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“I like to show women who exist in solitude but do not suffer. They are not depressed or crying. Rather [they] are safe, exalting in the sense of enjoying the company of just herself.”

Postmodern Loneliness is a series by Mexico-based artist Idalia Candelas.

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I started my period yesterday.

Last night, I was lying on my side in my bed in pain from cramps. However, in that moment, I wasn’t that miserable. Those cramps were just a reminder that I’m a woman, and I was so proud to be a woman, because I was sure that as of today, the first woman president would’ve been elected. Little did I know, that wouldn’t be the case.

I fell asleep (sick to my stomach) last night pretty positive that Donald Trump would win. By the time I woke up, I found out it was a landslide. That terrifies me. I now fear for my safety in this country and here’s why:

It’s not his “wall building” and his running mates’ “electro shock therapy” that scares me. It’s pretty obvious that they will never be able to get that passed (even though, honestly, I wouldn’t doubt anything anymore). It’s his supporters. The numbers show that there are WAY more than I thought out there, and that’s scary. There are a lot of people who justify their right to grab me by the pussy. There are a lot of people who truly do not believe in LGBTQ rights. There are a lot of people who are really racist. By Donald Trump winning the election, they are justified in those beliefs. Rather than getting punished, Trump was given the power to run our country. What does that say to young boys? You don’t have to have respect for women, even the president doesn’t. What does that say to little girls? You are nothing more than the size of your tits, according to the man that runs our country. That’s what scares me. Not empty threats- the hatred coming from Trump’s supporters.

I now know that I really can’t walk around in a short skirt without getting cat called. I now know that if I’m wearing a low cut shirt and get assaulted, everyone will say it was my fault. I am not equal to a man. Gays are an abomination. Black lives don’t matter. That’s how America feels, and that was confirmed last night. No matter what happens in the next four years, last night in itself set our country back. I’ve never been so disappointed to call myself an American.

My parents said to me, “you will feel a sudden sense of pride and respect towards our country and our president no matter who wins.” I am yet to feel a single ounce of respect towards Donald Trump, in fact, what I feel always has been, and will continue to be, pure disgust. I will never be able to find respect for him or any of his supporters. As someone who isn’t racist, homophobic, misogynistic, or full of hate, I will forever stand my my vote. Fuck Donald Trump.

#always with her