hey, jean. jean valjean. hey. hey. hello.

she/her II Nat lI 23 ll slavic || dumb and delusional || occasional Kandreil propaganda currently trying to teach myself digital art

[schnuspi]

we don’t talk enough about teenage Kevin looking at Jeremy‘s pictures in magazines

[schnuspi]

my boss randomly dyed one of his horses tail and now it looks like Reneigh Walker

[butchandrew]

ik i rant about the wymack stuff a lot but god it is rough

Neil outright admits he stole Kayleigh's letter and has had it for MONTHS without Kevin knowing. Like, one of the only personal things he has of hers has been at Palmetto this whole time and now is being used against him.

And Neil outs this in front of the entire team and Neil explicitly switches to English saying that Kevin is going to go public about who his father is putting Kevin on the spot while he's actively telling Neil no.

(And this is after Kevin kept Neil's own secret for months on his behalf and literally just got choked out over it)

And like, Neil is right! The identity of who Kevin's father is has been a media spectacle since Kevin was born...because Kayleigh in her lifetime never wanted revealed. Like, Kevin would be outing something his mother never wanted to be public knowledge for several reasons.

The text validates that this is the right choice because Wymack is owed this information and it is "long past" when Kevin should have told him which feels so unfair. Kevin has no idea how Wymack would have taken the news that he was his father (canonically he doesn't take it well) and is literally on the run from his mob cult who wants him dead. If he miscalculated then he could be screwed.

And like, idk, I think if you want anyone to blame maybe it should be Kayleigh? Not Kevin who had no say in his mother's choice to hide it or his parents hooking up in the first place?

I think the worst part is when Neil tells the Foxes and shows far more empathy for their reaction to Coach being Kevin's father than for Kevin himself...and Kevin is doing this FOR NEIL.

And like I get it. Neil is a survivalist who would see this as something to use but the narrative and the Foxes at large all seem to agree this is for the best. That Kevin has deeply wronged Wymack by not telling him. And like...you're telling me none of the Foxes would understand Kevin and his daddy issues? The daddy issues team?

[butchandrew]

I've really loved seeing the discussion and points some people have brought up in their tags and replies to this. I wanted to follow up and write some more nuanced thoughts!

TLDR while I understand that these character reactions are not necessarily out of character, it is just an overall miserable read with little to no comfort which is a sentiment people seem to agree with.

I 100% get why Neil steals the letter and why he pressures Kevin to out his parentage. Especially fresh off Baltimore & still deep in his own survivalist mindset. Neil is capable of being callous when he needs to be and at this point in the narrative, is running on fumes and trying to find anything to secure his and the team's safety. He is reacting purely out of survival and nothing else. To him, Kevin outing Wymack is inevitable so why not use it now when it can do a "net good" for the team / Neil? I think this is an important part of Neil's character and we see similar reactions from him when his back is against a wall. I still think it is crazy though to steal someone's dead mom's letter and hide it for months Just In Case it came up like.

Kevin is not close to the Foxes the way Neil is so of course they react like that. Kevin very purposefully keeps his distance from them. They are much closer to and love Wymack and they idolize him as a father figure so of course their instinct is to worry about him. If they were in Kevin's shoes they would jump at the chance to have someone like him as a bio father. It just feels....weird (bad) to fixate so heavily on this while Kevin is literally downstairs crying over how bad it went.

All this to say while I get the why it shakes out this way. It just still reads as a pretty miserable experience. We also never really follow up on it and Kevin just spends the rest of the novel vaguely sad before he gets hammered enough to cover his tattoo and beat Riko at Exy.

And then Riko dies and he is devastated again sleeping on Wymack's couch.

Ok this is my rough thoughts and ideas thank you for reading.

