Searching For Peace In A Tormented Mind

Idk who or what I am anymore I just want to be a tree ~Giulia~25~Australia~

[dajo42]

need a polite way to say "im not engaging in a discussion on this topic with you because the conclusions you have reached are based on so many interwoven layers of misconceptions it would be easier to just like, hard reset your whole brain, just start over as a baby and try again"

[state-of-nature-blog]

me to me: you stress me out

[shamebats]

"it's just stress" oh thank god, it's just the silent killer that slowly kills you, perfectly harmless, no need to worry

[fragmentingsanity]

Dear friend,

Today was Stanislav's funeral. It was horrible. I felt this pit of dispair for mum and aunty lidia. And nothing but scorn for the man. To hear these people say those things about him knowing how he had treated his own blood. I wish it could have been better closure for them. I realised it was the closest me and my brothers ever got to meeting him. Terribly sad for all the wrong reasons. I'm glad our dealings with those people can be over. They've been nothing but disrespectfuk to mum and lidia, let alone leading to and after his death. He will be here with us like he was here in life. Not at all. I think mum is so sad becuase she always hoped he would make an effort again, and now he can't because he's gone. From what I've heard of him it is probably for the best he never did return really. He was a liar and a coward, and could only face him on his literal death bed. "Jebi ga". That's all he had to say after 30 years. Well in the words of a member of your own congregation, a community you built on lies to replace the life you created "brate mili gde je taj otišao u rajj ili u pakao".

I hope mum and aunty lidia can find peace

Love always,

Giulia

[life-spire]

[honeydewdrops333]

what doesn’t kill you makes your nervous system more sensitive for the rest of your life

[possessable]

it's fine i don't even need to be part of social groups or friend groups anyway (giant hole appears in my chest spontaneously) ? what's that

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

just because you stopped being an overachieving gifted child, that doesn’t mean you don’t have loads of potential still

[amouthfulloflove]

“To survive, I had to stay unfamiliar to myself, neutralized, at arm’s length. Sometimes, I think, all these years later, I’m still hunting the part of myself I exiled.”

Places I’ve Taken My Body; ‘The Broken Country: On Disability and Desire’ by Molly McCully Brown

[thoughtkick]

“It’s amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces.”

— Unknown

[gnocchioli]

Imagine all the things I could do if I just did them.

[tordenvejr]

ur not evil babe ur experiencing a human emotion

[cheshmenoor]

[cozyvu]

via cozyvu

[arjunasearth]

Needed this today, fr

[thoughtkick]

“I demolish my bridges behind me- then there is no choice but to move forward.”

— Fridtjof Nansen

[fragmentingsanity]

Dear friend,

I feel so alone it hurts.

I hope you're doing well

Love always,

Giulia

[kiefbowl]

I love when people are like “I can’t believe you reblogged that despite their user name, icon, bio, and last twenty posts” bc to me my dash is the only part of this website and I’m not slowing down to look at urls you could all be the same person

[twisted-little-fairy-story]

#spiritual successor is people being like why didnt you read my pinned before you reblogged!!!#dude i am not. i am not vetting every blog#i am here to backread for 45mins and rb 30 posts in a row and disappear#tumblr life