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Me lately
“I think Jade has a good reason to be jealous/intimidated by Tori. I would be too if I saw her kiss my boyfriend and then kiss another girl’s (Cat).”
Sevendust
(Favorite Lyrics From Chapter VII: Hope and Sorrow Album)
Pleased to meet the motherfucker with the first slug (Inside)
Cause I can be your friend unless you try to be who I am (Enough)
What’s the reason for you hating me (Hope)
If you would shut the fuck up and listen (Scapegoat)
Seems as though you’re here again (Fear)
I’ve erased the past again (The Past)
This time has just begun (Prodigal Son)
I fucking hate this (Lifeless)
Am I wrong (Sorrow)
I learned a lesson on my first day (Contradiction)
I’m not buying the shit that you’re talking (Walk Away)
I’ll never look at you the same way (Disgust)
Societal Cards
In life, we are given three cards
These cards tell our race, gender, and age group
Believe it or not, these cards can be revoked
My Black Card was revoked because I don’t like rap music
Because I don’t like guys with too low pants
And because I speak in full sentences
My Woman Card was revoked because I hate the color pink
Because I don’t spend tons of money at Sephora
And because I didn’t use tampons until I was eighteen
Because I was too chicken to use them any sooner
My Teen Card was revoked because I don’t follow trends
Because I only drink Starbucks a few times a year
And because, during my sophomore year of high school
I was the only girl in my class who didn’t have a crush on Brendon Urie
These cards were given to us so that we can act a certain way
So that we can be expected to like a concept that is worthless
It is shocking for people to learn that I like rock music
That I prefer black to any other color
And that I don’t own a pair of $80 ripped jeans
I’m not even a little tempted to try to get these cards back
Because knowing that I am different
Makes me feel like the first person to beat the system
Sevendust
(Favorite Lyrics From Cold Day Memory Album)
Your fake ass celebrity cred (Splinter)
You’re selfish, condescending (Forever)
That could’ve been me and you (Unraveling)
I take my last breath now (Last Breath)
I’m gonna ride insane (Ride Insane)
Say goodbye, it was nice to know you (Confessions)
In a world so fucked up and bleeding (Nowhere)
I’m here and now (Here and Now)
No more time to save ourselves (The End is Coming)
Can I give it all away (Better Place)
There will be no words spoken, speaking nothing (Strong Arm Broken)
Cleanliness
She awoke with a stir
As the loud ringing started
She pressed “STOP”
But laid there for sixty more seconds
When the time changed, once more
She sat up and stretched
Her itchy hair fell down the nape of her neck
And her slightly large feet touched the soft carpet
She changed into her robe
But did not look down
For the sight was too unbearable
She walked down the hallway
As the cool air took hold of her legs
When she reached the bathroom
She looked at her own reflection
And sighed when she noticed new mountains
Forming on her face
She made adjustments in the shower
So that scorching, hot water would rain down
She sat on the toilet cover
Waiting for the water to heat up
She closed her eyes for what felt like a second
As steam started to fill the room
She put her robe on the hook and stepped in
Drops of hot water fell down her back
And she wished that she could stay here forever
She wished that she could stay in this state cleanliness
In this soothing little space
But she knew that she couldn’t
So, instead, she picked up her sponge
And scrubbed the scent of strawberry
On her now relaxed body
She let the water wash over her once
And then shut off the water
She stepped out and dried the drops of water on her skin
She put her robe back on
She wiped away the white cloud that hid her reflection
The sound of faucet water filled the room
She brushed away the dirt from the bones in her mouth
And spat out the minty flavor
She squeezed the soap into her hand
And made white circles on her face
Before washing it all away
The faucet water was turned off
She then smeared on a white substance
That felt like paste
It needed no washing, but instead slowly vanished
She was now clean
Her face and body were now polished
And yet she felt more disgusting than any creature on Earth
Sevendust
(Favorite Lyrics from Black Out the Sun Album)
The scars define the man. (Till Death)
First on top of the mountain. (Mountain)
Screaming at the sky again. (Black Out the Sun)
You live and you’re dead. Your day’s getting closer. (Dead Roses)
I take the broke down, rundown... worst day I ever had. (Dark AM)
I never thought I’d see a picture perfect point of view. (Picture Perfect)
Lie to me! Just lie to my face again! (Murder Bar)
Something I’ve said in my head about a thousand times...
