˚₊‧꒰ა noah ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

𖧁𓏲 this is noah's little corner of the digital world.

[flwff]

꒰ఎ noah ' s   introduction !

𖧁𓏲  my  name  is  noah , as  you  can  read  on  my  blog .

𖧁𓏲  i  am  nearly  fifteen  and  a  year  ten  in  secondary  school .

𖧁𓏲  at  times , i  may  speak  in  third  or  second  person ― as  if  i  am  narrating  a story ― or  refer  to  myself  as  " we . " i  have  no  idea  why  i do  this  or  why  it  happens .

𖧁𓏲 send  me  lots  of  asks , pleeeaseee ! i  love  them , for  i  find  the  attention  enjoyable (⌯❛౪❛ก )꜆꜄꜆꜄꜆

ᛝ   this  is  my  blog . i  may  write  about  heavy topics , so  major  trigger  warnings  for  those  things  in  advance . i  advise  you  interact  with  caution , just  in  case !

ᛝ   DO  NOT  INTERACT  IF  homophobic , racist , ableist , sexist , transphobic , a  creep , or  a  mdni  blog .

pro/darkshippers  can  interact , but  i ' d  rather  you  don ' t  follow . . .

꒰ఎ get to know noah !

◠◠　⊹  hobbies : drawing , writing , singing , playing video games , composing music , coding ( kind of . . . ) , dancing , reading  novels  & / or fanfiction , researching  topics  that  intrigue  me . . . ♬

◠◠　⊹  likes : anything cute , literature , fiction , fairytales , ballet , ouji  fashion , pastel  goth , bunnies , cats , penguins , tea , plain coffee , tiramisu , red  velvet  flavour , and  ANY  hue  of  purple  because  all  purples  are  a  beautiful  purple .

◠◠　⊹  main  interests ( presently ) : honkai : star  rail , genshin  impact , reverse : 1999 , ensemble  stars , and  bungou  stray  dogs .

◠◠　⊹  other  interests  ( not focal ) : forsaken , vocaloid , osc , hikaru  ga  shinda  natsu , jibaku  shounen  hanako - kun , project  sekai , zenless  zone  zero , and  cookie  run : kingdom ( kind  of . might  leave  due  to  their  history  with  artificial  intelligence ) .

◠◠　⊹  things  i'd  like  to  get  into ( presently ) : limbus  company  , disney  twisted  wonderland , arknights  ( not endfield ) , fragaria  memories , and boys be maid .

◠◠　⊹  languages  i ' m  proficient  in : english . . .

◠◠　⊹  languages  i ' m  somewhat  decent  at : french  and  igbo ( kind  of  not  really ) .

◠◠　⊹  languages i ' d  like  to  learn / improve on : french , igbo , german , and japanese .

[flwff]

entry #001

my  life  is  uneventful  right  now . nothing  to  note .

i  found  this really  good  sentimarsha  fic  two days  ago  and  it  is  sooo  good .  it  is  consuming my brain .

i  had  a  very  bad  headache  due  to  a  lack  of  sleep ? or  perhaps  it  was  in  part  due  to  the  large  influx  of  thoughts  i  had  last  midnight . 

it  was  very , very odd . so  peculiar . i  was  having  usual  negative  thoughts , but  a  boatload  of them . it  was  so  overwhelming , i  could  hardly  breathe . to  make  things  stranger ,  the wave  of  thoughts  came  not  in a  language  i  am  fluent  in , but  in  french  , which  i  am  still  learning .

it  was  full   on , perfect  french . i  cannot  really  explain  it . . . i  do  not  really  remember  the  thoughts  too  well  ( because  they  were  in  french )  but  i  do  recall repeating  " s'il  plait  vous "  ( please )  many  many  times , over  and  over  again.

i  don ' t  know  what  came  over  me .

i  should  probably  be  going  to  sleep  now , actually  i  should  have  slept  earlier  but  i  got  very  distracted  watching special  books  by  special  kids  interviews .  it  is 2300  right now , so  i  will  slumber  now . bonne  nuit . ah , and my feet hurt from constant feet & ankle exercises . i think i should do them less frequently , lest i risk hurting myself . . .

[zbrahmassacre]

being suicidal at 11 was genuinely crazy i shouldve been aborted

[flwff]

i saw.. osc.. and tbhk.. and uhhh pjsk and vocaloid.. in your intro 👀👀

yes . . . those are all indeed things that i like !!! unfortunately , they ' re all more like interests that are in the back of my mind rather than ones i ' m super into , but thats not to say i ' m not still interested in them , otherwise i wouldn ' t add them there i thibk my all time favorite object show is probably hfjone , no other object show ive seen can match the absolute cinema that was one . . . it literally made me cry on my first watch and i RARELY cry to pieces of media

i must admit it has been quite long since i last played pjsk , for i lost all my old acc data when trying to transfer devices last year , but i still love the game ^-^ my fav has been kanade since i started

my favorite vocaloids are ia , oliver , and vflower . also kazehiki even though he isn 't a vocaloid lmao

i mostly phase in and out of my interests , its kinda like a triangle with multiple tiers . so i will have a main two that i am ALWAYS very fixated and active in . . . then ones im almost always fixated on but less active in , and then finally ones i ' m interested in but not very active in

i think provided a whole lot of useless info but whatever ! end of yap .

[flwff]

i came to the realization today that , maybe the reason i feel so exhausted everyday , especially after interacting with many humans , is because i am autistic and frequently masking even when not necessary . . . but i don ' t wanna unpack allat . not without a proper diagnosis .

[flwff]

but i am also scared that , hypothetically , even if i gor a diagnosis , i would be misdiagnosed .

[flwff]

i came to the realization today that , maybe the reason i feel so exhausted everyday , especially after interacting with many humans , is because i am autistic and frequently masking even when not necessary . . . but i don ' t wanna unpack allat . not without a proper diagnosis .

[flwff]

hi moot lowk i wanna ask you a bunch of stuff and be bffs /silly

greetings and YES OFCC !!! ask away (*≧∀≦) i ' d love to be bffs

[lambswinery]

being vulnerable with someone is so scary. what if they think im unworthy of their time.

[jakegyllenhaalsteeth]

hi mutual who’s cooler than me hi hi please don’t shoot me with a gun

[flwff]

the amount of suicide notes i have written then discarded is very embarrassing .

[flwff]

tomorrow im finally reducing my limit and im going to start tracking again . . . thank god . luckily , on these three days i spent eating regularly (around 1500-2200) i think i have finally completely fixed the terrible cycle ive found myself in , time and time again . i hope that i can finally attain what i have desired for my entire life . i thought i would have it before year ten , but its okay , i suppose . . . i have hope , determination , and a goal i know i can reach . that much is enough .

[undiagnosed-kagamine]

lowkkk i’d love if there was a tinder but for getting friends.. it might be a bad idea but still.. 🤔🤔🤔🤔

[flwff]

i was about to be happy about my first follower, but then i realized it was tumblr staff .