Unforgiving Honesty

28-year-old female; mother of one angel & one rainbow; notorious for being crazy, and artsy; posts of trees, cheese and hello kitty with some rants.

[freenothings]

This is an actual message from a father to his children after being shut out of their lives for being an abusive pedophile/narcissist. Apologies for grammar and typos as English is not his first language

"The day I die I want all of you to go to the funeral home to make sure that this MOTHER FUCKER passed away. and that I will be not longer available to help you guys out with money when you needed him . when you needed me that was the time you reached for me to ask for MY HELP and to promiss things you did not intented to comply with I M SORRY FOR MY MISTAKES .... after alI I am a human been. im not beg for your forgiveness ... only to understand that I am not perfect human being . I made a big mistake and I accept your punishment to push me away from your life ... but after all I love you all with all my heart im suffering the consequences of my wrong doing ... this is my biggest agony to have my family and my beloved wife's hearth broken in pieces . But all of you just remember one thing, All of you have fail to do your roll. You have lie, steal, take avantage of my roll as head of the " broken family" that today's I have and you guys take this for granted...as something that you guys deserved. when in reality you do not deserve anything. Your mother and I have taken you under our wings just to get indifference from you guys. all of you don t know how much we love "these kids" we judt speng days weeks waiting to see them/hear their lovely voices...with not avail. This is what we deserve? cool...we are ready to step away. I bought this house just to enjoy it with my grand daughters Now I even do not see them come to visit me for days weeks months.... I kmow it is a human behsvior....everyone have tbeir own responsabilities and we are not part of it. We are doing our lives without you guys and we hope to continued as this has been ........for many years. May god bless you all..

[freenothings]

My mom actually wrote this. (Translated from Spanish)

For my daughter: Of all our children, we hoped that you would be the most successful in life. Being the youngest and born in this country of opportunities, we could give you more than your siblings. However, it has not been like that. You are the one who has made us suffer the most, and for which we have revealed the most. I see you, and I wonder "where is my daughter"? the one that I tried to raise with so much affection, delicacy, education, desire to overcome-- trying to give the best example by working hard to give you a better life. I know that you thought that you did not ask me, but that was my responsibility as a mother (try to give you a better life). It makes me very sad to see you work like a donkey, with a mediocre job that is not for you, where you do not even have for your basic expenses, much less those of Avi. Nor do I see you with the urgency to look for something better. We worry (your father and me) about your future and that of the girl. What example are you going to give your daughter? And I wonder what will happen to their lives the day your dad and I are no longer in this world? I put it in writing because you have selective hearing and you only hear or understand what you want. You do not know how much I've cried for you, so much that I do not even have tears anymore. And I heard your dad crying at bedtime, also worried about your life and wellbeing. You are an intelligent, beautiful and very good-hearted woman, and you let other people take advantage of your kindness. And it can not be like that WAKE UP !! PLEASE!! Your life and your daughter's future depend on what YOU make of her. You do not understand that you can not put your life and well-being at risk to help others. First, you and your daughter. That you have to take care of her and her. Because if something happens to you because you are helping others, that other person is not going to take care of you or Avi. I understand that you want to do things that you like and that you used to do, but everything in life is by stage, there are things that one has to leave behind, and move on with the new in your life. I only ask God, that your daughter does not make you suffer as you have made us suffer.

[beautifulandscary]

I wanna know what people assume about me because of my tumblr.

[telvi1]

Put an assumption in my ask. I’ll confirm or dispute it. I’m not gonna be mean or anything, I’m just very interested. You can go anon if you want.

[workaholiccoffeeaddict]

Let’s hear it. Anon or not.

[beautifulandscary]

I wanna know what people assume about me because of my tumblr.

[telvi1]

Put an assumption in my ask. I’ll confirm or dispute it. I’m not gonna be mean or anything, I’m just very interested. You can go anon if you want.

[workaholiccoffeeaddict]

Let’s hear it. Anon or not.

[vaticanrust]

Sister Rosetta Tharpe. Manchester, 1964

[yohafu-deactivated20190102]

Hey look. It’s the woman who invented rock and roll.

[curlsandstems]

Chadwick Boseman surprises Black Panther fans while they say what the movie means to them.

[choke-on-chocolatee-deactivated]

This is incredible.

[pastel-rainclouds]

[ithelpstodream]

[freenothings]

I guess it's only fitting that this happened on International women's day.

He came home drunk from work pretty much every night this weekend. Tuesday he came home super drunk and he was completely disrespectful because I didn't have dinner ready for him on the table like some 1950s housewife.

