Night Foxbear

Art belongs to me Virgo. Artist/Author/Fandom Enjoyer

[foxbear-night]

My OTP is Romangers, they give me such brainrot and I love them so much. And I've had this like...outline for a fanfic about them from when I was twelve and crave to read, but can't force myself to write:

PWP (with not without), and it's a mutual pining fwb scenario where they are constantly making love (specifically Steve making love to her). In this scenario, they both really want kids and they both know they have feelings for each other, but Natasha denies Steve in a 'Rewrite The Stars' scenario because of her guilty conscience, her own self-loathing, and her inability to bear him any children. She insists that's another woman out there that's right for Steve, BETTER for him, than her

But that's the thing. Steve doesn't want any other woman. He wants her. His dream could only come true if she's a part of it. Otherwise, it isn't a life he wants. And he loves her, oh god does he love her. He wants her in whatever way she'll let him have her, which is why their arrangement goes on for as long as it does. He doesn't ever give up on her. If he was under the impression that she just didn't have feelings for him, he wouldn't be as persistent as he actually was being. He would've backed off, loving her from afar. But he knows. He knows she loves him just as much as he loves her, and he knows why she denies herself him. So he stays, hoping to wait it out, hoping that someday she'll finally relent, that she'll finally give herself and her everything to him so that he could love her the way she needs to be

But for now, he'll show her his love in the only way she allows, by making love to her in the bedroom, because she's too weak to tell him no, to reject him when she wants it just as badly as he does. She just finds being loved by him oh-so addicting. No matter how many times she tries to resist, she just oh-so reflexively and instinctively blooms open for him the momeny he touches her in a certain way (particularly, when he cups her face, thumbs caressing her cheeks, staring into her eyes; OR pulling her into his embrace, resting his forehead against hers before he reflexively kisses it, and then before you know, his lips are on hers and her arms around his neck, and he very soon will fall top of her—preferably onto a softer surface like a couch or a mattress)

At the time though, Natasha thinks Steve's affection for her is misplaced, but again. She can never tell him no. Because she—naturally—loves him (makes sense for her to have caught feelings for him than it does vice versa, she cannot aee what he sees), she's prome to becoming absolute putty for him, absolutely boneless the moment his strong arms envelope her

Butttttt—something has to give eventually, right? But this case, rather than ruining everything and making their arrangement no longer possible, it works out incredibly well in their favor but in the most unexpected way possible

Why? Because Natasha finds out she's pregnant

'But how?,' Someone might be wondering. Simple! When you have your womb removed, you're suddenly become a lot more comfortable with doing the deed unprotected. Except, when you do that with a Super Soldier and you do it very often with him for a long enough time, what he leaves behind has an effect on *your* body. It might even reverse all your unwatned hysterectomy and literally GROW BACK a functioning womb

And because you're dong it with him often while unprotected, youre not gonna find out you grew it back via having a period. No, you're gonna find out via your doctor telling you that you're preggers

So yeah, imagining soulmating so hard that when you have a main reason for why you can't be with that person, the universe goes out of its way to make it so that very reason no longer rings true, just so you stop making excuses and just KISS them already

Anyways, so Natasha is actually really, REALLY excited about this because this is utterly LIFE CHANGING for her. Suddenly, her having a family is actually plausible, and all because she fell in love with the right person who made this very desire a reality for her by literally not giving up on her

Obviously Natasha tells Steve because why on Earth would she keep this from him?? And he is so, SO over the moon that he kisses her. But not hungrily this time, just passionately, ADORINGLY. And she lets him and even returns it in turn

And then, the whole time of pregnancy actually acts like a transition stage for them, for her allowing Steve to take care of her, to fuss over her in other ways outside the bedroom. It acts like a stepping stone to her actually becoming okay with being in relationship with Steve, transitioning them finally entering a romantic relationship

And I think even more improtantly, they don't have a son. They have a daughter, because girl mom Natasha is everything to me. I think even just a little girl, one who resembles her at least to a degree and is her flesh and blood, makes it a lot easier for Natasha to forgive herself, to learn to how to love herself. But also—in a breaking the cycle kinda way, she can give her daughter the childhood she herself should've had, an incredibly loving home with incredibly loving parents that their daughter will always feel safe enough to turn to whenever she wants or needs thwm

And I think Steve also finds healing in a baby girl. I think in turn, it heightens his protectiveness of Natasha. Just something how they're both HIS girls (but in two, completely different ways) intensifies the way he feels as tho he has something he needs to protect.

This? This is a fanfic I so BADLY want to read, but with my ADHD? Motivation doesn't match my want, and it's also what makes me willing to write. I'd write it if I could, but I genuinely don't have it in me, which makes so, SO sad. I'd give anything to be able to read this omg. I struggle with writing anything multi-chapter, and this would be a very, VERY daunting one-shot. I just couldn't, tho however much I want to 🥺🥺😭

Only if like....I could get a ghostwriter on this istg. Like I wish there was another 'occupation' within fandom where fanfic readers bring these hyper specific fanfic plot ideas or an outline of a story they want to read, and they get a version of a ghostwriter who'll basically write the plot for them. Not just prompts, not just requests, but an outright outline and they breathe it to life

[foxbear-night]

Common Warrior Cat Suffixes And My Interpretation of What They Mean:

Started off as a thought of 'what if these 'basic' suffixes that have no real meaning actually meant something? What if these basic suffixes actually tell other cats everything they need to know about an individual?' Because I have this specific headcanon that a suffix is supposed to highlight a defining trait of a character, not ever just their appearance. Like a warrior name should either tell other clan cats something about their personality and/or a particular talent/skill. It should tell others what it's like to either have a conversation with this cat, or to face them in a fight.

