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When you compare your minority status to mine, you co-opt and demean us both.

When you compare your illness to mine, you downplay my pain in favor of your own, when both are equally valid.

When you claim your disability is the same as mine, I don’t really know what to say to you, because you are a fool.

#minority #co-opting #meah #poem #poetry #stupid #adhd is not the same as Autism #autism #actually autistic #autistic #disability #adhd #i hate people #pain #chronic pain #chronic illness #spoonies #this shit only happens to me #backstory what backstory

I’m baaaaaaaaaaaaaacccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkk ;)

Seriously, though, I’m back around to being a functional adult in the real world now so I should be cranking out some new stuff starting this week. Glad to see everyone is still enjoying that one poem and not noticing anything else I’ve written since. Good times

#back #summer #meah #home again #miss my wife #back to the grind

So this is the first time I’m posting non-poetry. For the next month or so I’ve got some big things going on in my life so poems will be more sporadic (read: not daily) and probably not at your regularly scheduled 12:30 CDT. I apologize if anyone was deeply anticipating that, but some things can’t be helped and I’m really enjoying my summer vacation as it looks. I’m not abandoning you, though, and starting back in the second week of July I’ll be back to the norm. <3

that moment when:

you hit your deductible again you’re sick of paying ten dollars a day wish apples did keep doctors away spitting slime surrounded by squalor can’t even move to turn off the tv not sure if you want to but then the nurse calls and asks for ten more dollars to give you results in person

#chronic illness #at least i have insurance #i hit my out of pocket max today #eds #ehlers danlos syndrome #chronic pain #meah #poem #poetry

late always late late can’t focus enough to be on time for anything even my own life late to wake up late to lay down late to examine the ways I drown even if I run I’ll always fall down I’m always late dragging into the ground

#late #sorry #poem #poor executive function #executive function disorder #autism #autistic #mental illness #meah #poetry

I hate this hate life hate circling round in my mind Drowning in pity in whispers in voices Telling me I can achieve can’t see can’t hear Nobody near seems to know who I am what I do Where do we go when we’re nothing and no one Invisible except when we’re called to the surface And dangled before them like puppets Masters dragging strings from our limbs

#poem #poetry #mental health #mental illness #meah

See

( c ) ( c ) ( c ) ( c ) c c c

#tornado #see #form poem #form poetry #shape #shape poetry #shape poem #poem #poetry #meah #art #c

I’m so easy to see I’m invisible Flip a coin and find I’m at both sides Broken and queer “An odd duck” You squint to see past me Because my only purpose Is to be there when you want me

#token #gay #queer #broken #disabled #disability #say the word #chronic illness #mental illness #mental health #meah #poem #poetry

the clock ticks away as life slowly slides from our grip thumbtacks in my shoes for all the good it will do to bring me back to where I was from running (albeit wrong) for every ball to slipping, tumbling down each step limping with a cane but it’s worth it they say to keep from getting hooked

#pain #chronic pain #eds #ehlers-danlos #ehlers-danlos syndrome #chronic illness #meah #poem #poetry

thunder rumbling thinking down slinking down dripping slipping reaching for the glue to hold myself together when my body feels like rain and it just can’t hold together tearing great amounts of pain wearing out the circuits the connections in my brain still i itch and squirm unwelcome in my skin tearing off the pieces till i find where to begin

#chronic illness #chronic pain #pain #eds #ehlers-danlos syndrome #ehlers-danlos #meah #poem #poetry

They tell me I don’t read people well That I don’t know people at first glance That it gets me into trouble I trust too easily they say

What I see Is that once I know you I know you Better than you know yourself Better than I know myself

I know us so deeply It’s like looking down the Mariana Trench And tumbling down forever

#poem #poetry #meah #autism #nothing about us without us #autistic #relationships #actually autistic #social disability #disability #mental illness

as we lie together skin stuck to sweaty skin i think again that we are merged drawn together as one in the dark you smell of I smell of you and i wonder how we could ever be apart again

#love #sex #merged #one #together #partner #meah #poem #poetry

the rain pours down thundering the hours away dripping the seconds into minutes as the days flood away

you watch people and their playthings caught up in tides made from the heavens falling water dropping as you wonder where noah is

#flood #rain #rainstorm #southeast texas #weather #bad weather #fear #metaphor #time #meah #poem #poetry

it’s rather hard to focus when your brain is like a

ping

pong

ball

bouncing

back

and forth

driven by pain and fear and pain

#mental illness #adhd #fear #depression #meah #poem #poetry #pain #attention

guilt

a dark vomitous shape deep in the pit of my stomach whispering failures and threatening secrets revelations none should hear knowing i’m horrible knowing the things the things that i’ve done

#depression #mental illness #anxiety #meah #poem #poetry #guilt

You’d think we were lovers For all the time we spend in bed together Mingling in sweat and pain and awkward angles

But you’re just a collection of letters Making me gangly, stretchy, contortionist Alphabet soup for a new generation A generation we make together

You would think we were lovers For the amount of time I spend thinking of you But no lover inflicts aches like this

#eds #ehlers danlos problems #zebra problems #zebra #ehlers danlos syndrome #meah #meahlea #chronic illness #pain #chronic pain

I feel like I talk about myself too much when I’m with you I want to know you Deeper than words will ever take us But when I see you They come spilling out of me Filling the silence I had so sought to protect

#new friends #poem #old friends #are we friends #social skills #poetry #meah #autism #autistic #actually autistic

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