iris

i love kevin day !!!!!!!!!!! pfp: r3d-sprinklez, banner: sbgyuri i will ramble and rant and spit my thoughts on here

[femkevinday]

IRIS’ INTRO

iris || she/her || lesbian || 19

using this to rant and spew my thoughts on characters, medias, & fandoms :3

feel free to send any asks or dm me !!

interests: AFTG (!!), pjsk, yellowjackets, stranger things, soc, gone series, lotf, jjk, csm, bandori(ish)

faves: KEVIN DAY (!!), neil josten, andrew minyard, renee walker, jean moreau, aaron minyard, jeremy knox || mafuyu asahina (!!), emu ootori, mizuki akiyama, ena shinonome, kanade yoisaki, ichika hoshino, minori hanasato || jackie taylor (!!), natalie scatorccio, shauna shipman, misty quigley || mike wheeler, max mayfield, robin buckley

ships: kandreil, kevjean, andreil, kandrew, kevneil, jerejean, jeaneil, jeanee, keremy/kerejean (∅ kevaaron) || mafuena, kanamafu, mizumafu, polyniigo, haruemu, polyneed, ichishiho, polysho, minoharu, minokana, mafuemu || jackienat (!!), jackieshauna, lottieshauna, travnat, mistynat, taivan, lottielee, melshauna, marishauna (∅ lottienat) || byler, lumax, elmax, rovickie, ronance, jancy, madwheeler(ish) (∅ mileven) || jalph, jimon, ralmon || satosugu (+ stsg yuri), itafushi, nobamaki || nyamortis, mutsusaki, mutsumortis, soyoanon, tomoanon, raanamortis, soyomortis, uminyamu, umitaki, takitomo, tomosaki, anonyamu, hatsutomo

disclaimer: i do not ship kevriko, but i do believe that their relationship had a psychosexual nature. therefore i may post/reblog content abt them, but i do not actually ship them. (you may dm/ask me for more clarity on this bc idk if i worded this the best)

[queenconsort]

transfem kevjean problematic boob size gap

[queenconsort]

oh waiter more fics that highlight kevriko codependency please

[queenconsort]

MECHANIC BUTCHDREW 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

[queenconsort]

[queenconsort]

butchdrew all sweaty after working on his car covered in grease stains and starting up the engine to see how she sounds (because he’s definitely one of those people that calls his car his girl)

[chaoticgremelin]

One thing that always makes me sick when thinking about Kevin is his relationship with Tetsuji.

The control this man has over Kevin is absolutely insane. Wymack says in the TFC extra chapter that If Tetsuji told Kevin to stop playing Exy forever, Kevin would have.

Not even Riko had enough of a grip and power over Kevin to make him stop, but Tetsuji did (still does?).

Every single time Tetsuji is mentioned or appears, Kevin somehow has an worse reaction than to Riko. At the end of the series he is capable of directly defying Riko, but NEVER Tetsuji.

Kevin's reaction to Tetsuji cornering him in the banquet is absolutely heartbreaking.

Not to mention, again, on the TFC extra chapter when Wymack promises Kevin his word as a coach and Kevin, with a pain laced voice, says 'coaches have no honor'.

Whatever Tetsuji did to 9 years old Kevin doesnt sound like just a caning. We know Tetsuji physically abused Riko too, and still, Riko was constantly doing things that would result in Tetsuji punishing him. Of course, he is afraid, but not nearly as afraid as Kevin.

Even Jean, he seems as afraid of Riko as he is of Tetsuji (honestly, I feel like he is even more afraid of Riko. Even though he obviously fears both).

But Kevin is more terrified of Tetsuji than he is of anyone else. To the point that If Tetsuji told him to never pick up a raquet again in his life, he would have. Kevin's trauma response in relation to Tetsuji is stronger than his love for Exy. Which is wild considering not even Riko had this effect on him.

There is also the Kayleigh aspect of It all. The books state that Kevin is extremely similar to her. We also know Tetsuji didnt really want Kayleigh to die and resented Kengo afterwards. Was Kevin a bitter reminder of Kayleigh's death? Did Tetsuji also resent him?? Was Kevin treated worse because of It in some way?? Did Tetsuji use him to vent his frustrations??

