Ana-Reminders
You’re doing this because every inch of food you will miss out on during the process will be worth it.
To prove every single person wrong who doubted you.
To have a chance at loving yourself eventually.
To feel the warm summer wind against the hollow of your cheekbones.
That pain in your stomach means it’s working.
To feel confident in the things you wear.
Log your food. Weigh in once in the morning, once midday, once in the evening.
Brush your teeth if you make yourself throw up.
Try for under 450-600kcal daily.
Go for walks, do sit ups, simple things people won’t become suspicious about.
So you can get top surgery without looking like a beached whale.
Drink Hot Tea, Black Coffee.
If you’re going to binge, binge healthy foods, but overall try not to.
Fast at LEAST 3 days out of the week. They don’t have to be consecutive.
Imagine the pictures, the opportunities, the health risks, the hair falling out.
The yellowing nails, the shortness of breath, the eye bags and rotting teeth.
The sinking feeling in your chest when you hit your Ultimate Goal Weight and realizing that no matter how many goals you hit, it will never be enough to stave the self hatred inside of you.
The fainting spells, the hospital trips, the worried sick loved ones around you—Not because you’re burdening THEM, because you’re burdening YOURSELF, and they have to watch you suffer.
Never being able to go 30 minutes without ITCHING to know what’s on the scale, and if you’ve lost any water weight within the hour you last weighed yourself.
Obsessing over every single calorie—Because 500 seems fine in the start but as the habit grows, 20 calories in a snack seems like FAR too much.
I’ve seen too many 13 year olds on this app under the impression that starving yourself will make you dainty and beautiful. Romanticizing anorexia and bulimia like it’s a personality trait and not a deadly disorder that kills somebody every 62 minutes. Like it’s not a mental disorder that has the highest mortality rate of all mental illnesses.
Stop while you’re young. Stop while you’re ahead. Stop while these habits haven’t taken over your life, and stop for the sake of saving yourself from years upon years of anguish and failing recovery.
No matter how many goal weights you hit, it will NEVER be enough. You cannot feed the fuels of self hatred by starving and expect to feel satisfied with yourself when you hit your marks.
Stop. Romanticizing. A Lethal.
Mental Illness.
Thanks for coming to my Ted Talk.
