memories to remain: teashop scene
So last year for Zutara Week 2017, I began writing an AU for the prompt soulmates. Well, one year and 12k words later, my soulmate AU still remains in my google docs folders unfinished.
For an entire year this fic has haunted me, but I feel like I owe it to the public and myself to show it was something I worked on and that does exist. So, for Zutara Week 2018, I thought I'd share an excerpt that correlates to today's theme: tea.
She should have run.
In another life, perhaps, Katara did run. She did what any sensible person would do and went to tell someone who could do something about the situation in front of her. In another life, she was smart, and her judgment wasnât clouded by the draw of something that shouldnât be realâby the draw of something entirely too real.
But that life was not this life, and so Katara did not run.
Instead, she stood, watching the boy who chased her and her friends halfway around the world with complete and utter fascination.
Really, she should have known he'd be here. Why wouldn't he be? She'd felt the telltale pull to the tea shop, almost like an untapped reflex kicking into action after not being used for so long. All through her time in Ba Sing Se, she had felt something tugging on her, calling her somewhere all too familiar yet all too unknown. Learning of the Jasmine Dragon only made the pull worse; it was like she finally had the destination she was looking for.
She should have known why. Maybe a part of her did know why. Maybe she'd always known why.
It didn't take long for him to notice her. It never did; it never would. She hadn't been staring more than a minute, watching him work in a teashop of all places.
He wore some uniform she'd never seen before. The smile on his face was just as foreign.
To anyone else, there was nothing out of the ordinary when he turned and caught her eye. Just a tea server acknowledging a new customer before going to help another. No one in the shop would think that something bigger was happening. Or, if they knew, they'd think that the two finding each other would just be coincidence.
Nothing about them had ever just been coincidence.
Katara was sure that time had stopped for the two of them. For a while, they did nothing but stare at each other. Everything around her seemed to stop moving. The clatter of dishes, the steady stream of soft conversation from the customers, the bustle of the crowdâthey all melted away and all that was left was him: the gold of his irises, the black of his hair.
The red of his scar.
Zuko looked at her with an expression she couldnât quite place. If she had to describe it, he looked like she felt: an impossible mix of terror, confusion, and longing.
Eventually, he made his way to her, slowly, as if he was worried that moving too fast would scare her away. He came as close as he would dare, smelling of ginseng and honey and slightly of smokeâand after a moment of nothing but waiting, saying nothing, he asked her one vital question:
âDo I know you?â
The answer should have been obvious. Of course he knew her. How could he not? How could he look at the girl he chased, the girl he fought, the girl who was his enemy, and ask if he knew her?
But that wasn't what he was asking.
It was never that simple.
âI think you do.â
They sat on the roof for what seemed like hours.
Zuko had always felt that destiny was against him. It fought him every step of the way, and now, here she was. The last girl he would have asked for or expected turned the one girl heâd always held out hope for.
Nothing about this was fair, or right. All of this was wrong, horribly wrong.
He always imagined his soulmate would be some beautiful girl from the Fire Nation, someone he would meet once he reclaimed his honor and was once again the rightful heir to the Fire Nation throne. She was supposed to be someone he met at his best, who would help him bring to the Fire Nation into a new, better era.
It wasnât supposed to be herâthis girl whom his people had fought against for so long, this girl who saw him only at his worst, most destructive self.
Why, he wondered, did his soulmate have to be the one girl who was least likely to ever accept him?
âDo you want anything?â He blurted out. She looked at him, slightly surprised and confused. He coughed awkwardly. Thatâs not how you break an awkward silence, he scolded himself. Though, truth be told, it hadnât been that awkward. They had barely said anything to each otherâneither knew what to sayâbut the tension never got bad, at least not to Zuko. Sitting with her, looking out into the night and seeing the stars above shining, it felt right somehow.
So of course Zuko had to ruin it by asking stupid questions.
âUhm,â he coughed uncomfortably. âI mean, are you hungry? Thirsty? I can get you something from downstairs, if youâd like.â
Katara looked at him, skeptical. âIâm okay,â she said, pulling her legs up and wrapping her arms around her knees. âBut thank you.â
He nodded, unsure of what to say next. In his head, he had a million questions for her, like where her friends were, or why she was in the city. But, he figured that the situation was fragile enough without him asking her where the Avatar was. He decided it should be her choice whether or not she told him any information.
