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the air , stale , thick with the scent of scorched circuits & antiseptic . outside , streets of new york , bustling with lively people & opportunity , long dead — choked with smoke , ash , & distant , never-ending groan of the infected .
standing over the holographic display table , arms crossed tightly across chest , gaze flicking between power grid readouts & perimeter breach warnings . once-pristine business attire has since been swapped for tactical gear // light , practical , & stained with weeks of desperate survival .
❝ tony , ❞ quietly , without turning . bracing yourself for a difficult subject . discussion often visited , & harder to converse each time . but one that needs to be had nonetheless . ❝ we'll need to make a supply run ... morgan is down for her nap , i think sooner than later would be wise . sue will stay & babysit . ❞
finally facing , eyes softening just a fraction at the sight of him . ❝ i know you don't like it when i go out there , but i have to help , & the others deserve a rest . reed hasn't slept in days , ben is preoccupied with getting the hydro-scrubbers back online , johnny is on surveillance & sue is caring for franklin & tending to survivors . i can't ask her to take my place . ❞ those blue hues are stern . potts defiance at its best . even if tony advised against it , she leaves very little room for argue . ❝ they're thinning out near the east sector . i've been watching the drone footage . if we slip out now , we could be back before anyone realizes we're gone . ❞
hand reaching , holding his , pulling as she settles in front , closing distance . ❝ just a quick in & out , i promise . ❞ voice gentle , expression lightening , warmth in the way she looks at @styhrk . ❝ we stick to a plan . no improvising . i can't afford to worry about you if things go haywire , not after what happened last time when someone decided to wing it ... & rhodey ... ❞ words barely escape before pain surfaces , it's not slow & gradual , it's stabbing & ever present . ❝ i can't lose you ... ❞ forehead presses against the other , weight of such remorse is crumbling . tear lined eyes become heavy . // you've already lost so much // friends , family , too many names . too much grief . any sense of normalcy , of faith severely dwindling . if not for tony & morgan ... a grave outcome you dare not entertain .
nothing is going to happen . everything will be okay // & yet , familiar words taunt , mocking // what was it ? oh yes .... you're in a relationship with me , nothing will ever be okay .
but this wasn't his fault , no one could have predicted or prepared & we're still breathing , still fighting . surviving .
❝ there was a time when i used to believe the worst thing that could happen was losing you to your work . to this , to iron man ... ❞ a beat , fingertips brushing along the cool metallic coating of the gauntlet adorning her arm . parts of rescue that are fully operational , the damaged bits still in recovery & repair , but she has enough of it to get the job done . or so she hopes . ❝ now … i think your work might be the only thing keeping us all from falling apart . ❞ corner of lips curls upward , head lifting to capture gaze . ❝ you built me this suit , baby ... i'll be safe out there ... we can do this & then we can lounge on the couch after, watching one of morgan's favorite movies . just us as a family . ❞
brow raised . ❝ … eco-erotica ? did you just make that up ? is that even a thing ? — second thought , don't answer that . ❞ because you definitely don't want to open that door . // & did he just say that ? biodegradable mulch ... as if any word could be sexy when moaned . ❝ tony , ❞ your turn to be a little snarky . ❝ if you ever — ever — utter the phrase ' moan the words biodegradable mulch ' again in my presence , I will personally send you to live in the green house . with the worms . ❞ beat . just long enough for him to think of a counter . ❝ & no , you don’t get to name them . ❞ but the corners of mouth twitch — just enough — & a sigh through her nose , the kind of exhale only reserved for stark-induced theatrics .
❝ you know what’s really kinky , mister stark ? ❞ foot lifts , nudges his ankle . a playful sort of heat behind it . ❝ — a clean compost bin . labeled . alphabetized . organized . now that gets me going . ❞ smirk more defined , tone casually lethal as she adds . ❝ try whispering ' aerated tumblers ' next time & see what happens . ❞
composure barely contained , smile broadening , a laugh rumbling within chest . shake of head , chuckling . ❝ god , please don't do that though , i'm not sure i'll be able to take you seriously ... you're ruining composting for me ! ❞
sobering . another glance at wedding band adorning his finger . a warmth filling inside . he may joke , but the sentiment is there . in those dark pools of infinite emotion , speak a thousand words . ❝ i suppose this means we're at a truce then . you ditch your mistress & i'll stop threatening to resign ... besides , if i resigned , i'd miss out on all of that quality time with my assistant . he's very sweet , you should meet him . ❞ will tony call your bluff ? probably , but it wont prevent the initial jealous reaction aimed to gain . such a tease .