Though in these descriptions, it's also full of even more small headcanons I have about Clan life that's never specified in the books. Like not cats hunt by stalking their prey, and there's even cats who specialize hunting in a completely different way. Or like differing ways these cats fight each other. Or how hunting patrols have an assigned tracker who doesn't hunt, but instead their role is to locate prey nearby and then point it out to the other hunters

•Fang: A combatant who fights offensively, more likely to disregard defense

•Claw: A fighter who battles more defensively, tries to keep opponents at an 'arm's' length

•Whisker: A cat with great intuition. Can sense the slightest shifts in the air before others can without even seeing or hearing it first, who seem to almost have a sixth sense. The first to sense danger (such as storms or fires or floods) incoming before others do. The first to notice something amiss. And you know how dogs will just /know/ if someone they've just met is to be trusted or not and will act accordingly? That's them

•Breeze: A cat who's playful and lax, the carefree sort.

•Shine: Given to a cat who either exhibits exceptional brilliance, whether they be clever or creative; or they're a cat who inspires others

•Shade: A few different reasons a cat could given this suffix: reserved; cunning; or they're specialized ambush hunters.

•Foot: Befitting of a cat who's either a skilled generalist hunter, or who are really decisive. Like they're great at thinking fast on their feet, and aren't prone to hesitating.

•Tail: Since tail signals are often given by the leader of a patrol, the suffix has become associated and given to cats who are natural leaders.

•Face: Given to cats who exhibit immense bravery. They'll be the first to take danger head-on, the first to protect their clanmates, the first to be on the frontlines. They'd go toe-toe against a dog, or a badger, or a fox. Regardless of circumstances, they're the least likely to flee; rather they'll be the ones facing a threat head on.

•Step: Given to cats of grand ambition in one way or another, or ones who've achieved a great feat

•Song: Either a silver-tongued cat or someone who often fills the role of messenger. Maybe they're also a particularly good storyteller and people just love hearing them speak

•Frost: The aloof sort, almost like a lone wolf. Might prioritize logic over feelings, or might be the calculating sort. That or they're the cool-headed sort that's hard to anger.

•Leaf: The leaves change with the seasons, and so these cats are incredibly adaptable like their namesake.

•Stream: Cats who tend to go with the flow, and are generally laidback.

•Feather: 'Birds of a feather flock together' is why the suffix is given to cats who demonstrate immense loyalty to their clan and their loved ones.

•Flower: Cats who are grounded and gentle, often labeled the mom friend of the group (whether they're a molly or not)

•Flight: Either cats who tend to impulsive, or are specialized chase hunters due to how fast they can run.

•Nose: Given to cats who are excellent trackers and scouts, though not always because of their sense of smell. They're invaluable on hunting patrols, who can easily point the other hunters to the direction of prey just before the patrol splits off to go hunt. They also make for great foragers, and they're frequent companions to medicine cats when gathering due to being to more easily point patches of herbs that very medicine cat would've otherwise missed. They're also invaluable on search patrols for when kits go missing, or when the Clan needs to pinpoint where a potential predator might be denning. And as medicine cats, they're even better at their job due to sniff out when a clanmate might be sick, injured, or even poisoned.

•Wing: A free spirited cat, highly independent and probably works better alone. They're best not put into groups bigger than a pair, because while they respect the hierarchy of their Clan, they become more difficult when a peer is put in charge of them. It doesn't mean they're not loyal—no, far from it in fact. They're just not the most prone to following the rules. Best to not put them in border patrols or in stealth missions where it becomes most vital to follow orders. They also don't make for the best Clan leaders nor the best queens due to discomfort at being confined to camp.

However! They absolutely thrive in other areas: they actually make for really good deputies and medicine cats, where they have the most freedom. They also actually do great on hunting patrols, where it's not a game of 'follow the leader' as well as make for fine mentors due to how well they get along with younger cats such as apprentices and kits as well as elders. And when they do retire, they also make for the most mischievous, rambunctious elders who don't let old age slow them down a single bit. They're also really good meditators.

•Fur/Pelt: Placed together because the suffixes basically mean the same thing. These are named upon cats who are self-assured, comfortable in their own skin. These cats tend to also be practical, even-tempered, and live in the moment. They're also as grounded as a cat can be, and also some of the most reliable clanmates any cat could know, so incredibly dependable. They also are ptetty equal in both combat and hunting, and they act as a jack of all trades sort. They don't need to be perfect to get a job done.

•Heart: These cats are either in touch with their emotions, or incredibly passionate.

