep them longer, and end up discarding them like dried flowers? Why can’t they hold me a little longer? Why am I condemned to cling to them and then let them go? Why can’t I love?

[feedelocean]

First mistake, lying to yourself

I have been trying for years to be tougher, adult, serious and intimidating. Perfecting that lie to convince myself that I was no longer a child, because both, my exterior and my interior were still too sweet. Even for me. Now I think it's time to embrace myself, and begin to appreciate myself for who I am. Someone kind, vulnerable and sensitive. I was never what I pretended to be and these seven years have been so exhausting.

[feedelocean]

My body hurts you but my mind hurts me.

[feedelocean]

I've always been afraid to show myself, even here. Where nobody knows you and sees you.

Perhaps it is time to end all that.