closer you've managed to position . as he talks of nostalgia , clear blame directed at your's truly & no regrets . she likes that he's become sentimental . sharing in that emotional hoarding // yes , she's also kept some things too . guilty as charged // small trinkets , memories in the shape of objects gathered throughout the years . symbolism of them , of her & their baby . how their daughter's art finds its way onto the workshop's wall . special spot , in the spotlight , exclusive to morgan stark . nothing gets thrown away without madame secretary's approval & even then , sometimes , the discarded scribblings end up on display . // still , there's always opportunity to poke fun . affectionately . ❝ i may have planted that seed , but you enjoy holding onto those tokens of us , our life . — just promise me you’re not hiding a drawer labeled ' pepper things ' somewhere in the lab . i swear if I find a napkin with my lipstick on it , we’re having a serious talk . ❞
fingers intertwine , comfort & assurance in his touch . topic of procreate , seems to excite . & pepper can't deny the want for another child . perhaps she's ovulating , maybe it's baby fever , whichever the case , this feels right . aside from the decision to have morgan , she's never felt so sure . just needed to hear it from his lips . ❝ you really want to do it all over again ? the bottles , the 3AM pacing , the tiny socks that somehow never have a match ? ❞ laughs softly , but there's no mockery in it , only that tender awe in that he still , somehow , manages to surprise her after all this time .
sudden smooth shift on the sofa . straddling tony's lap , you don't intend to stay in this position , you know exactly where it'll lead , your back on the cushions & moaning his name . & there's nothing more enticing . ❝ alright , mister stark ... ❞ because you know , you KNOW the ramifications of speaking those words will have . deliberate on the timing . ❝ we can make a baby ... ❞ hovering , lips brush upon , slow & sensual , tasting with the tip of tongue . sound of pleasure hums back of throat . ❝ but you're on first diaper duty ... that's the deal . ❞ whisperings that mean nothing , for all your attention is on how he's making you feel . body radiating , hips rolling to grind against . yoga pants are too constricting . clothes become a nuisance , an irritation . obstacle between what so desperately is needed . slim digits tug at the hem of blouse , pulling off and tossing over behind . scarlet red bra revealed . you'll allow him to do the honors of removing the rest .
❝ now let me see what not having restraint is like ... ❞
complexion flushes . blood rushing to surface , coloring freckled cheeks , sliding down slope of neck & dipping between rounded flesh . topic of that night . of passion & ecstasy . of being devoured & worshiped by the very one standing in front . // oh yes , that night // ❝ i remember you leaving me there alone . ❞ generous in how polite the message is delivered . make no mistake , a fire brewing beneath that pretty little redhead .
heels dig into floor . arms folding across chest . hip cocked . tone set . because you feel necessary to defend & counter . ❝ well , let me see ... a man who's built a weapons empire , invents a clean energy revolution , flies around in a metal suit , but couldn't seem to remember the one thing his ceo is allergic to — i’d say that’s worth mentioning a few times . ❞
& there it is , that infamous stark temper , the short fuse . triggering subject . // don't like competition stark ? // words too harsh to speak , but apparent nonetheless . in the way gaze locks , stabbing , intense . like daggers — if looks could kill , this one would freeze hell over . ❝ i never said you were an ass . ❞ but if the shoe fits . remaining in place . doesn't flinch , or bat an eye when other straightens tie like he's still the man in charge of more than just the room . accompanied by that well tailored macho persona , default settings when tensions rise . a wall to hide behind . it's so much easier to be angry than sad // you know he's hurting , & acting out // desperate to fix whatever this is between , to bring you home . if only she wasn't seeing red too .
corralled against desk . for each step maneuvered forward ; herded , cornered . you manage to hold ground . mouth forming a thin line , practiced , weaponized .
❝ if you believe my capabilities as ceo are inadequate , if my job performance has declined or become unsatisfactory , then you're within your right to terminate me . but you & i both know that isn't remotely true ... & should you keep threatening me with rank , well , i'm told hammer industries is hiring . ❞ said with perfect diction , every syllable clipped like it's folded into a contract & signed in ink . but a meaningless warning it is . he knows , as does she , that is never a possibility . nor a desire or want . the thought of working for that lunatic , let alone occupying the same space as , makes her gut uneasy .
❝ tony , stop . that's enough , you're being ridiculous , you know exactly why i'm not going . ❞ as if point needed to be made . closed gap . distance — lack there of — becomes noticed . a moment . line of sight falters , wavering , flickering onto his lips . that smug smirk . way in which he waits for those three words to leave your mouth ' yes , mister stark ' . expectant . arrogance , bravado & him in every inch of that smile . the draw is there . gravity pulling & surrounding . so close she can feel his breath , how those dark eyes consume . your own fierce & focused . but hunger lies beneath . again , the irresistible urge . same one that started it all . that threw them into an evening of pleasure . of forgetting & just be .
