yourmarch

some memories might be forgotten but the feelings stay the same. ♡ a march girl.

[formarch]

I don't want to hate you, i really don't want to.

Please stop doing this, let's all stop doing this and back to where we should be

[formarch]

Love Untold

I told you about it, right?

Nobody can love you the way I did.

In front of the person who loves you, you tell them you love them.

Only when the sparks are gone, you feel something is wrong.

No more surprises, no flowers, no tiny gifts, no falling dramatically..

No more good morning and good night texts..

No "don't sleep late" , no "I hate to wake up like this"..

go back go back

go back go back

I told you about it, right?

Nobody can love you the way I did

[formarch]

I wish you could see this from my point of view

when did the last time you asked about my day?

there's so much I want to tell you but we have never have time

even our last quality time was interrupted because you have other things going at the same time

I am so mad

I am so angry

I am so upset

I want you I

[formarch]

I tried so hard

trust me I tried my best to escape the guilt

please believe me I did my best

but one day after another it hits me back

that maybe things wouldn't be this messed up without me

I'm so regretful

I can't stop thinking about it no matter how much I tried

I drown in guilt and I don't know how to escape

I love you

but to be here is actually hurting me

I don't want to say I'll be okay when I know as long as I'm here I will never be okay

these lips that once smiled for you, I find them annoying for not wanting to smile

these eyes that once sparked for you, now they are sad and afraid to face the world

trust me I did my best but I can't get out from it even after creating chaos

I'm so sad, I really am.

maybe everything is my fault

[formarch]

our time is limited

is it my fault that I found another comfort in your absence?

I start to notice your little mistakes, things that upset me because I need to confirm approval of my own actions.

my heart is in pain not only because I'm starting to question my own worth but also I'm doing what you are most scared of

forever seems so close to happiness and pain. I promised you forever, till it can be counted.

you told me you are scared of falling in love with me, that you have never felt so safe with someone before.

the unfamiliar feelings made you afraid you ended up avoiding me to protect your heart, but in the end you hurt both of us.

things getting awkward after we confessed to each other, the zoo date I'm sure will never happen, are you postponing until time can tell?

I can't face the future with you if you stuck in your past, I have dreams and hopes.

I have lots of love and affection but I can't even give them to you, not talking to you drives me crazy and I don't like myself when I'm feeling that way. I don't want you to be the center of my universe.

I'll make sure you are in your best condition, the rain has been falling heavily these days, right? the smell of soil and heavy grass are floating around the city. the colors of umbrellas covering the dark grey sky. I hope none of us needs to encounter this shitty situation again and we both can fall in love freely, embrace both good and bad, be afraid and take the risk anyway, sit down and talk what matters to you.

maybe not with each other, I loved you, I did. I wish for our happiness, maybe not with each other but I still wish the same,

for you to find happiness, instead of what's right or wrong.

[formarch]

I love how my mom understands me more and more over the years, seeing me through my own eyes and not hers. coming back home late at night with little to no energy leaving me only able to ask how's she doing and if she eaten her dinner, and often times she would come and want to know how was my week when I was away. but I don't have energy to even think and little things change with this, my eyes narrow, the tone I'm using raised, pressure on words, the corner of my lips also raised, my jaw clenches and I sigh heavily. I don't even like myself so I tell her "mom, can we talk tomorrow?" she used to say "napa sih kan mama mau tau" but after so long now she only lays next to me.

[formarch]

bold of you to assume I believe in love because someone loves me, I believe in love because I am still able to love people.

[formarch]

and so I do is taking my time to look for you.

[formarch]

i told my mom, i am going to find you and she asked me what if you dont want to be found? and for all i care, i have no idea too what will i do if i see you next time? among the crowd, billion of people, sea of souls, how will i find you?

you once asked me why do i love but i brushed it off thinking it doesnt need any explanation but i do have my reasons why,

even though your cooking was as bad as the bottom of a pan you smiled at it and said "i'll try again later".

your questionable DIY stuffs that you put on my wall, you smiled at it and with beaming eyes you told me "i made it for you",

when you made mistakes you knew how to admit and went on with life,

you knew you were beautiful and capable, despite no one told you so,

that you needed no validation or confirmation to know you were worth loving,

because you walked with confidence in you.

you knew how to forgive and talked calmly despite my stupid decisions in life, you didnt judge me and instead you asked me "how can i help you feel better?"

and thats my dear, why.

