♡ Entracing ♡

dreaming of bright lights & cityscapes. thank you for reading.

[lettersofanangel]

I’ve been sad

So so sad

And I can’t

Say anything

Beyond that

I laid in the bath

And then the floor of the kitchen

And then the chair you used to fall asleep in

I never knew I was so weak

I never knew you were so cruel

I’ve never known sadness like this

I’m never going to feel sadness beyond this

Have you ever hurt like the crevice between your ribs are going to swallow you whole

Have you ever cried so hard the neighbours called the cops

I guess I’ll be go be quiet now

[lettersofanangel]

I’m exhausted

absolutely fucking exhausted

I can feel another wave coming

and I can’t cry because I’m exhausted

so I’ll turn around in my bed to the side where you must have let her sleep

and just feel exhausted

until I feel nothing at all

[lettersofanangel]

No. No. No.

I am not a winter flower on your pedestal,

I may be broken and numb and stranded in the dark,

But I am not yours to save.

[lettersofanangel]

I can’t breathe

knowing I have broken myself

for you

[lettersofanangel]

Be gentle,

I haven’t been whole since July.

Be soft,

Every time I’m touched I feel as if I could shatter into a million pieces right then and there.

Be quiet,

I’m sorry I don’t mean to be rude but I’m so lonely yet so overstimulated, I have lost my sanity.

Be mine,

Everyone I’ve ever loved has hurt me, thrown me, burnt me, destroyed me. I can’t be yours yet for I’m not yet my own enough, but I can eat candy and feel the way your breath quickens when you’re near.

I won’t ask you to wait, but just for today, will you be here?

[forget-and-regret]

Emily Camille and Gabriel is just Tessa Ella and Jack change my mind

[lettersofanangel]

We were liars darling.

You never knew how not to break my heart. Satin sheets and steamed milk poured over coffee with you kissing my neck, my shoulder, my every aching crevice in my soul were never enough. Truth is, I wanted the world and you along with it. 

We were liars darling.

You never cared about the city lights nor the politics hidden in black ties and pleasantries over champagne and accolades, but I did. You only wanted blue skies and wide open fields with sunsets so pink that we could dip our paintbrushes and color the entire town with, but I didn’t. 

We were liars darling.

From the very start to the very end. We played through the motions and let the credits roll and stayed behind until the theater lights came up and we could stay no more. But now she’s walking down the aisle towards you, and I can still see the ocean in your eyes. And it’s not her swimming in them.

It’s me.

[rai-r]

@sh_mong_/instagram

[qvotable]

Sometimes I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I’m not living.

Jonathan Safran Foer // Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (via qvotable)

[lettersofanangel]

There's an abyss in your eyes. And somewhere in there is a place where you would've healed me instead of wrecked me.

There's a tsunami in your eyes. And sometimes I think I can still catch a glimpse of you. But most of the time I"m staring at a shell of someone whomst I once knew.

There 's a forest in your eyes and i know you're somewhere lost within it. And I once thought I could save you but I'm beaten and bruised with my own maze to navigate. 

So,

I guess we're both stuck-- lost in the darkness, trapped in the void, and all the other bad metaphors I can spin before 7am.

[lettersofanangel]

I’m the pilot and the airbag and the crumbling engine as we crash into the abyss and the world doesn’t stop turning even when we’re burning into nothing

[lettersofanangel]

I started an instagram @darling_poetry. If you’re kind enough to check me out, send me a dm there and I’ll follow/like you back ☺️

[lettersofanangel]

I collect bouquets of flowers and pretty potted plants and lay them in the corner of my room, hoping that I’ll drown in the oxygen and that somehow, the photosynthesis will affect me too.

why am I always so sad (via lettersofanangel)

[lettersofanangel]

It’s silk and velvet,  honey and cinnamon,  everything lovely, driving me mad, dancing in the wind, but I’m alright with it. I didn’t know  that a heart, can heal to the point where it’s so full that it just might burst, just at the sight of a curl, and sound of a laugh, the warmth of your love from thousands of miles away.

who knew a chest that once felt so empty can be so warm (via lettersofanangel)

[lettersofanangel]

Tell me how the ocean yearns for the moon, and I’ll let you know of a girl who broke her own heart for someone lightyears away.

The universe took billions of years to get here and I don’t know how you and I could be on different planets while in each other’s arms (via lettersofanangel)

[midnighttayswift13]

I stand with Taylor.

[forget-and-regret]

it’s been a while

https://www.wattpad.com/myworks/187014895-rosebar

but I’m writing another story :)