❝ as i said , i'm not going , mister stark . ❞ then why is everything screaming for the opposite ?
mutuals only & highly selective susan storm . heavily mcu based . minors & personals dni . dash only . written by drainnie . ( 30+ , she/her , slow activity )
&. 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐬.
( this is basically just a very self indulgent list of various fluff, angst, and suggestive themed dialogue sentence starters. )
❛ i could keep you safe. they’re all afraid of me. ❜
❛ i’m trying to fix your hair, so hold still. ❜
❛ your heart is beating so fast right now. ❜
❛ promise me you’ll still be here when i wake up. ❜
❛ you’re not as bad as everyone says you are. ❜
❛ i thought you’d like some company. ❜
❛ clean yourself up. you're getting blood all over the place. ❜
❛ here, give this a try and tell me what you think. ❜
❛ you can kiss me, you know. ❜
❛ come back to bed. ❜
❛ you look good like this. ❜
❛ working together again, it’s just like old times. ❜
❛ how is it you always know what i need, huh? ❜
❛ you’re lucky you got away with only a scratch. ❜
❛ i can’t imagine losing someone like that. i’m sorry. ❜
❛ you know you can always talk to me. ❜
❛ the only one who gets to kill you, is me. ❜
❛ so, what do i owe this pleasure? ❜
❛ ah, so you aren’t heartless after all. ❜
❛ may i have this dance? ❜
❛ it’s okay, you can touch me. i won't break. ❜
❛ enemies make the best lovers, you know. ❜
❛ hold still. this might sting a little. ❜
❛ we can't keep doing this. ❜
❛ you look like you've got something to say. ❜
❛ just relax and let me take care of you. ❜
❛ thought you’d be lighter without all that blood. ❜
❛ i had it under control. you didn’t need to do that. ❜
❛ everything looks so beautiful from up here. ❜
❛ you treat all your ladies like this? ❜
❛ well? how do i look? ❜
❛ can’t sleep? ❜
❛ do you mind if i smoke? ❜
❛ i’m scared of ending up alone. ❜
❛ i don’t think i’ve ever seen you smile. ❜
❛ how long has it been since you've slept? ❜
❛ you are losing my interest, and that’s very dangerous. ❜
❛ i’d suffer hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight. ❜
❛ you look really pretty right now. ❜
❛ i’ve never cared for anyone the way i care for you. ❜
❛ i’m not wearing any underwear. thought you’d like to know. ❜
❛ just a few more stitches and you’ll be as good as new. ❜
❛ i’d say we make a pretty good team. ❜
❛ i want you to forget this ever happened. ❜
❛ i'm here for business — not pleasure. ❜
❛ if i didn't know any better, i'd say you were jealous. ❜
❛ you'd look better down on your knees. ❜
❛ fine, keep acting like you hate me. ❜
❛ kiss me again. ❜
❛ are you asking me out on a date? ❜
❛ just sit there and look pretty and let me handle this. ❜
❛ you okay? caught you staring off into space again. ❜
❛ well, i do feel better now that you're here. ❜
❛ i'm not drunk enough for this. ❜
❛ why is it whenever we see each other, you’re covered in blood? ❜
❛ i was wrong about you. ❜
❛ the first time i met you, i had no idea you'd mean this much. ❜
❛ you gonna be a good girl / boy for me? ❜
❛ i’m not afraid of you. ❜
❛ books mean more to me than people anyway. ❜
❛ i just wanted to say thank you for protecting me. ❜
❛ how about a kiss goodnight? ❜
❛ i don’t have time for distractions right now. ❜
❛ you shouldn’t be out here by yourself. ❜
❛ if i have to think about one more thing today, my head will explode. ❜
Oh , I hope you know I will carry you home , Whether it's tonight or 55 years down the road .
