Choosing Recovery

Its time to love myself Follow my journey towards self love

[firefoxqueen]

TW

Encountered my first relapse today

Had this intense urge to purge, and ended up giving into the desire, and felt grossly better afterwards.

And after that I started counting calories and almost convinced myself that “it’ll make the feelings go away”. Yeah I know the truth, but it feels nice to have a bit more control now.

I plan on forcing myself to eat a piece of cake and have a glass of wine later. It’ll be my big “Fuck you, Anorexia and Bulimia!” Before I go to bed.

I’m refusing to indulge in my urge to work off every calory I’ve consumed today, because I already let myself go enough.

Gonna avoid the mirror for the rest of today though, just to make sure my Anorexic brain doesnt try to say some shit to me and make me feel super fucking horrible.

I hope everyong is going okay today and is safe!

Remember, recovery is always waiting for you. Its safe, free, and potentially life saving! I love all of you, make sure to drink water, take your meds, and and eat something, even if it is small.

[firefoxqueen]

Hey yall, being skinny doesnt make you beautiful.

Just to remind you that these women are models.

People love chub, so why dont you love your own?

[firefoxqueen]

Learning to be confident eith your body is key.

I am tired of letting our disgusting, unrealistic beauty industry conduct how women and men should look.

We are human and deserve to look they way WE want to, not the way people expect us to.

I am beautiful, stretch marks, chub and all.

Just because I am overweight does not mean I am less deserving of love, respect or self worth.

I am going to convince myself of that too.

I dont want to count calories, push exercises to the point of illness, and restrict for days. I want to enjoy a burger and fries with the love of my life without hating myself.

I’ll get there.

I’m going to recover.

[firefoxqueen]

These women are beautiful

Chubby is beautiful

Skinny is beautiful

We are all beautiful and deserve empowerment. We deserve to love ourselves.

[firefoxqueen]

Hey followers

Y’all

Ive decided to recover

Because I’m tored of hating my rolls.

Tired of hating my stretchmarks.

Ive taken steps already into recovering.

I am trying to destroy my routine.

And I deleted all of my thinspo from my phone and replaced them with plus sized models who are gorgeous.

I might change this account into healthspo, meaning start posting beautiful bigger women and men.

I want to encourage recovery.

We need to stop basing ourselves off of people with unrealizstic body types, who pose and suck in for photos.

Anorexia is boring, lets eat and enjoy our bodies.

If you choose to unfollow because you arent ready to recover that is okay, please be safe and try to live yourself.

[achievement-b-huntress-deactiva]

ALRIGHT. LISTEN UP.

So recently, I got calls from the phone number, [phone]. They claim to be a job service, and one of their “employees”, Carrigan, is friends with whoever the call recipient is, and that Carrigan has recommended you for this $15.00/h “job”. I also got a text message from [phone], claiming to be Carrigan, and that they need stuff to “win a scholarship”. I do not know anyone by the name of Carrigan and I know very well that this is a very dangerous scam. If you receive a call from a number, and they ask you if you would like a job for $15.00/h, HANG UP IMMEDIATELY. If you accept the “job” offer, and you go in for an interview, they will give you a drugged bottle of water and you will wake up somewhere you don’t want to be. These phone calls & texts are from a human trafficking service, and if you oblige to them, you will be sold to people and you will be raped, no doubt about it. So PLEASE PLEASE DO NOT ANSWER THESE CALLS OR TEXTS. I have listened to the voicemails, and allowed my dad to do the same, and he learned that anyone offering a $15.00/h “job” is a human trafficker. PLEASE SIGNAL BOOST THIS ALL OVER TUMBLR

[achievement-b-huntress-deactiva]

Okay, I am reblogging this because it is relevant again. I got another call from a 353 number. Not the exact same number, but I know that it is a trafficker because it’s 353 just like the last one. I also want this to signal boost so PLEASE REBLOG THIS.

[nawdah]

Why are people deleting the captions though I had to search for what the pictures meant don’t do that

[bleuberrygliscor]

a side note,  because theyre very popular around the DMV, If you ever see a sign with something akin to ‘free debt erasure’ ‘15/h job’ etc and ONLY A PHONE NUMBER, ignore it. tear it down if you can, because those are well known scams and sex-trafficking baits.do not, by any means, call or respond to these messages. do not let your friends do it. do not.

