silvio @flowersbark - Tumblr Blog

im so rotten and evil im so so so evil im genuinely a horroble person im evil im evil im so rotten and horrible

ifeel so rotten and horrible like i need to die i feel awful i feel evil i hate myself so mycg i need to die i hatr myself i font deserve to jave friends i dont deserve ro have people OUGFHYHUTKYJTJRJRUEFEGIOLYG im so evil im evil im evil im such a bad person

#vent blog #vent #self loathing #self destructive thoughts #idk

i want people to worry about me i feel so selfish about it but seeing everyone genuinely care so much for my friend made me realize i want peoplple to talk anout how worried they wre that ill kill myself and that they love me and that they still want me here but i feel so disconnected from everyome that i cant even let them in enough to worry and i don't even think they woild care because im noy fun im not the type of friend they would even jave im literally just thete becausw of my best friend i dont even think they want me there and i feel like they hate me so much im not fun im a loser

#vent blog #vent #self loathing #self destructive thoughts #?#idk

i feel lile the reason i hate everyone around me is because i hate myself so much that i cant stand it so it just spreads into me hating everyone and my life i jusy want to be normal i dont jave anu rrason to hate my friends i love them and i want to i just hate myself so much and i wany to stop but i cant find myself a way to stop because i legitimately see myself as inherently less than others and inferior and idiotic so i hate them for being above me but i just hate myself so much i hate hate hate everything i hate hating myself because i have no reason to i know what my mind tells me is illogical but i still believe it because i can't imagine that im actually a good person with redeemable qualities because im Not

#vent blog #vent #self loathing

i hate myself im legitimately such an idiot i couldve done so much more but im not im so aimless and clueless i feel like i have no friends im such a burden on them im not fun im legitimately just a loser and i dont have any real skills in anything I need to die i dont have anything wrong with me but i hate myself so much i wish i wasnt gay i wish i wasnt trans i wish i was normal i wanna be normal so so so bad i want to skip to the part in my life where im happy

#vent blog #vent #self loathing #guess whose back #its always during summer

are u and ur ex going to get back together? did that one person u talked about have anything to do with ir

i keep forgetting about this account SORRY GUYS

i really dont think so. i dont have any romantic feelings towards my ex at all. i see him as just a really good friend. my other ex had nothing to do with it. i have a crush on this dude irl but ive never even talked to him and im sorta just a loser about it

#asks

life update

my mom was cheating on my dad for 3 years and was planning to run away to another state with the man she was cheating with and leave me with my dad

my mom admitted to never wanting me/wishing i was never born cause i trapped her in a boring life during a nasty argument with my dad where she was projecting her guilt about cheating onto him and accused him of cheating to deflect

my dad relapsed back into his gambling addiction

all my irls suck i feel like an outcast with my friends

i wanna die

i broke up with my boyfriend because he was super dry we're still friends and hes my best friend

i dont talk to my old fp as much as i used to because he has a chronic illness and had to switch to virtual school

my rapist enlisted in the military and is gonna go to bootcamp later this month

i hate everything

#vent blog #vent #vent post #life update #for anyone who cares

did u and u r bf break up ?

Yes

we are still friends but we are no longer together

not talking at all during christmas is what really got to me