Introductions; my name is Saige. I’m 30 years old, non-binary, they/them or he/him pronouns, and I’ve been roleplaying since I was roughly 16 and have been on Tumblr since 2012. I’ve also written Zell since 2012. First and foremost, I am responsible for my time here, not you - just as you are responsible for your time here, not me.
This is my main blog and I’m almost always lurking around. However my replying is pretty unpredictable on a scheduled. This is largely due to being diagnosed with ADHD and some nights my brain is less cooperative than others. I do try to not keep people waiting too long so if you feel that it has been a while, I may have forgotten ( also memory issues ) so don’t hesitate to give a gentle reminder.
I also have an unknown processing disorder. This means that if someone writes in purple poise - I cannot understand what you are saying and I can’t roleplay with you. I think the style is artistic and beautiful, but I can’t work with it. My processing disorder also effects my memory severely. I cannot remember every single individual rule for every single follower. If this is something that you are harsh to cruel to ablest about, it’s best to not follow me. People make mistakes. People have disorders. It should not always fall on the disabled to accommodate the abled. Treat each other with kindness.
Rules stated below cut.
【1. Zell canonically is seventeen years old. Roleplaying a character that does not age and stays stagnant is BORING and gives no chance for development. If aging characters bothers you, this is not the blog for you. Sometimes I will be writing him at 17. Most of the time I write him at 21, sometimes older. People age. Characters age. Zell is going to age.】
【2. I can and enjoy roleplaying cross-over’s. I cannot and will not roleplay AU’s. It stresses me out trying to figure out who Zell is outside of his own world that it just no longer feels like Zell but an OC. I love cross-overs dearly. But AU’s where I have to build Zell from the ground up to someone I don’t recognize because his life in 8 shaped him to who he is just isn’t possible for me.】
【 3. Sexual and violent content will be written on this blog. I will not put sexual content under read-mores as it becomes far more difficult for me to read and follow and respond. However, my sexual content will be tagged under nsfw for ts if you wish to blacklist it.】
【 4. Difficult and triggering subjects may be occasionally referenced to written on this blog. I have a headcanon that Zell was raised in a patriarchal and conservative family with the expectations put on him he will marry to a woman young and have children. Sex before marriage was also heavily frowned upon in his family and caused him a lot of shame should he become sexually active. While him and his mother are very close and he is very protective over her, depending on development, biphobia will be present as she worries a queer life as a hard and scary life and wants her son to be safe, especially since she grew up in a very unsafe place. In time she will learn Zell knows what is best for Zell and will accept him being queer and polyamorous. His father accepted this from the start. I am not writing his family unit this way for shock value. I understand these subjects can be triggering and I will do my best to tag everything related to it accordingly. All I can promise is this hardship does have a happy ending.】
【 5. Dark, triggering, and / or taboo themes may also appear on this blog. I am willing to explore subjects providing the consent of myself and my roleplay partner(s) and if I feel it is within character. As for you yourself, I do not care what you write on your blog. It’s your blog and as I don’t like to be policed, I won’t police others. If I don’t like it, I won’t follow. That easy; no harassment.】
【 6. I have very few triggers, but one major one I have is comparing fictional problematic / taboo subjects to be the same as real life trauma. You are allowed to be uncomfortable and make yourself comfortable in your own space. In my space, I need that mindset away from my own mental health. I don’t like my trauma to be equated to something that doesn’t exist and can’t feel. What trauma’s those are, I am not comfortable disclosing, but as any roleplayer has, I reserve the right to unfollow or block to keep myself safe with or without notice. Do NOT keep approaching me if you are blocked. Since Tumblr can sometimes unfollow people, I do not mind being approached because that may very well be an accident in that situation. You can unfollow me for any reason and I will never pressure you as to why. If you are an anti / purity culture / fiction = reality - please don’t follow me for my own triggers and mental health.】
【 7. I have a low tolerance for call-outs, vaguing, and toxicity. I’m here to write and I want my dash filled with people who also enjoy writing. Occasional venting is one thing. Filling the dash is different. My dash needs to be a safe place for me. Anon-hate will have the IP blocked and it won’t be answered.】
