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feeling like legit content for the first time since 2014. Work is great, im not in school, my brain works almost all the time, ptsd stuff is taking up way less space in my life, and im about to have a dishwasher and thermostat and washing machine and balcony and cat and like a really fucking awesome life with my favorite person. Like everything is suuuper stressful right now but it's barely touching me cause it's all towards only stuff i am excited about and nothing shitty. i mean im really tired though. it's barely 9 and it's def time to get in bed with beer + dessert + sleep meds + futurama/sabrina the teenage witch.

Dream

I was in the house i grew up in and a skunk got in. He wasnt getting scared so he wasn’t spraying but we were nervous. At one point i tried to startle him, hoping he would run away which would be worth the stink. Instead he bit me on the thumb but stayed. Then I was laying on the floor in the living room there, and across from me was Taylor Swift. She was laying on a dog bed between a dog and the skunk and she was getting really snuggly with the skunk, kind of using it as a pillow. Then she started accusing me of trying to trick her and what was really going on with this animal and i just laughed cause like if she couldn’t tell it was a skunk (it looked like a skunk) that was her problem for not knowing what a skunk is. Then I was in the house with my family but my family was me and my mom and my dad was my cousin mike and i had 2 little kid siblings. Then the great flood came (like noahs ark) and Matt Damon called my cousin-dad into the pantry so they could all slit their throats. Cousin dad almost went but decided not to cause it would be three years before the floodwaters would really kill us. So then i was trying to think about what we were gonna do with this pantry full of dead bloody bodies.

Last night i had a dream that i taught like first grade and donald trump was a kid in my class. He was really hyperactive and bigger than the other kids.

im so hungry and also dont care about the democratic national convention

im feeling a lot of personal and existential and community anxiety. being a piece of bread for a minute is pretty relaxing.

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The new instagram algorithm must be stopped

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Do you?

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i think the top one is a cat and the bottom one is a pig

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I really want this #jouch 👖➡️🛋

Thanks internet

today i went to brunch and did 2 face masks and listened to ocean sounds and drank and meditated and did a lip mask and took a bath and took a nap and maybe finally feeling only low key scared? seriously fuck violence during pride also how do you avoid facebook/is it even possible/my fingers just open the app/i have no control

[FYI - this could be upsetting to read, use caution, skip it, etc.] also this text from my therapist kind of sliced through me, not in the worst way but. a fact is i didn't really come to terms with having been knocked unconscious until earlier today. it was always something that might have happened but how could i know for sure when i didn't remember. but i was thinking about it earlier today and like i remember getting hit and i am pretty sure i remember getting up from the ground but nothing in between. like duh. shara you were unconscious. like laying on the sidewalk outside cafe saint ex. for not more than a few minutes probably, maybe it was seconds but i will never ever know. one reason i didnt get properly tbi diagnosed at first was because all the doctors asked if i had been unconscious at any point and i said no each time because i didnt remember that happening and i was way too out of it to realize why. who knows why it took me an actual 2 years to finally figure this out.

#tw violence #internet processing