an emotional rant.
I don’t have plans on being a mother. There’s a lot in my past I am ashamed of, and a lot of insecurity I’m still dealing with. I don’t trust people easily. I dislike my body. The last thing I want is for people to see me in that intimate way, or for my mistakes to be laid out like a deck of cards. I have a lack of trust because any time I made a mistake it was immediately shared with others, like a teacher reading a secret note out loud to the class. I am afraid. I know exactly how this is going to end.

