【 8. Zell is non-binary and uses he/him pronouns. Zell is also on the asexual and aromantic spectrum. He cannot tell the difference between his platonic attraction for someone and romantic, even when harboring romantic feelings. I am open to shipping with all genders, but it will more often than not have to fall on the other person or a third party to be blunt with Zell for him to understand some else’s feelings as well as his own. He cannot get to that conclusion on his own. Zell is also open polyamorous. Under the consent of all ship partners, I love these dynamics. Zell will also be in a closed relationship if his partner wants it and he can be in a monogamous relationship. He is still polyam though. I’m not opposed to either. I do NOT ship with Seifer or Irvine.】
【 9. If you need anything tagged, please reach out and I will tag all of your needs.】
【 10. Do not give me a pass on your rules. I will respect your rules and if you have a rule that has a problem with anything that will be found on my blog, I will not follow you or will unfollow you. I hold everyone to the standards of my guidelines and I expect to be held to yours.】
【 11. I am not ageist against people who are older and people that are younger. However, assuming the age on your blog is your real age ( I'm not going to believe a stranger off the bat; that's just irresponsible ) and you are below the age of 18, no romantic shipping or sexual content will be written. Any pressure to do so gets a warning first, then a block.】
【 12. Dibella and Shadoji have no place on my dashboard after gas-lighting to flat out lying about me and others well after I tried to part ways amicably and peacefully, but continued to accuse me and name-drop me on baseless accusations and their own paranoia. Be friends with who you want. Once again I’m not here to police you and I’m not about ‘sides’ nor do I believe in guilt by association. However, my dashboard needs to be kept at my level of comfort and I am not comfortable seeing them in any way or form after being targeted for harassment. I have never in my 8 years of roleplaying on this site made a rule like this, and I hope I never have to again. This isn’t a rule to end a friendship though if it’s awkward not being mutuals I fully understand. 】
【 13. I am NOT ship exclusive or character exclusive. I will write with more than one version of the same character because everyone has different idea’s and perceptions about who said character is. Same goes for shipping - the relationship will be different every time. I will not be exclusive with anyone so for those that are - I’m sorry but I’m not comfortable with the feeling of excluding people and potential writing partners.
I also welcome people who write the same muse as me; so many are so lovely and since we clearly love the same character, I’m sure we have more in common and things to talk about~ 】
“People don’t understand the word ruthless. They think it means ‘mean.’ It’s not about being mean. It’s about seeing the bright, clear line that leads from A to B. The line that goes from motive to means. Beginning to end. It’s about seeing that bright, clear line and not caring about anything but the beautiful fact that you can see the solution. Not caring about anything else but the perfection of it.”
Seifer Almasy
Scripted by SAYJ
Side blog to @princenza
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So much has changed, from how I write him to his headcanons, but my love for him has not. xoxo
I am among the OG’s that have been around ofrever though I was very in and out of the fandom as I tend to be high activity and need constant stimulation. I’m beyond grateful to still know Kane, Jana, and Karen after all this time. You three are a blessing, and I’m grateful to have befriended HMR and Syn, and Bri and Anna as well.
You’ve shaped my time here and my experiences and I’m very grateful to all of you xoxo
“People don’t understand the word ruthless. They think it means ‘mean.’ It’s not about being mean. It’s about seeing the bright, clear line that leads from A to B. The line that goes from motive to means. Beginning to end. It’s about seeing that bright, clear line and not caring about anything but the beautiful fact that you can see the solution. Not caring about anything else but the perfection of it.”
Seifer Almasy
Scripted by SAYJ
Side blog to @princenza
Like if you’re interested in interacting, Reblog to support my brand
“I wish but I think having secret tattoos would mean having any tattoos to begin with. Wanted one for a while, honestly, but could never quite settle on a design I liked enough. Too indecisive, sure I’ve driven a few very patient artists around the bend with my questions.”
One day, maybe.
“Do they hurt as much as people say?”
