scorpion's nest

I'm mentally ill about block game characters from many different smps. I am an adult somehow pfp and bg by me main is thatqueer-dm

[flaming-scorpiyawn]

Uhhhh just finally got around to officially changing my username to be more recognizable with me in other places. You can find me on other sites as Scorpiyawn usually, so I figured it was time to change from the Crow motif to my usual Scorpion one lol

My main remains as @scorpiyawnn tho, with this as where I mainly do MCYT stuff, such as art and writing and such! My main SMPs are Bliss, Money, Lifesteal, UU, HC, Wisp, Showtime, Mace, and Abyss :DDD

#scorp yaps is where I talk shit and #scorp art is. for me art!

I will also sometimes post IC or stuff about my character for Hyperspace, feel free to send lore/character asks!

[quakitus]

Do you blame people for not supporting your freedom if that freedom means hurting other people? Isn’t this why Coin left? Why Silva may also leave when he comes back? It wouldn’t be the first time he’s left you after all, like you said… But at the same time, don’t you deserve your freedom after everything you’ve been through? Isn’t it time to start taking care of yourself because as we all saw, nobody else is going to do that for you. Isn’t it your turn to be free and do the things you want to do for a change?

That being said, I fear you have a lonely road ahead of you unless you feel like there’s someone who’d be willing to support you for who you are and stay with you. Do you think you’ll be able to find someone like that? They don’t have to be a hero or a villain, they just have to be free.

i miss wyll.

[torchdaisies]

bliss spoilers for quakitus's character again

hi this is the post about the quakituses

for brevity I will be referring to the two quakituses. quakiti. with the nicknames me and my friends have been using for them: tulip (the one seen in the error messages) and wildfire (the one we currently see directly interacting with the server). the nickname tulip chosen because Ok well that's just canonically the symbol associated with her. the nickname wildfire chosen because of 1. the heavy associations with fire (burning symbols of attachment, burning bridges, even,) and being hostile towards tulip (wildfires being fires that destroy plantlife) 2. being referred to as a 'wildcard' semi-frequently, and 3. computer firewall pun. Also It's Cool

my take on quakitus's two different selves is that they're sort of like. split self-states that individually each use quakitus's two different major coping mechanisms—those being self-destructive people pleasing (tulip) and self-rationalization of her trauma (and subsequent actions) through the lens of control (wildfire).

it's inaccurate to say either of them are "actually" quakitus, real/fake debate isn't worth the time etc etc. they're both quakitus and are treated as such, it's just that the trauma that q goes through quite literally breaks her mind into two. the logic I generally try to treat them with is that tulip and wildfire have different mindsets and trains of thought and thus can argue with eachother, but both of them as quakitus have the same actions and consequences. their senses of self are a little more complicated. wildfire describes their shared past like she "wasn't herself" and Likely Tulip? during the 2nd firefly stream referring to Probably Wildfire as someone "trying to get rid of her", but I think both of them do think of themselves as "quakitus". they just have differing ideas of who "quakitus" is.

tulip and wildfire are quakitus's extreme binary black/white thinking taken to the super-duper extreme. so it's a little funny that both of them are the same person—"both at once" sort of breaking the binary in of itself. but that is also contextualized with the fact that. I think both of them hate that the other exists. we saw wildfire's own crashout and attempts (and failure) to erase tulip ourselves, but I also think there's something there in tulip pushing traditional attachments onto wildfire ("you still care about him") and thus trying to bring wildfire closer to how she thinks. and I am like 70% convinced tulip was the version of quakitus active during torchblossom if she's the caring people pleaser part, so that reminds me a lot of how quakitus used to treat stormz's black-wings state. as a monster to be tamed instead of someone to meet on their own terms. despite tulip seeming to be "nicer" and more "morally correct" than wildfire when she showed up during 'the plunge' I think having her in charge (again? question mark?) is just making quakitus regress back to her torchblossom character which is just fucked up in another direction. Both extremes are bad and if quakitus wants to actually grow as a person both sides need to work together..... I however want them to argue forever because it's more entertaining for me personally #GETWORSE

and, full disclosure this is a theory with like no evidence other than a viberead because we just got introduced to this concept. but I also think that wildfire's insistence on rejecting anything and everything that tulip stands for might also extend to her calling everything since gilded Fake and All Apart Of Her Evil Plans. as in, all of q's actions during eras like TB were infact genuine on tulip's end at the time, but since then wildfire has, for lack of a better term, 'taken over' and is now trying to justify those actions with her own mindset. tbh Ive been trying to think on how things like quakitus mentally spiraling while alone (and thus having noone to perform the so-called "act" to) fits into the "I was faking it all along" narrative for a while because. frankly I think lying to your audience like that if chat isn't explicitly canon to the character isn't very fun for analysis LOL. I think it being wildfire lowkey #coping makes sense though

[wnllow]

Dont forget,

[torchdaisies]

made a sans design for my future evil purposes

[torchdaisies]

doodles from today cuz Im a chud

[birdonaplatter]

hi.

[torchdaisies]

whalefall (you became something after all)

[teddb3ar]

mugms mug.... the question mark man..