I basically ignored him all day Wednesday since we got snowed in, and he was in charge of taking care of the baby while I focused on house work that needed to get done. I called it Mommy's Day Off: I didn't cook, I didn't change diapers, I didn't feed the baby, I just focused on my chores. (So not really much a day off but it was still awesome to organize my closet while listening to Muse and Franz Ferdinand on blast.)

So tonight I sat him down and told him I am done with him coming home drunk and being disrespectful, treating me like some kind of misbehaving house slave. His response was to remind me that he was out there working 60 hours a week to pay for the apartment-- which is great don't get me wrong. I really appreciate that he's been holding it down while I look for a job but I don't think that excuses him from showing me respect and common decency.

He also said "if you leave me I'll kill myself."

I don't deserve to be called a bitch under his breath, I don't deserve to be told that if I'm not home by a certain time on the rare nights that I get to go out with my best girlfriend that I am "never going out again."

It only took 29 years but I finally stood up for myself, I finally put my foot down and said enough is enough. He claims that he didn't threaten suicide to manipulate me into staying, but I'm not so sure about that. If there is one thing I learned about him from our interactions when he's drunk, he definitely thinks a lot of cruel and selfish things. So who knows, maybe he doesn't even realize that he's doing it.

Either way, I'm proud that I put my foot down and no matter what happens I know I can get through it.

[freenothings]

Finally organized my closet and donated a lot of stuff that I don't fit into.

I felt so accomplished with the space and empty hangers that are begging for clothes that reflect my current state in life. Yes, I had such bounce in my step until I realized that I had a sink full of dishes to do before bed.

[tevruden]

[journeyofbeingafirsttimemom]

People are quick to judge when they only see a snippet of your life. If there were cameras filming 24/7 they wouldn’t be judging 🙄

[sieistartsy]

Talk about progress… from sketch to color to paint.

[softjadedsoul]

My shirt came in today and I’m so in love. Thanks @sixpenceee

[stercusaccidit0]

Need this

[adambuffett]

when the sun hits your laptop screen just right 

[sixpenceee]

Self love matters more than anything else. It gives you access to becoming the best, most whole version of yourself.

You can order a shirt here

[iguessmyfishisgay]

I just ordered one. So excited!!!

[eli-aeraeth-deactivated20180331]

i want this

[sixpenceee]

1 DAY LEFT TO ORDER!!!

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[sixpenceee]

THIS SHIRT WILL NOT BE BACK!!!

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[sixpenceee]

#SELF-LOVE MOVEMENT

Hello all! I’ve been talking a lot on my blog about self-love and how important it is! The thing is no one taught us about it and how important it was. In fact from a young age most of us were spoon-fed that anything other than our natural selves was beautiful. Many of us suffer from low self-esteem or depression. And it isn’t an easy road and it’s not going to cure all our problems in one night, but making the attempt to love ourselves is a huge step. 

I thought it would be really important to start a self-love trend. You might be wondering what are the ways one can love their selves. Here they are:

practice mindfulness meditation or guided meditation. there are several meditations out there that help release negative thoughts and emotions. thehonestguys is one of my favorite youtube channels

eat healthy! buy some fresh fruits and veggies. try snacking on healthier products like almonds.

clean out your room or apartment! clean out your closet. get rid of things you dont need.

surround yourself with people who love you and support you. cut out friends who makes you feel worthless and small. 

try and quiet the inner critic inside of you. write down things you like about yourself. 

accept your emotions for what they are. it’s impossible to be happy and positive all the time. accept and embrace any anger, resentment, tension, bitterness but keep in mind everything is temporary and these feelings dont own you.

do a facial, take a warm bubble bath, get your nails done, do a coconut hair mask, put castor oil to make your eyelashes longer, start going to the gym. self-care is so important!

go for long walks, watch a really good movie, buy yourself the tastiest brand of tea, start reading books again. do healthy, things that make you incredibly happy in your own company

The list goes on! Start working towards your self-love goal. It could really change your life. 

Take a picture/video or text of things you did each day for self-love. It could a picture of a bubble bath with rose petals, a glimpse of your journal where you write your positive thoughts, a before/after picture of your room/apartment after you clean it, a picture of a healthy meal you’ve been eating, or an step by step process to your meditation/workout routine! 

Tag @sixpenceee  and #selflovemovement in the text of the post

[nahends]

#selflovemovement

[kat-the-wonder-studyblr]

I really needed this today. Thank you

[alefuckingalien]

Thank you so much

[freenothings]

Exactly what I needed to push away the words of nay-sayers and fakes