( @fistsfromhell )
“Depends where you get it.” He answers with a shrug. “Got my face, my shoulder, parts of my chest, hips-” Below that but she didn’t need to hear those details. “I got a high pain tolerance anyway so most weren’t that bad. Mostly talked while gettin’ ‘em done. Been going to the same artist since I was fifteen.”
He understands it’s frustrating. Hell, it’s testing his patience, but if he loses his head, too many consequences could form from it. Wishing he can say ‘screw it, let’s kick their ass’, he waits with unrivalled patience for his companion to face him again.
Relief flutters across his face when Zell throws another question his way. Glad the blond feels safe enough to express concerns to him instead of going behind his back, Squall relaxes. Arms fold loosely over his abdomen and he cocks his head slightly. “A peaceful solution for both. Despite years of progress, the public still see us warmongers. Unless they attack physically or worse than petty insults, we can’t move.”
A short pause ensues before he adds, “Trust me, there are things I’d rather be doing than listening to their shit.”
Yeah, cause they’re lining up the door to be peaceful and talk shit out.
It wasn’t going to happen, no way. As long as Garden existed, assholes like that were going to exist. The idea of just letting them spit on Garden without retaliation didn’t sit well, even if he knew Squall was right that an impulsive move like snatching one of their stupid signs and tearing it in half was going to do more harm than good.
“Yeah? Like what?” What hobbies did Squall have? That was a question, realizing he didn’t know what he did outside of his Commander duties. “Beats stickin’ around here.”
“Is that so?” A relief her coffee is some measure of degrees less than scalding– she’d hate to have to waste it as an improvised weapon, if this conversation is anything to follow.
“She’s just as violent as I am, if it makes you feel any better.”
Ain’t the violent part I’m worried about.
It’s the apparent attacking your own wife or team that has Zell concerned. If Xu needs a vacation she needs a vacation, or just sit a the desk and work from there. Like hell he’s going to suggest it though least that cup be thrown at his head.
“Perhaps some, but I have other marks just not inflicted by her on purpose. I’ve been gashed, stabbed, ran through, and shot. My skin is like a road map that way.”
“BY HER!? THE FUCK-” Sounds like someone needs to take a time out of the field, fucking shit.
It takes her a second, caught up in her usual daydreams staring out of the window, before she finally snaps out of it and leans back, glancing over at Zell curiously. “I do? Like, now? Orrrrrr…d’you mean like when I keep trying to suggest a bazooka to solve problems? ‘Cause a big boom will really help most of the time, you know!”
“N’ suggestin’ to skin the Moomba n’ wear it outta the prison.” She claimed to be joking but he didn’t believe her, and to be frank, still doesn’t. People wanna say he’s the violent one with the hair trigger temper - and sure, the temper he’ll grant, but he has self control. Violent though? Selphie goes there more than he and he ain’t sold she’s joking. What went on in that head of hers? “That why you wanted to transfer n’ take the test? Blow the crap outta things?”
Squall sighs. He comprehends his comrade’s perspective but also understands the other point of view. Regarding Zell with vague apology lurking in his gaze, he gives a one-shouldered shrug.
“They have a right to protest. It has to be handled smoothly or the public might lose their trust in the Garden. That’ll be worse than a few loudmouths.”
“T'ch.” Zell spits, confident he’s out of ear-shot of the curse under his breath and free to express his rage without looking like he is questioning his commanding officer. That was a bad look, unacceptable, and Squall was too good a leader to disrespect like that.
“So what’s handling smoothly mean?” He asks, an honest question. Zell usually wasn’t one to get hung up on pride and ego, but if there was anything this boy had pride in almost more than anything, it was being SeeD. Disrespecting SeeD and Garden was disrespecting him.
Zell’s never handled disrespect well and still doesn’t, given how even with arms crossed his body is still giving small shakes and trembles.
“I have many other marks but coffee doesn’t burn me for very long. I heal rather quickly.”
Her wife’s wrath was easy to dance around and mostly survive compared to other trials she had face.
“Wrong marks.” Less being burnt was on their kink list. To be frank Xu intimidates him and he doesn’t want to think about what she’s like in private affairs.