@styhrk
IRON MAN 3 2013, dir. Shane Black
measured , steady — the calm after the storm . ❝ you always do this too , you know — ❞ the way your words fall like confessions . & he's trying to keep it together , to keep from breaking . so tender & loving . softness behind the armor , when there’s no one here but me . ❝ being too hard on yourself , ❞ // & she sees you . not the rumors , gossip . not how the media portrays . not the genius , billionaire , philanthropist . just you . tired , raw , savior of half the universe — & through it all , still choosing her , choosing them // thoughts filter through , though they don't leave her lips , there's plenty to be said within those blue eyes . staring , holding , pouring own soul .
he doesn't want it sugar coated . ❝ i won’t lie to you & pretend it didn’t hurt. i won’t rewrite the pain , or the days you were gone , the nights i slept with my hand over my stomach , wondering if you’d make it home in time to meet our baby . but i also won’t pretend i don’t know you . this is who you are & i signed on well aware of the risks & challenges we'd face . you're stubborn , infuriatingly so , ❞ small smile makes appearance . ❝ but you are also selfless , & i know you wouldn't have been able to rest had you turned back around . ❞ a pause , fingertips idly glide along his chest . ❝ maybe i hated that you left , ❞ breath wavers slightly , ❝ but i never hated why . ❞
honesty . how lighter you feel , how much easier it is to breathe . ❝ & you’re not nothing without the suit , or the tech … you are & have always been more than the iron mask you’ve worn . besides — you & i both know your tech & gadgets are coming with us . we’re relocating , downsizing … but we can still live comfortably & incorporate that part of our lives . ❞ assurance . compromise . they needn’t go cold turkey . ❝ yes … it's scary to think about , we've lived this lifestyle for so long , & no i wasn't worried dealing with you in the secluded , country life ... not until you said it like that , ❞ soft laughter , nose crinkled as she grins . ❝ on second thought , maybe we should reconsider ... ❞ playful quip , pepper has already decided . lakeside & cozy cabin is where home is .
❝ you sure that's what you want ? to argue over vegetables & raise chickens ? ❞ a glimmer of mischief reflects . ❝ then again , seeing you doing some farm work in jeans & a flannel would be really hot ... ❞ simper curls onto mouth as she leans in for a gentle kiss . mind swarming with ideas . this dream of rustic , rural living , this is where she believes that maybe ... possibly he can start healing too . tony has spent most of his life protecting those he cares about , fighting the good fight , laying down on the wire . it's time to allow himself to be a little selfish , to retire , stay home , & save himself . & for once …. i get to keep you .
conversation shifts , topic of the beautiful creation they've made . a bundle of joy whose name her father so unintentionally assigned . // you can't help but to tease // ❝ the name ... no , i wouldn't be able to take credit for it , i had an ex-boyfriend named morgan , seemed fitting ... ❞ complete lie , but you'll let him sweat that one out for a minute . ❝ don't you think ? it's the perfect name for our baby girl or boy , very versatile . ❞ okay , he's suffered enough . ❝ i'm joking , honey ... i picked morgan because of you & that silly dream . ❞
mention of wedding , marry me , echoes . mood becoming somber . ❝ you know my answer .... ❞ but that's not what he's asking . ❝ i thought i wanted a big ceremony with an impressive guest list to match ... but that isn't so anymore . i just want you . " you're enough for me . ❝ & depending on when we're able to get married ... i may have to have my dress altered . ❞ indicating she might have a baby bump by the time he's well enough . ❝ or we could do it sooner , i'll sit right beside you in this bed & say our vows . ❞
presence made known , brush of cotton against calf . corner of lips in slight upturn . eyes scanning over written text , ears attuned to his voice . // flash of something shiny -- three somethings to be exact , glimmering beneath light , diverts attention // ❝ if you consider composting to be spicy material , then yes , i'm definitely indulging in some class A content . very riveting & hot . ❞ gaze lingering on his wedding band . he catches on .
the witty remark warrants a sarcastic reply . ❝ is that so ? i didn't realize you felt so tied down & caged . who knew a ring was all that kept you from the temptation of adultery . ❞ you know he's trying to ruffle some feathers , gain a reaction & you're quick to reciprocate the playfulness . ❝ well , you can tell your ' mistress ' to start doing your laundry & pitch in with cleaning the house & cooking . missus stark is taking a break from marital duties effective immediately . ❞ smirk that follows conveys a sense of teasing . trademark bantering .
but what tony says next has her faltering . a warmth filling within , radiating . she inspects each diamond as he points them out . ❝ & here i thought you weren't the nostalgic type .... ❞ smile widens // memory serves right , * i've been called many things . nostalgic is not one of them * // words once spoken during a different time , now less true than ever . & she enjoys making it known . as much as he might deny , pepper sees through the facade & bravado . tony is a sentimental man .
transition so smooth , that grin making her nearly swoon . those dark eyes , smoldering , dangerous . you're weak for them . you ache for him . to feel every inch . // open invitation to be ravished , still you hesitate // ❝ careful what you wish for mister stark , you may not be prepared for the results . i might end up having triplets ... & i'm not so sure we're equipped to handle three more additions at once . ❞ not exactly opposing the idea of a second child , but she can't help to beg the question ... are they ready for one more ? ❝ who knows , i could be carrying the next line of stark geniuses right now ... crazier odds have happened ... & you've been unable to keep your hands off of me . it's a wonder i haven't popped out another baby sooner . ❞ so nonchalant , but you know this conversation is about to shift & dive deep.