In line with the first one, cats given this namesake are often loyal; well-adjusted; empathetic + always willing to lend an ear; and they get along with everyone. All their clanmates think highly of them.

In line with the second, there's some variety to this one. In this case, these cats feel strongly and are considerably expressive. They always give their all to everything they do. They love deeply and fiercely, especially for a small cluster of their clanmates like their kin, one or two friends, their littermates, their mate, and their kits (if they have any). They're not always as well rounded as the first group, for they can be rather stoic at times, or maybe they're quick to anger. They also might feel strongly about their morals, and put them over the very code their Clan lives by. Yet when they have your back, they REALLY have your back.

Alternatively, these cats can be bubbly sweethearts who are incredibly friendly, and they just have this love for life. They're the pure of heart sort, but they're also incredibly sensitive and they forgive too easily. They tend to be the selfless sort as well. They suffer under cats who tend to be strict, blunt, or just outright cruel. However, they also tend to be shadowed by at least one cat if not several who WILL claw your ears off should you be mean to them. They're also incredibly selfless

•Fall: These are cats who love heights and love being in the treetops. They're particularly good at hunting and catching birds, which are particularly hard prey to catch, by ambushing them in their very nests and tree perches. They're also incredibly resilent, always bound to get up no matter how many times they're knocked down. They're ambush fighters too who'll wait up in the branches for their enemies to walk right under them before they'll fall right on top of them and attack them.

•Leap: Also really good at hunting and catching birds, which are particularly hard prey to catch. These cats have particularly impressive gaits. Rather than run, they bound and they do so farther than any other cat could in the same time frame. They also can jump a lot higher than other cats, allowing them to catch birds mid-flight.

•Storm: A particularly fierce and hotheaded cat who fights fearlessly and is a rather vicious hunter. None really wanna face them in the battle field to how awfully these cats will claw and bite them. They're also incredibly strong-willed and will challenge and question your leadership if they don't respect you. Surprisingly, they tend to make for great teachers and queens because of this, able to keep rowdy kits from getting into things they're not supposed to and getting rather bratty apprenticea in line. This also makes them really good leaders and medicine cats, but also terrible deputies. They're incredibly protective as well, not letting anyone mess with the handful of cats they let close. They tend to be natural leaders as well due to how intimidating they can be to others as well as collectively being highly respected for their battle prowess.

[foxbear-night]

Hear me out: Tara x Garfiel|Beast Boy x Raven

[foxbear-night]

⚠️TW: mentioned su¡s!d3⚠️

Bit of a sketch of them finally reuniting. Julian looks unsettled because he is, because he thinks he's not only being tormented with yet another illusion of Astrid, but the sight before him he believes to be a manifestation of his worst fears and of his worst guilt: Astrid with those trademark red eyes, the most explicit symptom of the very plague that killed her.

By this point, he fully believes that Astrid has long since given up on him, and in a bittersweet way, he's glad for that. Of course he misses her, of course he still loves her, he always will. But he's also relieved that she's 'safe and sound' (quite a bold assumption to make there, Julian) by choosing to stay away, and glad that she's 'come to her senses' and stopped wasting her time on a lost cause such as him. He knows she's too good for him, and he's under that assumption that he doesn't deserve her, though he still absolutely would and will do anything for her

So he's really, really confused when the illusion of the Devil's sent to haunt him this time looks rather..../different/. He wonders if the Devil has forgotten how humans are supposed to look, because they don't look anything like this 'illusion' does

Also, this illusion behaves nothing like her. Why is it throwing itself at him? Astrid, a stoic and fierce baddie with mega hyper-independent tendencies, would NEVER do such a thing. Also kinda weird that this illusion isn't taunting hin for failing his lover, or how he's not good enough for her, or how his loved ones don't actually miss him.

Meanwhile, Astrid over here, absolutely OVERJOYED to finally, FINALLY have found Julian. Her red sclera makes her kinda like a yandere (and yeah, she kinda is for Julian), but she's genuinely is just super ecstatic to see him again. She's been through so, SO much to get to him, to be with him. The lack of him had been slowly but surely killing her. She's been to hell and back searching for him, she's left behind everything and everyone to give chase for over a decade. She'd bore his children and named them both after him because she missed him so much. She's been haunted by his ghost no matter where she went. She's taken so many lives on his behalf. She's given up her humanity in his name. He'd become her reason to living, reuniting with him had been the only thing keeping her going

So yeah, he's real lucky that he sacrificed wasn't his fucking life, because it would've in vain with the lengths she would've gone just to be with him again

And when she realizes that Julian's convinced that she's an illusion, she's gonna go ballistic but in an angry love confessions way

This song is so Juliastrid-coded, not necessarily in the same evil way like the lyrics portray, but in a way that's just as disturbing. Julian truly is Astrid's man in every possible way—he not only damnes himself to keep her safe but also the whole world; he's rejected becoming a better doctor and possibly saving the lives of others with that knowledge just to be with her; he stood between her and danger at multiple points now; he allowed himself to be hanged so that he could save her and everyone else from the eventual threat of the Red Death; and that's just what I could think of off the top of my head, there's probably so, so much more. He would do anything for her, for better or for worse.