(not to mention the very real possibility of CSA on Tetsuji's part, specially If he was in love/felt attraction to Kayleigh, but I wont really get into that right now)

Anyways, I am really curious about the nature of Kevin and Tetsuji's relationship. Specially since I imagine Kevin knew another side of Tetsuji when his mother was alive.

Was It too drastic of a change between when he spent his summers at Evermore and after his mother's death??? Or was Tetsuji already being abusive towards Kevin while Kayleigh was alive but manipulating Kevin to not tell his mother?????

From how young has this man been hurting Kevin???

We always talk about how Kevin was a pet to Riko, but we rarely talk about the fact Tetsuji GIFTED Kevin to Riko as a pet. This GROWN ADULT gave a child to another child. Not just any child, his GODSON, the child of his best friend. Thats so fucking sick in so many levels.

Not to mention: was this man making a literal child kneel for him??? Because when Neil was in the Nest, Tetsuji asked him to kneel. I dont doubt he would do the same to Kevin. But from how young????

Tetsuji makes me so sick and I need to learn more.

[twinyardz]

virtually the only person that kevin spent the first decade of his life with dying and leaving him alone….virtually the only person that kevin spent the second decade of his life with dying and leaving him alone….i wouldn’t be surprised if part of kevin’s ‘all that matters to me is the perfect game’ schtick is that he’s never seen any proof that there’s anything else out there - love, happiness, friendship, family - that he’s able to grasp and actually keep

[flyingkoalaandsloths]

Small rant on a trend I have been seeing in kandreil post comments by andreil fans by pointing out the major andreil scenes to show andreil is the main romantic relationship of the series and like... yes? That's the whole point... andreil is on text. That is just the regular reading of the text. It should be like that or there would be no romantic main plot in the series.

Nobody is refuting this.. guys. We are not saying Kevin kissed them on mouth or that he confessed his undying love for them in a romantic gesture. If that was the case then kandreil would be on text.

Yes those kind of scenes are only between Neil and Andrew.

What we are saying is that why is kevin looming over everything they do?

Why is neil excluding kevin when he thinking about his platonic friends why is he looking at reacting to Kevin so intensely why is he including kevin in "us" when he pleads to Andrew?

And Andrew, after everything they went through his first on text smile is for Kevin, not Neil. He says it's getting interesting to Kevin not Neil. And moving past the three books (not ec, but the published books, idc care of that have a house and two cats in the ec) why is he going to somewhere he hates via a transportation he also hates with Kevin?

We are talking about those things. Not on text andreil stuff that anyone who read the books without giving any attention could get. So pls stop repeating them when someone talks about kandreil is in the subtext or it is "almost" canon. It's not canon, we know. That's why there is another word before it.

[chaoticgremelin]

As much as I love the whole: put Kevin in the cuck chair joke, realistically I feel like he is probably very traumatized with both watching and being watched while having sex

I mean, given the whole Lydia situation and then also how he and Thea had their first time.

I think he would probably end up very triggered by the situation, even If the environment and the people involved were completely different from his experience in the Nest

(not saying people shouldnt put him in those situations in their fica/fanart/posts. This is not even a confirmed trauma. I am just here wondering)

[z0mbie1uvr]

i just know that andrew fucks kevin into the mattress and then devours EVERYTHING in the fridge afterwards.

[kev-day]

i may never recover from the kevin books. he is my character.

[trash-tzar]

Literally no bigger AFTG ick than when Kevin is belittled and punished for not being a perfectly agreeable abuse victim after living in hell on earth for 10+ years

[piratespencil]

Constantly thinking about how there’s still time for Kandreil to be canon in the new books… Nora please…

[femkevinday]

controversial opinion But i lowkey don’t like how raven neil is portrayed……. (AT LEAST IN THE FEWS THINGS IVE READ/SEEN)

^ but also this is no hate to any creator, this is just my opinion, and u are free to like, read, and write whatever you like idgaf, this is just me stating my opinion !!! (also ik not all raven neil media is like this i’m just basing this take off of things i’ve seen but this is not a slight to any creator pls don’t take it that way this is just my opinion, please have fun writing raven neil anything and don’t take this too seriously if u write/read/like this kind of raven neil)