“That’s not the choice I would have made, but that choice was made for me.”
Sevendust
(Favorite Lyrics From Time Travelers & Bonfires Album)
So, come down. You must be out of your mind (Come Down)
Cutting my teeth, I’ve been constantly haunted. (Upbeat Sugar)
When I’m gone, say hello for me. (Gone)
How bittersweet is karma. (Karma)
Rejection?
Have you ever had to face the realization that someone doesn’t like you the same way that you like him or her? I have. This week, to be specific, but let’s go back a little bit. A few months ago, a guy I had a crush on mentioned that he could bring a guest to his military ball for ROTC. Me and another girl both offered to go with him. He said he would think about it. Well, this week, I got my answer. He’s taking the other girl. He said it was because the other girl was, and I quote, “really aggressive about it.” I don’t know if he was telling the truth, but my insecurities and anxiety have me assuming that he was lying. I know that I’m jumping to conclusions, but I have no control over it. I know that me and him have more in common, but since the other girl is the embodiment of attractiveness and popularity, she’s the one who’s going. It’s funny, it doesn’t matter how much you have in common with a person, because looks triump over compatibly.
I wish people would ask me what I want, instead of telling me what I need.
Sevendust
(Favorite Lyrics From Kill the Flaw Album)
You better believe I’m gonna dance with the dead. (Death Dance)
So taste these words like fire. (Forget)
The story of you, undersold living proof. (Cease and Desist)
I defeated it! We will become this! (Not Today)
I see this heading for disaster. (Chop)
Can you live for it all? (Kill the Flaw)
You find a dark place to throw away all the light, like a coward. (Silly Beast)
So cut it down! (Peace and Destruction)
See what you want! (Torched)
Tried to see it clearer now. (Slave the Prey)
Sevendust
(Favorite Lyrics From All I See Is War Album)
When we cannot feel, how can we heal? (Medicated)
Sick of the world again. (Sickness)
If I tell you my deepest thoughts, would you hear me out and help me rise again? (Risen)
You lead and we’ll follow. (Descend)
How come you never try to say my name? (The Truth)
Depression
Depression is a terrible feeling. Your stomach feels full and often aches, so you can’t eat. Your throat feels like you just swallowed a golf ball. It feels as if you’re about to throw up, but your throat is so dry and your stomach is so empty, that nothing would come out if you tried. Your eyes feel moist and dry at the same time. It’s the product you get when you feel like you’re about to cry, but your body won’t let you, so instead you hold it in. Your body becomes as stiff as a wooden beam. You can’t move because you’ve lost all the energy in your body and you’re too lost in your own thoughts to tell your brain that you need to move. This is probably why depression victims are often found in bed. Sleep requires the least amount of effort and allows you to be alone with your thoughts for hours at a time. It’s torture. A continuous, ever-lasting torture, that destroys you from the inside-out. It’s amazing how something like an emotion can so easily break you down.
2nd Semester
As the second semester approaches, I’m filled with relief and anger. I’m relieved that the semester is ending and angry because it’s not here, yet. My first semester classes were filled show offs, dumbasses, and weirdos. Less than two minutes ago, some idiot was shaking his ass in my face. I’m sick of people asking stupid questions, yelling across classrooms, and telling unfunny jokes. At least I’ll get out of school an hour and a half earlier, next semester. My biggest problem is that I’m probably going to burst through the exit doors on the first day of the second semester. I can’t wait to get away from these people, so I can start hating a new semester of people. Hopefully, I won’t have any of the same classmates. DEAR GOD...please don’t let that happen.
Breaking Benjamin
(Favorite Lyrics From Ember Album)
I can’t feel anything at all (Red Cold River)
In the cold, eternal light...I am the ember fading (Psycho)
Fade away to the wicked world we left and I’ll become the dark of you (The Dark of You)
Heavy won’t hold me down (Down)
We’re barely alive (Torn in Two)
Sick of fucking up, tired of falling in (Blood)