âI donât know what Iâm supposed to say to you,â Katara admitted. She looked at him sheepishly, tucking a lock of dark hair behind her ear. Zuko thought that if this girl ended up not being his soulmate, heâd fight the spirits above for teasing him with someone like her. âEver since I left the South Pole with Aang and my brother, Iâve been in a lot of situations where Iâm out of my comfort zone. But this isâŚâ she trailed off, and even though she didnât have an end to the thought, Zuko knew exactly what she meant.
âYeah,â he agreed. âThis isâŚâ
Katara narrowed her eyes at him. She opened her mouth to say something, but changed her mind and turned away. Before Zuko could say anything else, she changed her mind again, swinging her head back before saying, âI mean, what are we supposed to say? âHi, yes, I think thereâs a chance we might be soulmates. Why donât we just say screw it, run away together, and see if we canât make this work on some farm in the Earth Kingdomâ?â
Zukoâs eyes widened at her suggestion, and some selfish, longing part of him wished he could say yes, letâs do exactly that.
Instead, he sighed. Realistically, he didnât know what they were supposed to do. There was no guidebook or instruction manual titled âWhat to Do When Your Soulmate is Also Your Enemyâ.
For now, heâd just have to wing it.
âWe could test it out.â
She looked at him like he was crazy. âWhat do you mean?â
Reaching into his shoe, Zuko pulled out the knife that Iroh had given him. He unsheathed it, letting the silver metal shine and reflect the glow of the moon overhead. âWe donât know for sure if weâre⌠you know. Connected. Linked. Whatever you want to call it.â He twirled the blade lazily in his hand, flipping between one inscription to the other. âFor all we know, everything weâve experienced has just been weird coincidence.â Lifting himself up with his hands, Zuko shifted how he was sitting so he could face Katara and not the streets below. Watching him, Katara followed in suit, their knees brushing against each other as she adjusted herself.
âSo youâre suggesting, what?â Katara asked incredulously. âYou cut yourself, and I see if I feel it?â Zuko nodded. âHow do you know I wonât just lie and say I felt it?â
Zuko gawked at her, feeling his cheeks warm. Did she just⌠imply that she would lie to make him think she was his soulmate? She must have realized what she said, too, because her eyes widened in shock. Kataraâs face turned a deep maroon, and her eyes quickly left his, fixating on a very interesting streetlamp below.
As much as he wanted to focus on what she just said, Zuko decided it was best not to make the situation any more awkward than it already was. He coughed, hoping to clear some of the tension. âWell, you could turn around, so you wouldnât know when I did it, or where.â
Slowly, Katara shifted her attention back to him. She nodded, but still appeared uneasy. âYeah, that could work.â She didnât say it, but Zuko could hear the but at the end of that sentence.
âButâŚ?â
Her look of uneasiness turned to one of guilt, and Katara began lightly tugging on her braid. âBut, I donât know if I want to know.â
The look Zuko gave her must have made her feel even worse, because she quickly jumped in to explain. âItâs just, for so long, all of this has been hypothetical. Thereâs always been a chance that itâs not us. That itâs like you said, all of what weâve experienced has just been coincidence.â She sighed. Her hand went up to her necklace. âBut, if we test this out, no matter what happens, the answer is going to be final. One way or another, everything is going to change the second you put that knife to your skin.â Her eyes were desperate, as if begging for him to understand. âI just donât know if Iâm ready for that yet.â
Zuko understood. Katara was right; this was bigger than they were, and both outcomes meant a lot of decision making, more questions, and some sort of change. âSo what do you want to do?â
She studied his face for a moment, as if the answer lay somewhere buried in his features. âLetâs just⌠have tonight.â Pulling her hair free, Katara laid back onto the roof, her brown curls pooling around her face. âLetâs just lay here, and look at the stars, and not do anything. Itâll be our break from everything else thatâs happening right now.â Her eyes found his, and Zuko suddenly felt like his soul had been exposed. âI donât know about you, but, I could really use a night where nothing else thatâs going on in our lives can touch us. A night where we just lay here, undisturbed, waiting for the sun to rise.â
Zuko stared at her, amazed and in disbelief that this girlâthis girl who he chased and fought for monthsâwas asking for a night, just the two of them, to sit and be at peace with one another. He laid himself out next to her. Searching her eyes, he looked for any sign of hesitation or discomfort. When he found none, Zuko gave her a ghost of a smile.
âOkay,â he said softly, âLetâs have tonight.â