[formarch]

if we meet again

for a good reason

i wont run to you and hug you

but please come back

let me talk to you, once again

[formarch]

so why do you want me to spend the rest of my life with you when you dont even want to spend the rest of your life with yourself?

of course i'd love to spend the rest of my life with you but

even without me you have to keep on living, because this is not about me.

this is about you, your life is about how you put meaning into it. that your life has meaning despite everything.

and you, my dear, you create that meaning.

only you.

[formarch]

i found myself losing patience in every second goes by

[formarch]

have you even been so angry you decided to not buy stuffs you have been wanting to buy

[formarch]

tbh idk what to feel, it feels so empty and i dont what to do anything but also want to do so many things.

[childlikemperor]

the funnest part of reading books is telling people the plot like its hot gossip

[postitforward]

[postitforward]

Holiday Blues with Tumblr

Feeling down? Dreading the short days and long nights? Well, this holiday season, Tumblr is here to help you conquer your Sunday Scaries all week long!

We’ve partnered with amazing yogis, wellness brands, and mental health enthusiasts to bring you Holiday Blues with Tumblr. With a huge shift in the weather, hours of daylight, seasonal affective disorder season, and whatever else the world is throwing at us this week (🐝Murder Hornets just entered the group chat), we want to empower you to participate in some transformational acts of self-care 🤗.

Don’t worry, we know ‘self-care’ can feel like a chore, not to mention another dent in the bank account. That’s why Tumblr wants to meet you where you are—on your dash.

How does it work, you ask?

EASY! PEASY! LEMON 🍋 SQUEEZY! All we need from you is to show up; we’ll take it from there! Over the next six weeks, Tumblr and our partners will host LIVE classes: fitness classes, mindfulness exercises, interactive quizzes, playlists, and maybe even a dance party.

What if you miss class?

NO STRESS!! We’ve thought of it all. If you can’t make it to the live class (you will be sorely missed), each class will be available here on Post It Forward or on our Youtube channel.

Get to the point! When is the FUN?

Hold your horses — starting November 22nd until January 2nd, here’s what you have to look forward to:

📿Mindful Mondays📿

LIVE morning meditations run by some cool folx

💗Wellness Wednesdays 💗

Mood-boosting tips, tricks & playlists 

💪Flex Fridays💪

LIVE CLASSES and all the yoga 🧘 your heart could desire. All levels welcome—Yoga is for everybody and EVERY BODY

💆Self-Care Sundays💆

Think expressive writing meets self-discovery … with a dash of Dance Dance Revolution. And did we mention, it’s LIVE?

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We will also have reminders for each class…. we told you WE GOT YOU!

Calm your mind with Mindful Monday on 11/22 (add to your calendar)

Break a sweat with Flex Friday on 11/26 (add to your calendar)

Pamper yourself with Self-Care Sunday on 11/28 (add to your calendar)

A Few Gentle Reminders:

Make the time for yourself if you think it might make you feel better 🤗.

Showing up is the hardest part. You take care of that and we will take care of the rest.

This is meant to be fun (and we want to make sure you do JUST THAT here on Tumblr).

This is YOUR JOURNEY, so do it your way! Take the classes that make you feel good. Come to the live sessions, or just catch them later. Show up to every class, or do the same class every day for the next six weeks. You do you, boo boo.

One LAST thing:

LIKE, SHARE, and BE THERE!

We need your help to spread positive vibes as we conquer the Holiday Blues. Use the tag #HolidayBluesWithTumblr to share reflections from Mindful Monday , a sweaty selfie from Flex Friday, or anything that comes up for you after a Self-Care Sunday session.