[schnuspi]

Aaron’s withdrawal in that fucking bathroom

[allysontempest]

im starting a tag game because i feel like it

you just saw a shooting star while you are outside, reblog with three things you wish for the most currently and tag all your moots

i wish to do well in my education and get great scores for my end of year exams!

i also wish my GCSE option is changed from drama to business I genuinely can't do drama oh my fucking goodness

and i wish i could talk to my old moot @bandaged-angel again she deleted her account i really miss her

aaaand i started the tag game so i get to cheat and give myself one more wish >:) I wish for really nice cool forever irl friends

coming back to this in a year to see how many came true!

@shelley654 (btw Shelley i hope things get better for you soon! platonic love from Allyson)

@semenstainedmountaintop @icantthinkofanameandidontwantto @lesbianadhdchaos @mels-melodies @collectivemusings @heartattackinblackdye @halfcreativevoid @princessnymphae @chxrrywxvss @depressionanddrama @tsuyu-is-my-child @weoponizedautism @moonchildsart @mlmloverforlife @sbkoiotbtileess @very-gay-poet @tired-old-hag @secretly-bea @yumeisnthere @melaniethespecial @fluffyconfuzzlement @nothingandeverythingblue @t0rt1-4ng3l @emofreakygirl @kurtlyturtle @b3ansmcsprout @rennitey @chocolapilled @khemical-katalyst @sonic-the-hedgehog-offical @slowwalkingbisexualgirl @life-of-wiz @laterkiss @shah4139-offical @theceasarsaladsucks @emma-is-fine @gl1tzygl0ck @blueberrie-tart @strawbxrrypies @poet-queen12 @crims0nr0s3 @niyashaaa @sunshine-snake + open tags :D

[lexthe13th]

reblogging feels invasive but it’s open so idc(?)

prolly like money health insurance and the ability to decide another major

tags: @devi-lishly @spindellilja @shining-just-4-u @schnuspi

[schnuspi]

thanks for the tag;)

I wish for my horse to stay uninjured bc she’s going so fucking well right now

I wish to one day be able to finally study vet med (I even got accepted but couldn’t go through with it bc I’m way too mentally ill (my therapist says the concept of me at university is maybe a little too delulu but one can dream))

And I wish for Nora to be happy and healthy and for her to keep writing those books

No pressure tags:) @trulysarcastic @tswizzlesfan @onyxxorion @moreauver @azeiravel @purplestartdust-blog @maddielourd @starsswritess @litenmyraienskog

and open

[schnuspi]

Hc Renee has the most angelic singing voice and when Jean was at Abby’s she was not only reading to him but also quietly singing/humming whilst petting his hair as he was falling asleep omfgbdkdkskndjrlj

[jordiipordii]

Kevin Day is the type to be on the sidelines at one of the Trojans’ games and faint on purpose so Jeremy would come to check on him lmao

[schnuspi]

Dan is serving face with that short haircut and no one can convince me otherwise

[schnuspi]

kevseth starts making sense when you realise it’s basically Ronan/Kavinsky

[exy-enthusiast]

@schnuspi if you have instagram checking out what the GAA accounts post is totally worth it, there's some dirty plays. I can't even like Dublin but I'm addicted to watching this one

[schnuspi]

omg this is amazing

[schnuspi]

Kevin Day, you’re my favourite yapper

[schnuspi]

Im trying to paint Kevin right now and I had to wake up my bf so he could pose as refrence for the clothes and pose and stuff and my bf was still in bed and half asleep like: "wait, I need to get into the Kevin Day mindset first- exy, exy, exy, Neil, Andrew- ok I’m ready."

[5buny]

kevin doesnt know how to jerk off because andrew does it for him

[froggisarethebest]

am i allowed to say that jean’s attitude with the press and paparazzi throughout his career will literally be cillian murphy everytime he’s forced to do a press tour? the eye roll, complete poker face, giving away nothing, accidentally being sassy with everyone. there’s going to be a youtube video titled “jean-yves moreau serving cunt in press interviews for 15 minutes straight ft. neil josten being insufferable and kevin day dying inside”

[dustisus]

[schnuspi]

I have just talked to my therapist and the voices are telling me to make him read aftg

[schnuspi]

ok but how is it possible that when Andrew calls his name, Kevin has better recall then my dog?