SO with that disclaimer out of the way, my reason why is bc i don’t think he’s characterized the best… from the few things i have read and seen he is portrayed as pretty mouthy towards riko & he stands up for jean/kevin, and while i think those things Can be true under specific circumstances and in certain instances… i don’t fully believe in that… when we get part of neil in the nest we see a neil who has been physically far removed from the threat of the yakuza for years, Obviously there was always the lingering mental and looming physical threat of his father, but the moriyamas weren’t really on his radar before joining the foxes, this allowed him a sort of dissonance? or like mental distance from the situation imo, which made him speak up more publicly against riko, ofc from his POV we also get his natural aggression that he tones down and eventually lets out, so that would most likely spring out a few times had he been in the nest from his “audition”, but remember, he would’ve been thrust from his father’s hands into the moriyama’s—into tetsuji’s, another abusive older male figure (which we see neil be wary of w wymack in tfc). so it’s very likely that going from his father to tetsuji wouldnt make him as “mouthy” as we see him in the triology & portrayed in raven neil media ALSO we get a quote in trk where neil says “He'd let Riko take him apart time and time again because it was the only way to survive, because bending should have kept him from breaking, but Neil didn't know if he could pull himself back together one more time. He wasn't strong enough for this. He never had been. His mother had held him up but she was gone now.” and this was AFTER the ~8 years of physical separation from the yakuza & their abuse… even when he was older and had been less physically immersed in their world he still bent to riko & tetsuji, which means at the young age of 10, with the threat of his father looming, and he’d just been there, and seeing his father murder someone in front of him (maybe not for the first time, but still horrific and a horrible display of power) he would 100% bend to riko’s and tetsuji’s wills

now i do think he may try and help jean & kevin (like kevin did for jean) But he would also prioritize his own safety (+ w the “your failures are my failures” pairing he would have w jean it would only make sense for him to help jean w that in mind (and to get in less trouble himself)), so im not totally against that idea, but i just think he wouldn’t be so forward and antagonizing to riko, especially bc he’s very aware of their power

[fireheartwraith]

I think Kevin should get passed around between andreil and jerejean like a blunt

[twinyardz]

the foxes finding out that wymack is kevin’s father in tkm is such a genuine ragebait chapter. i forget every time until i read it again how infuriating it is: ‘neil heard matt utter a low warning not to strike kevin where it’d leave a mark’. like broooo

[houseminyard]

big kandrew thoughts under the cut

you can’t convince me that if it’s anyone outside of neil, andrew would put himself on a deadline to get rid of his feelings Or Else. we never find out what Or Else is because he always manages to get rid of his feelings, because they stand in the way of everything else. especially when it’s kevin! being Involved ™ with kevin means accepting and acknowledging that there is a future out there for him (which andrew is allergic to because of the context of his entire life), accepting that kevin is right (he would rather kill himself) and potential distraction from his other promise to aaron.

you also can’t convince me that andrew lets kevin touch him properly, especially not the hair. i think kevin thinks about it all the time, but andrew is so properly closed off (and yet weirdly open at the same time that nobody bothers to crack the surface to get to what’s underneath) that kevin is never fully trusted with Everything. kevin helps andrew stay out of jail (see: hanging onto his medication) but that’s about the extent he can manage. 

kevin would so spill his feelings first in his kevin way (talking around it by accident, never directly saying what he means but swearing something in the Kevin Way à la You Should’ve Been Court) and andrew would’ve merced him on sight

kevin gives andrew purpose and reason to stay (because of the Promise), but he can’t make andrew want to be there like neil. and kevin fucking tries because kevin thinks he knows what andrew wants. he knows what andrew is good at and he sees a maintainable future for andrew, but it’s not what andrew wants. and andrew never tells him, because he doesn’t want kevin to make it a reality

kevin pushes andrew every single step of the way because he knows deep down on some level, andrew would like to be very good, but he knows it’ll never happen because of his exterior and his reputation and his instability. but “would like to” and “want” are not the same thing. kevin is pushing andrew along and andrew hates to be pushed, and kevin knows he doesn’t have enough of what andrew needs in order to really move his whole career/real desires along

i think kevin thinks the easy route is giving up on andrew entirely and letting andrew go about his business whilst protecting kevin, but the Right Way (according to kevin) is not being like everyone else and refusing to give up on andrew, because everyone gives up on andrew and loses what kevin thinks is an incredible goalkeeper with a lot of wasted potential. 

[pixelated-homunculus]

You just KNOW the in-universe queer community had a fucking FIELD DAY when star athlete and celebrity Kevin Day came onto the court and called himself Queen