[flaming-scorpiyawn]

my duo.... phosphorescence i miss you everyday

Astral and Muse, the characters played by Sin and myself respectively, from Paracord SMP! A warden gladiator and a sea dragon painter :))) they were so normal and totally not at all toxic and never did anything wrong ever <3 except for leave and never come back LOL

[flaming-scorpiyawn]

i still really like this dumb piece i did a little bit ago, i did some different things than i normally would lol

i'm always on my bullshit with horned characters, piercings, and making everyone as pretty as possible LMAO

[flaming-scorpiyawn]

Stenwrld fanart! Q's whole recent reveals and arc has been making me so happy and also tbh I think it's fun when someone allows themself to be manipulated in character lol, it lets more interesting plot and drama happen :3 Also I'm always a sucker for a design with horns LOL

[flaming-scorpiyawn]

So I got... really into deltarune chapter 5 weird route and it made me have lots of THOUGHTS about bliss!quakitus and especially zipbomb duo :)))) I've been loving their dynamic anyways and now this is making me particularly insane LOL

i might make a post later talking about art choices and stuff cause I've got brainworms :PPP

[torchdaisies]

bliss spoilers for quakitus’s character ok ok ok ok

granted this reading might be a side effect of me being mtfl-brained LOL but I think that silva’s general unreliability in server activity (and their current hibernation) is causing quakitus to be like. more unhinged than she would be. obviously she’d be fucked up anyway but silva’s absence is exacerbating things ykwim. it’s not like this is the first time something like this has happened to quakitus either [glances sideways at friendship]. even if iris is still together and silva hasnt fully Betrayed, theyve still failed to Be There for quakitus Consistently—which is lowk kinda the worst thing to do to someone with Extreme Trust Issues lmao. and I think that The Absence Of Silvasaur bleeds into quakitus’s other dynamics on the server too. tldr silvasaur is lowkey haunting quakitus rn

(shaking my head while writing this part of the post so people know I also don’t like that this is my first post talking about some of these dynamics and I’m making it about meteorflower again. I really like quakitus’s other dynamics on their own too I just think this is an interesting topic that I actually have things of substance to say about)

specifically I think quakitus is subconsciously trying to mold other people into the spot that silva takes in her life. which is basically Her Controlled. just without the part of meteorflower that makes her upset. the part she cannot control: her own attachment to silva.

and imo this is most obvious in her dynamic with sans and lezy (you can argue similar for people like coin and rylan but my thoughts on them aren’t complete yet)

sans is like. the closest thing quakitus is going to get to Silvasaur 2 this season honestly (that sounds mean and reductive but sans’s parallels with silva are insane enough thats the only way I can think to describe him succinctly. Sorry Sans!). sans to quakitus is just a version of silvasaur with the thing she hates the most about silva removed from the equation—which is their history together and her Uncontrolled attachment to silva because of said history. and it’s fun! she has fun with him! but that’s all their dynamic really is and sans doesn’t really fulfill quakitus’s inner desire for stability. quakitus wants stability while also never wanting to make herself vulnerable by relying on someone. she can only be this honest with sans because he can’t meaningfully hurt her. this kind of fun is meant to be fleeting. meant to be temporary. meant to be discarded

lezy is, frankly, q’s personal ideal person to be by her side (to be Her Controlled) for the simple reason that she just immensely respects him. but the reasons why she respects him in the first place—his self-assurance and confidence in his goals—are exactly why lezy ultimately Doesn’t fall for q’s manipulation. quakitus doesnt just need an IOU to keep lezy under her control, she needs Multiple of them. and IOUs are only temporary solutions in comparison to what quakitus Really wants to do, which is to strip someone so barren of anything else that they will have no choice but to be by her side… you know, the position silva is currently in, because they lack the conviction and stability that lezy has. the thing that quakitus likes about lezy. Yeah um remember that torchblossom diss that q tossed out in the middle of talking to lezy . I think quakitus cares for silva but doesn’t respect them (or, well, atleast This quakitus doesn’t seem to) and I think she kinda hates that. it’s why silva is always one of the main people brought up when quakitus talks about removing attachments. I think quakitus wants to functionally have lezy (someone she likes but can theoretically control and care about from a safe distance) take silva’s place (someone she doesn’t particularly respect, someone who has already hurt her before and Can hurt her again if she doesn’t discard them before it’s too late) but because their characters are so Fundamentally different it doesn’t work out in the way she wants it to

[zeroistic]

the dark particle and the (not) lean, green, mean machine

[quakitus]

The concept of you saying this was you all along, you’re the real one, but I’m sure if you asked her she’d also say the same thing? Are either of you real or is the actual real one somewhere in there hiding… maybe even fading or hurting in some way because of the internal conflict. Maybe the real one isn’t a bad person or a completely selfless one. Maybe the real one is just… Quakitus. How long has it been since she was free? Maybe the actual real one is… Balanced but nowhere to be found for now.

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Also I really appreciate how your lore is not always set in stone and you leave room for us to make our own theories. <3

i've always been the real one in full honesty and at no point was there ever a "true" me, i mean the only real thing ive ever noticed in my files that i dont remember being there was this ig but the image speaks for itself LOL

[wnllow]

My head is full of poison, and my heart is full of doubt