book set aside , body turned toward // you're not getting any younger // mind taunts . talks of expanding their family has never been explicitly discussed . not to this degree . ❝ do you want another baby , tony ? is that what you're asking ? ❞ blue hues search for any trace of the contrary , any sign this request isn't genuine . morgan was never intended to be an only child , pepper has always considered having another , she just hasn't expressed that with tony . ❝ because there's no going back if i get pregnant ... ❞
abrupt entrance . not so surprising . a frequent occurrence , like second nature , tolerant , background noise . after years of tony walking into her office unannounced // well there was always certainly a self appointed announcement , the drama queen that he is // she’s grown accustomed to such presence & invasion of privacy . Often welcoming the intrusion … but that was then and this is now . and now they’re … it’s complicated .
sound of his voice , how it flutters along your eardrums , bringing awareness , attention . you don’t want to seem interested or desperate — though every fibre in your being is bursting at the seams . beneath layers of emotion , one stands out amongst the rest . frustration . mild anger . still , you’re civil … to an extent . // boy does he know exactly how to push your buttons // to test the waters , press boundaries . mere mention of the unspeakable — wonderful , erotic , euphoric — memories spent on very desk , against these walls , on the sofa , has blood rushing . coloring freckled cheeks . but she's quick to dismiss . or at least attempts .
❝ careful mister stark or you might find yourself adding sexual harassment to your portfolio , alongside the pending physical assault charges … & i can promise you , my lawsuit is much more expensive . ❞
gaze glances at coffee offered // starbucks venti , caramel macchiato , extra shot espresso , just as you like it // so he does pay attention .
❝ you know , the last time you gave a peace offering , it could have sent me to the hospital . ❞ exaggerated , dramatic , but she's in a feisty mood & can anyone blame her ? ❝ just to be sure , you didn't have the barista add any strawberry cold foam by accident , did you ? ❞ brow arched , fingertips grasping the cup and turning it as though she were inspecting the beverage for suspicious contents . again , the sass . ❝ i'd hate to have an allergic reaction ... i'm sure my date tonight wouldn't appreciate me having to cancel . ❞ oh & did she mention she has a new male in her life ? skipped over that detail didn't you ? // let him sweat it out for a while // he'll discover she's adopted a feline companion soon enough .
pepper sets the coffee back down , leaning against the edge of her desk . hand on hip . ❝ you're right , you said what you said & i respected your wishes . i understand you were upset , tony , but you don't get to come in here like this & expect me to just put everything aside because you don't want to go alone . ❞ that came out a little too harsh , the intention isn't to wound . she's stressed & hurting & the off & on between them is becoming overwhelming . ❝ look , i know i'm ceo , & originally we planned to attend together , i still support this project & your ideas ... i just ... i have a lot to handle right now . ❞ i can't be with you , i don't trust myself .
❝ you didn't exactly leave me with a clean plate after that night , after we ... you know what i mean . i had to stay behind & pick up after your mess . ❞
THE SOUNDS OF NIGHTMARES SENTENCE STARTERS .
a collection of roleplay / writing prompts , lifting quotes from " the sounds of nightmares " podcast based in the little nightmares universe .
" the look on your face says there's more on your mind . "
" would you like to talk about it ? "
" how are you feeling today ? "
" do you remember your nightmares ? "
" i remember ... everything . "
" i'm not sure that's true . "
" i woke up somewhere i didn't belong . "
" i don't quite follow . "
" can you try to explain ? "
" you can't understand . not unless you were there . "
" hey ! where are we ?! "
" they aren't children . not at all . "
" my mind was divided , and that's not fair to you . "
" everything is going to get worse from here . "
" help me ! please help me ! "
" who brought me here ? "
" i'll do everything i can to help you . "
" there's nothing bad inside you . nothing . "
" we're in this together . "
" take your pick . "
" sweets for my sweet . "
" do you know a way out of here ? "
" what are you working on ? "
" we're friends . friends tell each other things . "
" i'll play with you . "
" don't overdo it . "
" you were right there ! don't tell me you did nothing ! "
" you're upset with me , aren't you ? "
" are you going to leave ? like all the others ? "
" whatever you desire , it's yours . "
" everyone needs someone . "
" don't leave me alone ! "
" are you still angry with me ? "
" i'll protect you . "
" i hate being alone . "
" i understand more than you think . "
" you mean to escape , don't you ? "
" you're being unfair . "
" i can't help you if you hide things from me . "
" why did you bring me here ? "
" what do you want ? "
" why didn't you tell me ? "
" you promised me . "
" i don't feel like talking . "
" you never listen . "
" we can face these monsters together . "
" i need you . "
" i have nothing more to give . "
" take my hand again . "
" you abandoned me . "
" the more time you spend with someone , the harder it becomes to hide who you really are . "
kiss that promises , entices , tells their whole story , lips devour his own . desperate . heat , desire , passion , love . so many intense emotions , sensations intertwined . consuming , engulfing , taking over . a plethora of feelings . at the center of it all is him . it's always been him . she watches as he crumbles , falling apart at the seams . filling her with his seed . the moans & groans are beautiful , a symphony of ecstasy , music to her ears . a sound she could never tire of hearing . tony is so vulnerable in this way . so open & trusting . a sight no one is permitted to witness but herself. // and you take it for granted // dark voice stings at back of mind . harsh truths . like all good things this too must end .