Another way this song fits is from Astrid's POV. Julian is hers, and she is his. She's fought tooth and nail just to be beside him. Her love for him is what makes her a morally gray character. She'll let nothing—and I mean NOTHING—stand between her and HER Ilya

I guess what I'm saying is that the way this song fits her and Julian is in the same way it fits Wandavision and Odysseus + Penelope from EPIC the Musical, they're like a blend of the two pairings actually

[foxbear-night]

Astrid goes out of her way to avenge her lover by going after the courtiers and Lucio. Since she can't reach the Devil, she'll instead punish his minions for Julian being taken

[foxbear-night]

This audio is so them-coded Istg

[foxbear-night]

Not really sure if this a thing, but like...

Wonder what the types of fandoms I'm in say about me? 🤔🤔

[Fandoms: The Arcana; Inuyasha; Fairy Tail; and Lego Monkie Kid mainly]

[foxbear-night]

Everything Astrid calls her kids and the pets/familiars in the Reversed Ending:

•Juliet Cassia Devorak-Halcyon

-"Julia" [who-lee-ah]; rosebud; rosa; rosemary; Cassia [Only really said when she's in huge trouble]; cinnabun

-Familiar: Cocoa the Egyptian Vulture

-Nicknames: Coke; CC; Hot Cocoa; Coco Beans; Crackhead

•Elliot Drake Halcyon-Devorak

-"Elio"; sunspot; sunshine; sundae; Drake [when he's about to be in big trouble]; seadragon

-Familiar Earl Gray the Blue Jay

-Nicknames: Grayson, Earl; EARLybird; Blue Gray (sounds like they're saying blue jay); Jaywalking (when he's in he way of other); Jay-tlemen (when he's being sweet)

•Astrid collectively calls them both:

Fledge;/fledgeling; Gemini (when addressing the both of them); chickpea; pit; rusty + brownie (a funny way to address them both, as it swaps hair colors, so while rusty is red, it actually refers to Elliot; and brownie seems like it'd refer to Elliot because he's a brunette, it actually refers to Juliet, who like the creatures is a forager); downy (another bird pet name that Astrid calls them both by, almost like calling them 'kid'); jackpot (kid-friendly of saying 'jackass', sometimes used when scolding them and telling them to stop being a jerk); fudge (a cute, kiddie pet name, almost calling them squirt or hotshot); chick (another baby bird pet name): chika/chiko (depending if Astrid is addressing Elio or Julia; kit/pup/cub (kiddie fox pet names since the Magician associated with foxes, and she is a magician); starlings (bird pet name, particularly alluding to the fact that magicians are well-versed in astrology); spurs (bird pet name); dove (bird pet name in place of 'love'); twin peas (a way to address them both); bumblebees (based on a joke on the pair being a hivemind); hunnydew (a fun way of saying hunny), most generic but sweet? Lovely/lovelies

•Eirrus the Osprey

-Nicknames: Eerie/Eyrie (a play on how her name is pronounced); fishflakes (Eirrus is a pretty messy eater, especially when eating fish); Eirridescent (a play on the word 'Iridescent and a way to call her pretty); 'Rus (Another nickname for her), Ossie (a nickname coming her kind of bird osprey); Eissy (a nickname based on her name); Alice/Aliss (from when the twins were super little and couldn't pronounce 'Eirrus' correctly, struggling to say the double 'r', so they accidentally said with an 'l' sound); Alyssa (Again, coming from when the twins were too little to properly say her name, and because babbling babies say 'ah' a lot, it sounded they were called Eirrus 'Alyssa'); Ali (again, from when the twins were really young, but old enough to start using nicknames. They thought her name was 'Alice' so they started calling her 'Ali'); Eerily (for when she's kinda being a piece of shit); harpy (for when she's also when being a demon); Valkyrie (a nickname for when she's about to do something really badass, it also leads to a bunch of other nicknames); Valley (nickname from her other nick name, Valkyrie); Val-vance (sounds like 'violence' and again, when she's being an ass); Valentine (another name from Valkyrie that's just cute); Eirregular (a nick name for when she's being a weird little creature); Eirritate/Eirritation (when she's choosing to annoy you); Kyrzie (another nickname from Valkyrie when she's being chaotic, sounds like 'crazy'); Eirate (when she's again being a demon and is just really angry, steaming from 'irate'); Eirrin (another nickname of Eirrus); Valerie (another nickname from Valkyrie)

•Malak the Raven

-Nicknames: Mal; Lak-It (a play on how I pronounce his name as well as his talent for picking locks); Malicious (used to either call him a prick; or calling him delicious in a cuteness aggression way); Malware (kinda an IRL pun for when he's being a pest); Maleficent (both also a pum for when he's being a menace, or when he's looking particularly magnificent); Malice (yet another nickname for when he's on demon time); Malawe (another pet name for when he's looking particularly handsome); Cah-Cah (scaring the same nickname as Cocoa, but specifically to 'mock' his tendency to walk everybody up with a bunch of cawing early in the morning); Lak-Pick (again another reference to him being able to pick locks); Lak-Out (for him just being a good lookout); Lak-Cock (another teasing nickname because of how often he's been mistaken for a female raven); Mallet (because of how mean he can be at times); peacock (for his tendency to show off, especially in front of Eirrus); Pawner (because of his tendency to steal anything shiny); Flightsalot (because he's a scaredy cat): Caward (another way to call him a scaredy cat); Jeweler (because he's a raven, he's drawn to shiny things, also has a weird tendency to jewelry out of the most random things that most would consider junk or garbage, but actually makes some really pretty pieces); Cawsualty (for when he's being a drama queen and playing dead)

