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Because you are stardusts, and all the beautiful things you breath. You are daring and you are loved x I'm here to listen to you 24/7 :-))Relapsed: 15/11/15

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Do you remember the last time you were held in your loved ones arms? When their skin touches yours and you can feel this warm electric feeling rush down your spines? The feeling of home.. The feeling of comfort? The last time I was held like that was 16 years ago.. Afterwards, I find myself crying on the floor every single night; contemplating about my life, and how far I’ve went through. But today, I realize that the feeling of rush through your spine can be felt by a hundred million other reasons.. Like the sunrise, the sounds of the birds chirping, the breeze… Or when you look into the eyes of someone you love.

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For everyone out there, you have a voice in becoming what you want to be x It just takes a big dream and lots of courage x

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I've decided to get a larger tattoo and it ended up being so pretty and I love it so much. For anyone whose been wanting to get a tattoo! Get it! But remember that tattoos should have a representation of smth to you; personally or not it really doesn't matter. Out of all the other 7 tattoos I've got, this is the only one that I've been attracted to without any meaning. But flowers has always had a personal connection to me. It means that I would nourish myself into something beautiful like flowers. To grow, to love and to appreciate myself. And I've came across to doing so! Do anything with your body! It's your body, noone has any opinion or advice to go against your own wants and will towards your body. Get tattoos if you want Dress anyway and anyhow you want to Have sex if you want to Put as much as makeup as you want to Pierce whatever you want Shave whichever part you want Lose weight if you want Gain weight if you want Dye your hair if you want Stop let other people tell you what to do because it's your body and you're a girl I love you all so much my loves! xxx

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here it goes to our generation

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Who am I before I was hurt and touched by neglected souls 😞

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i'll eat flowers because i want to be beautiful

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Nowadays, I've been finding the perfect days to cry

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Why have I been feeling so insecure of myself...

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i've been losing my mind lately, its not healthy

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If I wouldn't waste so much of time worrying, I'd at least be 'okay'

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As you all can see, I have cuts hidden under my bracelets, this was about 2 weeks ago. Everything was so overwhelming and exhausting. I could say that I lost myself in time. I was sleep deprived causing me to be so angry the whole time. But what I want to address is that, things may be hard, feelings may rush and hit us. But remember that feelings are temporary x They go away within a flush. I can't promise you that everything will be alright cause then I'd be lying to myself this whole time... But time will piece you back together, I promise you all lovelies. I love you all and goodnight x

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I wouldn't practically say I've fallen in love. But yes, I have found someone who has made my skies a bit brighter. I could see lights from tinu gaps here and there. I wouldn't say he's the one, but he has proven that he's worth the time and love. He made things easier, and makes me cracked up to laughters. I wouldn't say he's the one, but he envelopes me with warmth, and i don't think anyone can fake that prescence of 'warmth'.

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Announcement!

Hello Beautiful! I'm guessing that I'll be posting back to my old self as that is the main reason why I made tumblr in the first place! Feel free to DM or have a long warm friendly talk with me at anytime! c:

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There was once a boy who told me about the idea of a 'Parallel Universe'; that maybe in some time later on, I'll be doing the exact same thing with the same exact person. What made me think was that... Will I be able to change the current situation? As if, maybe if I dressed a bit nicer, or actually made effort, I could win the boys heart? Since the day he left, I couldn't get my mind around it.. I kept on wondering about this 'Parallel Universe' idea and how I could've gotten the chance to change what we could've been. We were both broken people who needed fixing, the fact that we were destined to meet shook my heart. Words and a tragically beautiful mindset of his made flowers grow in heart and mind. He stitched up the holes in my soul and made me feel alive with every single thing he words. It was beautiful yet hopeless.. He needed somebody to offer him the world, and yet he was too scared to accept. I wonder if he believed in this 'Parallel Universe' Idea because he longed for that girl back.. If maybe he got the chance to see himself with that one girl who broke his heart and changed everything.. He would've walked away because he knew he just needed someone to lean on..

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True Story:

“I fell in love to the idea of a boy? Does that make sense? Yes. I fell in love with a boy for his beautiful, daring mind. I fell in love with a boy for his intelligence and passions. I fell in love with a boy because he was hurting and there was noone to change his mind for that. Let’s say that this boy was called ‘X’. X is that type of boy who would find pleasure in pleasuring other people. X will do anything in his power to get whatever he wants despite his enormous ego and self confidence. X is a rare type of boy because have I never seen myself in anyone for so long, until he came along. X came along and he patched me with his wondrous mind and gentle soft touches. How he would pull me against the wall and daringly ask me how much I would want him right now. X has so much soul and fire burning in him that he outwards it to negativity instead of positivity. And the story behind this was that… Once upon a time, X, like every other human being in this world got his heartbroken as he was taken for granted. X was once naive and lost. But now… He became everything he promised himself not to be, and now he is still out there luring for a ‘being’ to make him feel whole of himself. And leave her to feel half.” 

Hey lovelies! This is my short personal story, or as you may say experience that I just went through.. Still getting over it.. You might be wondering who this’ X’ is and how he left to made me feel.. What I can tell you is that, I’ve only known him for a short period of time--- short time being a weak.. and surprisingly he was able to take my heart away with him. It was not because of his charming appearance, but for his soul and mind that blew me away. If you need any advice on how I am coping with this, or any other personal questions that you love would want to ask me, feel free to inbox me! 

I love you all love! This goes out for anyone and everyone who has gotten their heart taken away and being left for their selfish desires! x

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I have a crush on a guy I've known for most of my life. We're almost 17 and I've liked him for almost a year now. I know he likes me too because he has told me but when I asked if he wanted a relationship, he said he wasn't looking for one right now. He's going to the States for university and thats probably the reason why. But he keeps stringing me along as if i'm going to be there for him until graduation. I don't want to wait. I don't want to waste time. Any advice?

Baby honestly, I know how you feel about this. Its as if you have found your significant other despite how long you have known each other for. But sweetie, if he keeps on stringing you on and don’t want to be committed into a relationship, then just let it be.. Sometimes love isn’t for everyone just yet, the time will come and it will for you too. My advice for you is to step back a bit and have some time for yourself and with what you want for yourself. Your life doesn’t revolve around his, because all I can tell you is that he probably loves you and cares for you as well, but he’s just too scared to admit it because he’s moving away baby. But like what I said, relationships will always work out despite where you are.. its just about if he is ready to be committed into something he isn’t ready for right now baby. I love you x 

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New Fresh Start

Hello lovelies!

I know that I haven’t been regularly active on tumblr.. But lately, I had put a lot of thought into this and I have decided to change my whole theme to my tumblr! Instead of posting the dark side of me which I have decided to put that all in my past, and close that chapter..  Despite everything that I’ve went through last year, all the anxious and gloomy days, I would like to put that behind me and start to focus on the beautiful side of life! I know that it seems easier to be said then to be done... But I know that I’ll be able to get through whatever I’m going through, as you guys will too! I would gladly love to share with you another side of me that not a lot of people know.. I would talk and share with you guys a taste to my mind! 

Everything is going to be whole lot more personal on my tumblr as I would be quoting in the things I write or other people’s pieces with more of the pictures I take, as I would mostly be the role model to this artwork. I have decided to this because I wanted to get over with feeling insecure about my body.. That I shouldn’t feel ashame of feeling save under my own skin.. The last time I relapsed was a month ago because I felt insecure of the size of my body and how I look! And I thought that by doing this, I can eventually overcome my insecurities with you all by my side supporting me! x 

I can’t wait to start this all over with you guys! I love you all beautifuls x Feel free to Inbox me for any questions, ANYTHING x