ooc post
hi everyone. i know these blogs have been dead for… a while but i’m thinking of bringing them back soon! THAT BEING SAID…
i just want to say i have grown and changed a lot in the few years i’ve been away from these blogs. rereading these blogs truly made me cringe at times because of the way i’ve handled very sensitive topics, promoted ideas i no longer hold, or in some cases, was saying things through the characters that may have even been actively harmful.
a large part of this was because i wanted to make their experiences with mental illness authentic and a lot of times mental illness can be this really ugly thing gnawing inside of you trying to get out. it makes you internalize a lot of negative beliefs. another part of it was due to the fact that i was having a really rough time in my own mental health journey and kind of letting it out through the characters was one of my ways of coping with all the troubles in my personal life and the world at large. so i wanted to apologize for anything that was unnecessarily edgy, hurtful, or in bad taste.
these blogs are still very personal to me, though, and the way i just kind of. stopped posting always felt like unfinished business to me. so it’s possible these blogs may start posting again sometime before the end of the summer. i don’t expect any future posts to be nearly as frequent or depressing as they have been in the past, since i’ve mostly played out the “plot” i had in mind, but i think it would be fun to continue with general asks and shenanigans. thanks to all my lovely followers for coming along with me on this blog’s journey!
-love, banana (your mod/author!)
another addition: if anyone knows any good places to find free, functional tumblr themes, please do message me @standforford (gf blog) or @gaytoddanderson (main account). i want to find themes for these blogs that have date and timestamps and are easier to read for anyone wanting to (re)read these blogs but i’ve been having a hard time finding something i want lol