he disembarks , the loss of his warmth , of his everything is a rude awakening . pepper fixes self , dress wrinkled , hair disheveled . she does her best to regain a semblance of that poised & pristine demeanor the world affiliates her with . // you can smooth bunched fabric , comb out tangled locks , adjust smeared lipstick , but you can't cover up the effect he has . the hold he has on your heart // she's so weak , so close to allowing exactly what he's silently asking for , begging . but then he speaks , pouring very soul into each syllable .
the full impact of his words strike like daggers . // because you know what comes next . you know what needs to be said // eyes lock onto tony . body having moved to its own accord , lessening the gap .
❝ tony ... ❞ soft , affectionate . hand reaches & grabs other . ❝ i love you , i love you so much ... that was never in question ... ❞ but , because there's always a but . // please , don't hate me //
❝ you mean everything to me , ❞ necklace lays heavy on collar bone . as if the weight of it could drag her down , pressure against chest is crushing , breathing feels harder . its symbolism undeniable . tony's heart in physical representation . // he wanted you to have this . he gave you his heart & look how you broke it // ❝ i ... i'm not ready to come home ... ❞ watery gaze tries to convey how sorry she is . ❝ you still don't understand why we need this ... ❞ a conversation having had many times & each time it doesn't get any easier or hurt any less . ❝ it kills me . i don't want to do this , tony , but i have to . i still want you , i wouldn't have done what we just did if i didn't , please don't think i'm calling it quits on us because that couldn't be farther from the truth . ❞
fingers gently squeeze , tears layer lash line . she can't hide from him . ❝ i want to come home . i want to be in your arms , this hasn't been easy for me . i can't sleep most nights ... nothing is enjoyable ... it's cold & lonely without you , ❞ color seemingly stripped from life . flavorless existence . how dependent you've become to love . ❝ but if i give in now , i might regret it . ❞ liquid sorrow slips down freckled cheeks . ❝ & i don't want to see us fall apart , i feel like things haven't been quite the same since killian & sokovia , ultron ... ❞ pause , almost deafening silence . those words are borderline sensitive & triggering . ❝ i'm doing this for us . i just need a little more time . ❞ even as she expresses , in hopes of easing his worries , deep down she knows nothing other than what he wants to hear will stop the pain ❝ baby , please try to understand ... this isn't goodbye forever . i'm still yours ... ❞ i will always be yours . ❝ you're all i have . ❞
how aware you become of his discomfort , his turmoil & suffering . quick to lend aid , to show support , be the shoulder he can lean on . you close the gap between , sliding into that cozy nook , nestled against his body & bed frame . feels like home . pepper holds that sorrowed gaze , the guilt consuming , she knows he blames himself & this only adds to the running tab of problems & catastrophes tony feels responsible for . if only she could lighten the burden , take away the pain .
❝ tony , don't ... ❞ because she can see the self sabotage , the way his eyes -- those beautiful dark eyes -- wallowing with remorse . regret trickling down from , she lifts a hand to wipe the tears . ❝ don't do this to yourself ... we can't change what happened ... you didn't know ... how could you have ? i held onto this secret , i should have told you sooner . ❞ but even then you know it wouldn't have altered anything . he still would have went on that ship . because he had to , because he wanted to . because he's iron man .
was iron man .