•Brindle the Hound

-Nicknames: Brinds; Brin; Bundle (loves to be bundled with the whole group for a snuggle pile); Riddle (when he's being weird); Kindle (he has a tendency to accidentally stick his tail in a campfire when sleeping in front of it); Bays (because he loves to bay); fleabag (when he's being clingy and annoying); Stink Eye (because of his constant look of disapproval); Stinky (because he can stink)

•Bonus: Julian Devorak|Ilyushka

-Nicknames/pet names: Ilya; lovely; birdbrain; my heart; tall dark and handsome

•BONUS BONUS: Astrid/Asherah Halcyon

-What Julian calls her: love; darling; Ash; shopkeep; dearest; lovebird; 'love of my life'; 'a bird of paradise'

[foxbear-night]

Some silly sketches of Julian and Astrid, mostly mostly moments from his route but spoofy with one panel probably a fluffy scene from Julian's Upright Ending

Honestly, if you saw them, you'd probably think they're a toxic couple. Always seems like Julian is "harassing" her and Astrid only SEEMS to act icy with him

But I promise they're not. They're just an orange cat x chihuahua couple lmfaooo

Astrid just doesn't really like emoting much, and her social skills are kinda ass, a product of her upbringing. But she adores Julian fiercely, and she finds his antics—however aggravating—also endearing at the same time. And she is also his biggest ride-or-die, as she proves in their non-canon compliant Reversed Ending [she spends a whole decade looking for him, and if she really had to, then she would've done it for a whole eternity, maybe even two]

And Julian? Just a silly little guy, Astrid leaves him more than enough room to be himself around her. She doesn't ever try to shut him down, maybe some lighthearted teasing here and there, but nothing that would dishearten him

They're also just so stupid for each other in general, they give me such brainrot oml 🥺

[elios-sylvelios]

My love has concrete feet My love's an iron ball Wrapped around your ankles Over the waterfall If you want me to draw something similar my commissions are open!

[foxbear-night]

I have this omegaverse hc that I'd absolutely love to see applied to Nalu: so we all know about 'protective alphas' and 'comforting omegas', right?

I raise you this: that being the case a lot of the time EXCEPT for mated omegas and alphas. Sometimes, the roles even swap

And that'd first need us to break down the actual motivation behind why omegas tend to nurture and why alphas dominate, what those instincts stem from

Alphas are driven by anxiety, a constant worrying over their loved ones. And that constant buzz of fear always kinda keeps them in a fight mode, making it so they can react quickly when their loved ones are in danger. They're almost the more submissive ones actually, but in a service top way, in a way that resembles livestock guardian dogs. Evolutionarily, it's a trait that's protected their inner circle (which in particular consisted of family members and their mate, who could very well pass on those genetics to offspring), so it stuck

And this anxiety pushes them to behave in certain ways. To sate it, they become leaders, because authority means the power to protect those who mean the most to them. But it also can lead them to being really good at comforting and nurturing others, because distress flares up that very anxiety. It triggers a similar, but gentler reaction to that when they're trying to protect a member of their pack

And all this anxiety is intensified during ruts, which is alphas get a lot more aggressive around that because imagine that extreme anxiety while also experiencing the unrelenting need to mate, to breed. It makes it a lot harder to control the latter, and a lot harder for them to behave rationally (not an s/a way, because violating others against the very protective need and nature of alphas). However, they become a lot more tame when in a snuggle pile with their pack, it makes the urge to breed, to mate, so much more bearable. Rut in that instance almost seems like a heat, where they become all docile and sweet and maybe a bit needy

But also—while this anxiety is considerably typical for alphas, they're still considered sound of mind when it presents with a very fight-mode reaction. That's how they're hardwired

And yes, alphas going feral is very much a thing, and while it's a bit worrying if it happens outside of rut, as a result to so much stress or anger that they literally lose it for a bit. But they always come out of it eventually, a bit shaken, but otherwise in tact

But alphas are not free from the will to survive, they still possess those other fear responses. However, an alpha literally, physically shouldn't have to experience them outside of childhood. Because if an alpha reacts in other ways than 'fight', that means that the stress exceeds the point where the body and mind believe that going feral isn't enough to keep themselves or their loved ones safe. And it's not just extreme stress, it's prolonged

And there's a whole spectrum to it, each other exhibiting how deeply feral that alpha is. A feral alpha in 'fight' is just the surface level, and it's not good for them to go any deeper than that

