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Sophie, 15 In recovery from an eating disorder that I've fought long and hard to beat. Passion for musical theatre. 🌹

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Drama exam tomorrow. Very nervous but also incredibly excited. I've worked very hard and I'm excited to show the fruits of my labour 🎭🎭🎭

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Me: *is sobbing*

Someone: oh my god what's wrong???!

Me: she put herself back in the narrative

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Lazy Sunday 💤

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I randomly remembered your blog after a year(-ish) of not having seen it, and decided to come and say hi!! How are things, are you alright? You look absolutely stunning in your last selfie! I hope you're good xx

Long time no speak ;). I was fairly inactive for while but I'm back and better than ever and want to try stay active on tumblr through the whole of 2016. I'm okay. Okay is a good word to use. In terms of recovery I am doing well, although using the term 'recovery' very loosely. I am still very anxious and sad a great deal of the time however now I don't act out on it through restriction. Which is very difficult because I'm almost having to suppress these feelings. However things are significantly better than they have ever been and I'm very happy you decided to pop back. 😋xxxxx

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I ate pasta today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! With some butter on it omg I feel so guilty but I'm super proud :)

Of course I understand and empathise with these feelings of guilt but please try your very hardest not to feel this way. The quantity or type of food you choose to nourish your body with should have no correlation to your feelings of guilt or self worth. You are so much more than your intake, your guilty foods, your weight. I hope one day you see that. For now I am so incredibly proud of this little victory lovely. Baby steps xxxxx

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do you count calories anymore?

I am so very happy to say that no I do not count calories anymore. There was a time that even the thought of not being able to meticulously count calories would have sickened me. Now it just comes naturally and that is something I am grateful for everyday ❤️

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Every time I see a picture of you I want to cry because you're so beautiful!

DARLING ❤️❤️❤️ I'm sure you are absolutely gorgeous yourself xxxx

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The only good thing about winter is it is socially acceptable for me to wear turtlenecks exclusively 🐢🐢🐢

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Baffles me how I can be exhausted all day and then be completely unable to sleep at night 😩😩😩

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Oh my word! Please do some makeup tutorials, Soph! You always look exquisite!

Stopppp I'm blushing 😉😉. This is like the best compliment I could receive as I spend 90% of my free time watching make up tutorials and am a little obsessed.!😘😘😘😘

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Sophie, I'm 100% sure I have an eating disorder (I've been sure about this for 2 years.) How do I tell my parents?

I'm so happy you are able to finally come to terms with your situation. As cliché as it sounds acceptance really is the first step to recovery. You have to acknowledge there is a problem in order for help to follow. I know the task of telling your parents probably seems incredibly daunting and terrifying but you can do this. Unfortunately there is no easy way. If you are particularly scared of their reaction then perhaps take the approach of writing a letter. That way you can articulate the way you feel clearly and concisely without your panic getting in the way as it would if you were to try explain verbally. If this idea doesn't seem rational to you then I'm afraid my darling it may be the case of just asking them to sit down with you as you need their help. At the end of the day they are your parents. They created you and love you more than anything on this earth. I doubt your pain has gone unnoticed all they want to do is help you. Best of luck and let me know how it goes ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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Sleepy and wanting summer

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You're very lucky you survived. Not everyone does. And I don't mean in death, I mean bringing the omen into adulthood and never finding a way out. You're very lucky yours was caught early and you still had the fight in you. I admire and envy you in that way. It's a turn of events, partially being in the right place at the right time, but for the other 1/3, it's never. I was ill at the tender age of 9, and I don't know a life without it. I'm mad this seed was ever planted, and why I didn't win.

This brought a tear to my eye. I am thankful everyday of my life that I made it out the other side, that I lived. I'm so aware how easy it would've been to carry on with the destructive behaviours and literally lose my life to this disorder, either physically or emotionally. The amount of sadness and lack of hope in this message breaks my heart. You can do this too. I know you don't think it and I'm aware you probably think me naive to believe it but I believe in recovery. I believe no matter your age, no matter how long you've been living with this illness you can overcome it. Please fight, please. Life is waiting for you. Xxxxxx

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It's the night before the first day back after the Christmas holidays.

I'm not in the best of places and struggling to sleep. I've thought a lot and realised I miss posting here frequently and miss this blog/the recovery community/tumblr in general a lot. I plan to post a lot more this year. I hope you are all happy and having a great start to the year ❤️❤️❤️

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