❝ what ... what are you saying ? ❞ words of promise , of guarantee . // i'm done // they echo in her head . the woman has heard them before , not exact , but similar in meaning // this feels real // there's a new found sense of determination , tone somber & sincere . not to discredit past assurances & promises made // his intentions were always good // but he seems so sure , no trace of hesitation . more motivated & certain . a part of her wants to believe . but believing takes time . ❝ tony , are you ... is that what you want ? ❞ again, she'll inquire , offering him the chance to reconsider or think it through . the man is known for making rash decisions . still , there's something different .
❝ -- and did i hear you say a cabin ? ❞ so full of questions tonight , but his responses warrant investigation , clarity . ensuring it isn't the influence of sedatives or exhaustion warping his mind into saying things they've only ever discussed jokingly or briefly . // it's not a terrible idea given the circumstances // you've thought about it once or twice . painted a pretty little picture of raising a family outside of the urban district . what's stopping you now from making it reality ? ❝ are you suggesting we leave the city ? ❞ she's not opposing . definitely curious but also a bit frightened . change is never easy . ❝ can you handle the quiet of country living ? ❞ small smile makes an appearance .
hand then guides his palm to her stomach . ❝ morgan is just fine . ❞ eyes slightly glossy , revealing the name chosen // picked // before tony knew he was a father . ❝ the doctor said he or she is growing healthy & strong . and even though morgan is just the size of a sweet pea , they're already causing mommy some difficulty . the mood swings aren't exactly fun sometimes & i am constantly craving foods i don't think i've ever really had a taste for . i have a feeling they're going to take after you . i'll be outnumbered . ❞
he's saying the right words , touching the right places , letting her rise , only to be there when she falls . // hanging on the edge . verge of eruption , but she knows it won't last forever . // the taunting , teasing . well aware , tony enjoys the build up , the struggle // nothing is more rewarding & sweeter than causing your partner mind numbing pleasure // to the point of madness . of instability . loss of control & coherency . devoid of all concept of time & surroundings . // she loves it too // each jolt of ecstasy -- bursting , striking , carving out along lithe frame like an electric current -- rendering pepper completely helpless . enslaved by it , overwhelmed by the emotions & sensations .
body trembling , legs quivering as they wrap around waist , pushing him closer , forcing his length deeper . hips arch , back lifting , chin turned upward , head pressing into table as she moans & gasps & cries out . repeating his name . all for him , all because of him .
muscles taut , her heat clenching , squeezing around his member . so so close . stars begin to appear behind dazed eyes . the tall tale signs of that much anticipated peak is apparent across flushed complexion . ❝ don't stop ... please , don't stop ❞ as if it were even a possibility at this point . // he's hooked on you , he has you , he loves you //
i got you , i always got you . meaning behind words , symbolic of everything they are were. // you know exactly what he's trying to say // an ache rooted within , sense of yearning , longing , pining , intertwines . it's too much . too encompassing . and she collapses . yielding . fingertips biting into skin . clutching . tension within snaps , sending her hurtling towards climax so quickly she doesn't know what to do or where to go . just surrenders & endures , letting it tear her down , knowing he is there to catch her . holding tightly , waves rippling through again & again . only one thing on mind , one thing escaping those parted lips . ❝ tony ... tony ... ❞ like a mantra , name fills the space between as pepper rides out her orgasm . but what she really wants to say // i love you //
intimate in the way her voice groans & whimpers . sensual , soft , spent . a scene his eyes are privy to . his alone . limbs feel like liquid , head in a haze . but she's not quite finished . she needs to see him come undone , to let go . ❝ cum inside me , tony ... please , i want to feel you fill me ... ❞ to own me . show me i'm yours .
stare barring into back . shoulders a little tense . she can feel his eyes on her . watching , looking , analyzing every move , taking note of tone . // you never were good at keeping secrets // secrets from him -- he knows , oh god he knows . intuition nudges her . fretting , hands nearly clumsy with pouring a glass of water . avoiding until absolutely necessary . and it becomes necessary rather quickly . // he asks a question . the question // time seemingly stands still .
how far along ?? inhale ... exhale . ❝ six weeks ❞ roughly , she's not certain on the exact -- well , no , that's a lie , you know precisely when // one particular night // everything was so calm , so playful & easy , the two were lost in conversation of wedding plans & honeymoon options ... carefree & absorbed in one another ... a witty comment thrown her way , she blushed & laughed , he smirked & leaned in closer ... a couple of drinks & the rest was history . as it so often was . but out of love . so much love that night . she doesn't regret how it happened . only that he didn't find out sooner .
❝ we had reservations at eight ... i ... i went home after our walk in the park , you remember ? ❞ talks of dreams , of their engagement dinner , of showing off that harry winston on her finger . feels distant now , just a memory . ❝ tony , i tried to tell you ... i wanted you to know ... ❞ turning , facing the other . nothing could mistake the emotion swirling in those blue eyes . feet already stepping ahead , approaching . the water long forgotten . he needs to hear this , he deserves to know .