If a feral alpha can't fight, then it'll try to flee. If it can't flee, then it'll freeze. But past this point is the worst one for an alpha, it means they've been broken in: they'll fawn. They'll submit. Something that's not natural to an alpha, not to anyone who isn't trusted. So if a feral alpha is acting 'civilized', if they're acting like a dog, it's incredibly hard to ground them back to their normal selves and it usually requires them sticking to their mate or immediate kin at literally all times. A healthy alpha is supposed to be driven to protect, but when they fawn, it goes the complete opposite way. They develop a deep-seated need to be PROTECTED, they feel as though they'll die at any moment or that the threat will come any moment and just hurt them again

And to be clear, a fawning alpha isn't the result of its loved ones being hurt, but themself being hurt. Senselessly so and for long periods at a time. And afterwards, they can be stuck like that for literal years if not their whole lives

Because alphas are selfless, they'll always give themselves up first to be hurt first or exclusively, but there's a breaking point for them. That's when the will to survive, a desperation to stop hurting, overrides their every protective instinct, that they start appeasing, that they start begging and groveling. And that is the most broken state an alpha can be in, because again, it's against their very nature to submit, to experience a need to be protected instead of protecting. And in rut, they just become wholly despondent

Alternatively, omegas are inherently very possessive creatures. They nurture because the sense that something is /theirs/ drives them to take care of it, or in this case: someone. Someone they deeply love. The love of an omega is innately selfish, and that's not necessarily a bad thing either, because being theirs doesn't come with all the toxic behavior being possessive IRL is. And why specifically possessiveness instead of just compassion or empathy? Well, not only is more realistic, but it also serves another function that comes in emergencies: becoming the protector

It's very different for omegas, they don't break like alphas can. Going feral happens when there's danger, and they experience a deep-seated need to protect. It takes a more to get them to that point, but they also bounce a lot more quickly from it than alphas do

And the thing is that there is nothing more dangerous than a bonded omega in heat. Because heat? It amplifies that deep-seated possessiveness. And if you are hurting their mate right before them, whether alpha or not, and there's nothing their mate can do to protect themselves. An omega WILL go feral. And they're actually a lot more dangerous than a feral alpha, because they don't really have an off button. A feral alpha can be calmed if put with its loved ones, whether or not in a dangerous situation, because all that rage is purely defenseless, purely selfless. They don't fight for themselves, they fight for their pack. They'll settle if their loved ones are somewhere close enough for the alpha to protect them, they're soothed by either their loved ones being safe or by their capacity to keep them safe

An omega though? It's all selfishness that drives them. You didn't just hurt their mate, but you also deeply offended them by marring what's theirs. That attacking isn't to just get you to back you, it's also riddled with vengeance. It's not bravery, it's pure white-hot rage

The only thing that can pull them back is their instinct to nurture. Their mate is wounded? They unfortunately can't focus on you forever, but their mate needs them, their mate needs to be 'fixed'

But you'd be lucky if it ever gets to that point, because that feral omega is absolutely trying to take your life for what you've done and probably will succeed

I also think alphas can go into pseudo heats and vice versa for omegas. It's a lot more of what stereotypical heats and ruts look like, and it depends on circumstances

On that note, all of this with alpha! Lucy Heartfilia and omega Natsu Dragneel 🤭🤭

[foxbear-night]

Adding on here: alphas can submit, but NEVER if they're feral. It's like...really bad if they start fawning while feral

[foxbear-night]

I have this omegaverse hc that I'd absolutely love to see applied to Nalu: so we all know about 'protective alphas' and 'comforting omegas', right?

I raise you this: that being the case a lot of the time EXCEPT for mated omegas and alphas. Sometimes, the roles even swap

And that'd first need us to break down the actual motivation behind why omegas tend to nurture and why alphas dominate, what those instincts stem from

Alphas are driven by anxiety, a constant worrying over their loved ones. And that constant buzz of fear always kinda keeps them in a fight mode, making it so they can react quickly when their loved ones are in danger. They're almost the more submissive ones actually, but in a service top way, in a way that resembles livestock guardian dogs. Evolutionarily, it's a trait that's protected their inner circle (which in particular consisted of family members and their mate, who could very well pass on those genetics to offspring), so it stuck

And this anxiety pushes them to behave in certain ways. To sate it, they become leaders, because authority means the power to protect those who mean the most to them. But it also can lead them to being really good at comforting and nurturing others, because distress flares up that very anxiety. It triggers a similar, but gentler reaction to that when they're trying to protect a member of their pack

And all this anxiety is intensified during ruts, which is alphas get a lot more aggressive around that because imagine that extreme anxiety while also experiencing the unrelenting need to mate, to breed. It makes it a lot harder to control the latter, and a lot harder for them to behave rationally (not an s/a way, because violating others against the very protective need and nature of alphas). However, they become a lot more tame when in a snuggle pile with their pack, it makes the urge to breed, to mate, so much more bearable. Rut in that instance almost seems like a heat, where they become all docile and sweet and maybe a bit needy

But also—while this anxiety is considerably typical for alphas, they're still considered sound of mind when it presents with a very fight-mode reaction. That's how they're hardwired