[findyourpenguin]

THIS IS IMPORTANT AF THANK Y’ALL HOLY SHIT

Oklahoma is one of the worst states as far as human trafficking, so thank y’all so fucking much. That’s literally my life and the lives of everyone I know that y’all just saved. Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you

[cyborgsmanifesto]

dealing with the worst case scenario

your condom breaks

you feel a lump on your breast

your friends are ignoring you

you’re stranded on an island 

you got rejected by a crush

you get into a car accident

you got stung by a bee/wasp

you got fired from your job

you’re in an earthquake

your tattoo gets infected

your house is on fire

you’re lost in the woods

you get arrested abroad

you get robbed

your partner cheated on you

you’re on a ship that’s sinking

you fall into ice

you’re stuck in an elevator

you hit a deer with your car

you have food poisoning

your pet passed away

you fall off of a horse

you or your friend has alcohol poisoning

you have toxic shock syndrome

your house has a gas leak

[4velitta4]

I feel like this could be useful in my future

[astrologypixies-deactivated2016]

REBLOG THIS. I CANNOT STRESS HOW IMPORTANT THIS GUIDES ARE, BOOST THIS SHIT

[getupoffyourcassbutt]

If I don’t reblog this one of these things is definitely going to happen to me

[theszandor-deactivated20190509]

I’m gonna reblog for y’all but also for me bc I’m a writer man I need this random info

[etherall-deactivated20200122]

I love you guys and I wanna make sure you know what to do in any situation ever, no matter how odd.

[prettyist-deactivated20131019]

[skinandbonesknowsbest]

I love this💕💕

[coffeedietcokeprincess]

Has anyone ever had that one thought: “hmm so drugs make you lose weight huh?”

[victories]

i wonder if this resonates with anyone else but one of my primary motivations for weight loss is to look as externally delicate as i am internally— to be perceived as being worthy of being treated with careful and attentive love as if i were made of glass easily broken with the slightest amount of strain

[sleepymila]

This. This is actually why I want so desperately to be skinny.

[gabbsabbath-blog]

REBLOG IF YOU WANT ANONS.

[lookatmeenoww-deactivated201301]

Okay seriously. Reblog if you're OLDER than 11.

[danisontnonfire]

why is it that not more than 1/20 of Tumblr haven’t reblogged this

[imsoofuckingsad-deactivated2018]

30 day free trial of being ok

[milkchocolateowl]

op wheres the link

[milkchocolateowl]

wheres the link op

[hogwartsfemme-deactivated-deact]

✓ yes I hallucinate

✓ yes I have delusions

✓ yes I’m psychotic

✗ no this doesn’t make me “scary”

✗ no this doesn’t make me “dangerous”

✗ no this doesn’t mean I’m gonna hurt you

it’s time we stop acting like psychosis is so scary and psychotic people are evil. we’re more likely to be victims than to victimize.

[hogwartsfemme-deactivated-deact]

non-psychotics are encouraged to reblog this btw

[firefoxqueen]

Not psychotic, but i support anyone who deals with this. You dont deserve to be treated poorly due to a chemical imbalance in your brain that you can’t control. You’re human too. I love you 🖤

[firefoxqueen]

REALITY CHECK

If you decide to stop your birth control without telling your boyfriend, and he is under the impression you are still using birth control

That

Is

Unconsensual

Sex

I dont care what you say. If it is considered unconsensual sex when he doesnt wear a condom without your permission, then it is unconsensual sex if you stop YOUR pregnancy preventative without informing him prior.

[skinnylegcnd]

reblog this if you’ve ever been called fat by a family member

[skinnythicclegend]

once a week

I went from weighing myself everyday, multiple times a day, to trying to only weigh myself once a week and it’s actual hell

I weighed myself tuesday 6/18/19 and i cant wait until this tuesday to /finally/ weigh myself again and hopefully i’ll have made progress

the only good thing about doing it once a week is i’ve been focusing more on my visual progress in the mirror than the numbers on the scale

[skinnythicclegend]

I weighed myself this morning and lost 5.8lbs which is the most i’ve ever lost at one time so I’m more motivated than ever holy shit

although i think weighing myself once a week is better i’m debating just doing once a day in the morning but we’ll see 🤷🏻‍♀️