❝ and then i saw the news , i watched iron man fly onto that ship ... i thought , he couldn't ... maybe it's an unmanned suit ... because he promised me ... you promised ... ❞ lashes become wet . slight tremble of voice .
❝ but when you called , i knew , i knew it was too late . you'd gone on that damned ship and you weren't coming back . so i tried to tell you , i needed you to know ... i was about to say i'm pregnant before the line cut off . these past few weeks all i could think about was what do i tell our baby if daddy doesn't come home ? ❞
raw & painful , confession hangs heavy . heart weighted , feeling crushed reliving such a difficult moment & the days after . she had never been so afraid . // afraid of losing him //
standing at bedside , one hand brushing away stray tear . // intention isn't to hurt or wound // only to inform , to let tony in on the hell she faced . as if he doesn't have own demons tormenting & torturing . this is unfair .
change of pace , because you can't let him wallow in guilt . he did what he had to . ❝ i'm sorry , i feel like a hot mess more often than not lately ... this kid really has me off center , which i suppose they get from you , ❞ small smile appears , watery gaze settles on his . hand reaching , seeking , for comfort , for assurance .
❝ i didn't mean for you to find out this way , but you were right , and you know how much it pains me to admit when you're not wrong . ❞ glimmer of humor etched in freckles & curve of lips . ❝ we're having a baby . ❞
the rustling of fabric , sound of metal clinking , slow draw of zipper . background noise to what she knows happens next . eager to allow such haste . // one so patient & poised // is on the verge of insanity with waiting . every second until he's where he belongs ; between set of slender legs ; legs for days . the need remains persistent . like an itch she can't quite scratch . // satisfaction only he can provide // sense of liberation once he's nested inside . relief .
pepper moans , that initial penetration surges . hands cling to him , grabbing whatever is within reach . he's thick & big & so hard , stretching her , forcing her tight heat to accept him . pausing to adjust . to become acclimated . she whimpers , voice trembling , lithe frame writhing beneath . she feels his mouth latching onto her skin . nibbling , biting , kissing . love notes . marks to remember by . // how you'll try to cover them up , to conceal from others , but you will know it's there . // tony loves to stake claim & she'd be lying to say she doesn't love it too .
❝ tony ... ❞ crease between brows , expression of pleasure . she succumbs . surrendering to him and greedily taking what he's offering . the way he touches her -- thoroughly , possessively , reverently -- holding her near , lifting her leg and driving himself deeper , faster , harder . her head is spinning . there isn't anything she wouldn't say or do right now if he so desired . // yielding to the raw primal need radiating from them both // ❝ feels so good ….. you make me feel so good …. ❞ hips arch up , meeting that frenzied rhythm on their own accord . as if chasing the sensation , desperate for it . her voice echoes , filling the room , the creaking of wood barely noticeable behind the erotic chords of love making . // is that was this is ?? // mind torments the heart , it's more than just fucking , more than releasing tension . an emotional layer , dwelling like dense fog , wraps around like a vice . she's never more in sync with him than she is when so vulnerable & open .
nails dig , teeth clamp onto bottom tier . arousal rushes , hurdling down her spine . settling at her swollen cunt . wetness gathering , so slick . body responding to tony's every reaction & attention . those calloused digits , so deliberate , so skillful . a simple flex of his hand or grip on her thigh has her wriggling . longing . addicted to how he makes her feel . driven wild by it .
tell me how much you missed this ... confession on the brink of escape . influenced by onslaught of lust & ecstasy . words tumble from parted lips , without delay , without second thought . ❝ i missed it so much , fuck , i missed you so much ... ❞ in the midst of flesh slamming against flesh . fingers curling , toes clenching , eyes threatening to close , but she doesn't dare look away . he's so beautiful when unguarded .
hand moves to nape of neck , lips press upon his , hungry , messy , passionate , loving . pouring her soul , devouring his . whispering , gasping his name , over & over around the pressure coiling within . // because you know it'll be the last // in a daze . ❝ please ... tony ... harder ... ❞ overwhelmed . too many sensations to make sense of anything but the feel of him , of what he’s doing to her , for her .
warmth pooling at the pit of stomach . overstimulated . feverishly rolling into , grinding , how his length strokes inside , brushing that sweet spot , she shudders . her sex spasms , wound so snug around him . pulse pounding . breathing rapid . her breasts bouncing with each thrust . any ounce of control is long gone // he always makes you feel as though you're falling to pieces // ❝ oh god ... ❞