And yes, alphas going feral is very much a thing, and while it's a bit worrying if it happens outside of rut, as a result to so much stress or anger that they literally lose it for a bit. But they always come out of it eventually, a bit shaken, but otherwise in tact

But alphas are not free from the will to survive, they still possess those other fear responses. However, an alpha literally, physically shouldn't have to experience them outside of childhood. Because if an alpha reacts in other ways than 'fight', that means that the stress exceeds the point where the body and mind believe that going feral isn't enough to keep themselves or their loved ones safe. And it's not just extreme stress, it's prolonged

And there's a whole spectrum to it, each other exhibiting how deeply feral that alpha is. A feral alpha in 'fight' is just the surface level, and it's not good for them to go any deeper than that

If a feral alpha can't fight, then it'll try to flee. If it can't flee, then it'll freeze. But past this point is the worst one for an alpha, it means they've been broken in: they'll fawn. They'll submit. Something that's not natural to an alpha, not to anyone who isn't trusted. So if a feral alpha is acting 'civilized', if they're acting like a dog, it's incredibly hard to ground them back to their normal selves and it usually requires them sticking to their mate or immediate kin at literally all times. A healthy alpha is supposed to be driven to protect, but when they fawn, it goes the complete opposite way. They develop a deep-seated need to be PROTECTED, they feel as though they'll die at any moment or that the threat will come any moment and just hurt them again

And to be clear, a fawning alpha isn't the result of its loved ones being hurt, but themself being hurt. Senselessly so and for long periods at a time. And afterwards, they can be stuck like that for literal years if not their whole lives

Because alphas are selfless, they'll always give themselves up first to be hurt first or exclusively, but there's a breaking point for them. That's when the will to survive, a desperation to stop hurting, overrides their every protective instinct, that they start appeasing, that they start begging and groveling. And that is the most broken state an alpha can be in, because again, it's against their very nature to submit, to experience a need to be protected instead of protecting. And in rut, they just become wholly despondent

Alternatively, omegas are inherently very possessive creatures. They nurture because the sense that something is /theirs/ drives them to take care of it, or in this case: someone. Someone they deeply love. The love of an omega is innately selfish, and that's not necessarily a bad thing either, because being theirs doesn't come with all the toxic behavior being possessive IRL is. And why specifically possessiveness instead of just compassion or empathy? Well, not only is more realistic, but it also serves another function that comes in emergencies: becoming the protector

It's very different for omegas, they don't break like alphas can. Going feral happens when there's danger, and they experience a deep-seated need to protect. It takes a more to get them to that point, but they also bounce a lot more quickly from it than alphas do

And the thing is that there is nothing more dangerous than a bonded omega in heat. Because heat? It amplifies that deep-seated possessiveness. And if you are hurting their mate right before them, whether alpha or not, and there's nothing their mate can do to protect themselves. An omega WILL go feral. And they're actually a lot more dangerous than a feral alpha, because they don't really have an off button. A feral alpha can be calmed if put with its loved ones, whether or not in a dangerous situation, because all that rage is purely defenseless, purely selfless. They don't fight for themselves, they fight for their pack. They'll settle if their loved ones are somewhere close enough for the alpha to protect them, they're soothed by either their loved ones being safe or by their capacity to keep them safe

An omega though? It's all selfishness that drives them. You didn't just hurt their mate, but you also deeply offended them by marring what's theirs. That attacking isn't to just get you to back you, it's also riddled with vengeance. It's not bravery, it's pure white-hot rage

The only thing that can pull them back is their instinct to nurture. Their mate is wounded? They unfortunately can't focus on you forever, but their mate needs them, their mate needs to be 'fixed'

But you'd be lucky if it ever gets to that point, because that feral omega is absolutely trying to take your life for what you've done and probably will succeed

I also think alphas can go into pseudo heats and vice versa for omegas. It's a lot more of what stereotypical heats and ruts look like, and it depends on circumstances

On that note, all of this with alpha! Lucy Heartfilia and omega Natsu Dragneel 🤭🤭

[foxbear-night]

The perfect way to describe Nalu:

Orange cat x golden retriever; pink x yellow; starlight x fire

[foxbear-night]

Ship dynamic idea: pretty boy x she-beast. All those romances but you have a beautiful man who falls in love with a monster. He's the only one who doesn't fear her, and is instead only left in awe of her simply existing. And actually, he's the protective one out of the two, like yeah, she'd protect him but he'd literally burn down the world should anything happen to her

And it's not obvious at first, because she's naturally gonna be aggressive, but only in the way a cornered animal would be. All the while, he's sweet and gentle and loving

But it becomes more apparent when he realizes how deeply he cares for her while also simultaneously realizing that the world literally has it out for her. And that if he doesn't do anything, the love of his life very well could be killed

And then make her something like a vampire, or a werewolf, or a siren, or a harpy, or a shapeshifting dragon

I guess I basically want the Little Mermaid, but if Ariel was more terrifying and inhuman looking while Eric would literally burn down the world for her

[foxbear-night]

Little Pokémon BW hc/scenario: Hilda or Hilbert end up with Ghetsis's Hydregion, rescuing the poor thing from it's abusive trainer. It's at first a very, VERY mean thing that'll bare its teeth, threatening to bite. It thrashes when it's touched, flinching and snarling as it rips itself away from its new trIner, glaring at them venomously. It expects to be hurt when physical contact is applied, it associates pain with the hand of man lays upon it. It's extra territorial with food and bedding, as that was often used against it. It's easily overwhelmed by attention directed to it because it's only ever been addressed when exercising the will of its old master

It's never known gentleness, or love, or companionship. The concept of trust is incredibly foreign to the poor thing. It can hardly comprehend a reality where safety isn't something that has to be fought, or where resources are just freely given. It couldn't imagine a world where the stench of human doesn't cause a spike of fear and loathing

But eventually, it learns. Let's say its new trainer is Hilda. She not only gives it basic Pokémon food, but often other treats as well like Poké Cubes or macarons. She gives it a bell with a chime that just soothes all it's deep-seated hurt. She doesn't yell at it, she doesn't flinch when it abruptly bites. She knows it knows nothing else. She constantly talks to it softly and gently. She figures out where it likes to be scratched and stroked oh-so sweetly

And it comes to a point where Hydregion forgets Frustration because that is how happy it is. Instead, it learns Return as it increasingly warms up to her

It'll purr now when her hand reaches over. It asks for belly rubs. Maybe it even gets to a point where Hilda is told by a vet that she needs to stop giving Hydregion so many treats, because it's now plump and absolutely spoiled rotten. Perhaps it likes to lay at her and nap there, as there's no safer place to be rest than in its trainer's personal space. It'll bug her, demanding pets and attention. It'll rountinely bring her a ball for a game of fetch, no matter the situation or where they are or what she's doing. It probably even begs from her every time she's eating, begging for just /one/ more fry

So essentially, it behaves just like the rest of her Pokémon, who all act as her partners when in combat, but become just her pets outside of battle

And then, it all reaches a point where it goes from hitting opponents with Frustration at max power to hitting them with Return at max power

That's the fate I want for Ghetsis's Hydregion. The poor thing deserves so much better

[foxbear-night]

CaptainWidow has my heart and soul. While it's called the solider and the spy, we all really know it's knight x princess actually. Like he'll worship her, call her beautiful as he kisses every single of her scars, move mountains for her, and protect her from behind his shield. And oh, he's squaring up to anyone who dares to disrespect her

It's also brimming with mutual pining paired with them both knowing the other has feelings for them, but won't say anything

And like...you cannot rip away the headcanon that Natasha deep down actually wants kids. She never really got to think about it, because the choice was made for her. But if she could, she would definitely want a family. And Steve would give her that. In the one universe that they're together, they literally have a son (though I prefer the idea of them having a daughter. Girl dad Steve, and it'd be so healing for Natasha to have a little girl specifically)

But also, they cannot keep their hands off each other. They have this weird fwb situationship going on, bc they sleep together regularly. Natasha denies herself Steve, believing he deserves better, but she cannot tell him or herself no when he touches and kisses her just ever so. She's too weak to push him away, it's like a flower trying to refuse sunlight. And Steve, never willing to love another after her, takes advantage every time. it's the only way she lets him dote on her, the only way she can accept his affection and his murmured sweet nothings, his gentleness and his heart. She only lets him love on her in the sheets because while she may have the strength to keep them out of a relationship, she doesn't have it in her to completely reject him, and somehow being loved by him is the most addicting thing in the world

And each time, it's never rough, it's never fast, or brutal, or selfish. Every time, they're making love. Steve is so, so attentive to her and her every need

They're also switches, but Steve just prefers being her service top (for lack of a better word). He loves worshipping her. When Natasha is on top, it's when Steve isn't doing that great. For him, topping is a matter of worshipping her; for her, it's a matter of comforting him

She's particularly lovey-dovey when she's straddling him. Kisses, massages, a lot of caressing and trailing her fingers lightly along his muscle. She never takes, she only gives, just as he does. She might even tell him (again) that she loves him, that she loves him so. While he tries to smother her in his love, she tries to unravel him with it

They're also so, so doomed

My first ever red x blue ship

They also know each other like the back of each other's hands

And oh, they share the same blood time

Which is perhaps how Nat gets her womb back in the first place, the super soldier serum in her helps her grow it back

And she won't even know til she takes a pregnancy test and finds out she's expecting

[yourenotdonefighting]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

It’s been a while!

Feels good to finally share this one. 🫶🏻🫶🏻

There’s a hunger in the way he moves now, years of restraint shattering like glass. His hands roam, not in a rush, but like he’s memorizing her, tracing the curve of her waist, the dip of her spine. Every touch feels like he's confessing, saying, I’ve wanted this for so long. I’ve loved you for so long.

Natasha feels like she’s burning, unraveling under the press of his body and the way his lips move against hers. Every brush of his fingers sends a spark through her so intense that she can barely fight back the rush of emotion threatening to break free.

It takes a moment, but she realizes that she knew it would be like this. Because that’s who they are — who they’ve always been — to each other. They’re like magnets, drawn together in a way that has always felt inevitable.