History Has its Eyes on You

Ind. Priv. Sel. Heavily Hetaoni based Italy played by Aria. Est 3/16/2018 Follows back from swcctmagix

[memestockpile]

therapy / talking about trauma / post - trauma starters. feel free to change things as necessary. 

would you like to talk about it?

please tell me what’s bothering you.

hey, are you okay?

i don’t have to know everything. just what you’re comfortable telling me.

i’m your friend. of course i care.

there’s nothing bad about going to therapy.

would you like to try a different approach?

i – i didn’t know that. i’m sorry.

is this helping?

i’ll try not to ask a lot of questions.

i’m always here if you need me.

shh, it’s alright. shh. 

we’re safe now. you’re safe now.

it was just a nightmare.

sweetheart, you have to tell me these things.

you know i’d never judge you for that, right?

i’m worried about you.

is something going on? 

everything you say will just be between you and me.

what method do you prefer?

do you need help falling asleep?

anything i could do to help?

why are you like this?

i understand. 

sweetie, is there something you aren’t telling me? what’s wrong?

let’s get you cleaned up.

this is good. this is important. 

you’re healing, and healing takes time. 

we can do more tomorrow.

how about you get some sleep, hm?

bedtime.

it’s ok not to be ok.

tomorrow is another day.

hey, hey, hey. look at me, look at me. it’s okay.

breath in for seven seconds, exhale for eleven …

do you need some space?

remember, look for things that you can touch. ground yourself.

[frequensexolvuntur]

artificesmile:

☾ —–             𝕀van 𝖘𝖍𝖔𝖔𝖐 his head, pushing of the wall to stroll over to Feliciano as he placed a hand on the other’s shoulder.                  “ 𝔏𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱𝔢𝔫 𝔩𝔬𝔞𝔡, да, 𝔟𝔲𝔱 𝔴𝔢 𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔠𝔞𝔯𝔯𝔶 𝔫𝔬𝔴. 𝔚𝔢 𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔰𝔲𝔯𝔢 𝔟𝔲𝔯𝔡𝔢𝔫, 𝔴𝔢 𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔱𝔬𝔤𝔢𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔯 𝔫𝔬𝔴. ”     He smiled at the smaller male, a 𝖌𝖊𝖓𝖙𝖑𝖊 smile, reassuring and yet also encouraging. 

                “ 𝔑𝔬𝔱 𝔞𝔩𝔬𝔫𝔢 𝔞𝔫𝔶𝔪𝔬𝔯𝔢. 𝔑𝔬𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔴𝔢 𝔠𝔞𝔫𝔫𝔬𝔱 𝔡𝔬 𝔴𝔥𝔢𝔫 𝔱𝔬𝔤𝔢𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔯. ”     He was obviously trying to convince the other of this, that he wasn’t 𝖆𝖑𝖔𝖓𝖊.     He never will be 𝖆𝖌𝖆𝖎𝖓, not with all the other nations all together like this now.     They all had a goal now, something to strive for, to 𝖑𝖎𝖛𝖊 for. 

     ⚜𝐹𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑐𝑖𝑎𝑛𝑜;;– He returned the gesture with a soft smile of his own, feeling less tense than he had when he’d been laying and just thinking. Of all the things that had been said by his companions, Feliciano appreciated these ones from Ivan the most. He hadn’t been on the most ideal footing with him-- Yet all that didn’t matter here.

     ‘ No, you’re right. ‘ His tone of voice was lighter. They all needed to work together-- They needed to make plans, fight, and everything in between together.

     ‘ As long as we can all pull through-- Maybe this time we’ll finally make it. I am looking forward to that sleepover at Kiku’s we all swore to. ‘

[bellaterraseborga-blog]

My name is Aria and I have no self-control! Could you please like or reblog this if you’re a Hetalia blog or a blog who is interested in interacting with a canon divergent and fairly history based Seborga? I’d be absolutely happy to check you out and give you a follow!

[frequensexolvuntur]

artificesmile:

☾ —–             𝕀van nodded as he took in what Feliciano was saying, leaning back against a wall, as a means to put his 𝖜𝖊𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙 somewhere.     Something that has become common with being in this mansion, he’s felt like his 𝖇𝖔𝖉𝖞 has gotten heavier, but he’s not sure why.     Perhaps it was just 𝖋𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖌𝖚𝖊. 

            ℍe gently tapped his gloved fingers on the counter at his side, humming near 𝖘𝖎𝖑𝖊𝖓𝖙𝖑𝖞 as he looked down at his feet.                  “ 𝔘𝔫𝔡𝔢𝔯𝔰𝔱𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔴𝔢𝔩𝔩, 𝔞𝔣𝔱𝔢𝔯 𝔩𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔫𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔴𝔥𝔞𝔱 𝔦𝔰 𝔤𝔬𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔬𝔫, 𝔱𝔯𝔬𝔲𝔟𝔩𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔦𝔫𝔡𝔢𝔢𝔡. 𝔐𝔦𝔰𝔱𝔞𝔨𝔢𝔰 𝔠𝔬𝔲𝔩𝔡 𝔟𝔢 𝔣𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩, 𝔥𝔞𝔯𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔩𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔫 𝔣𝔯𝔬𝔪 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔪. ”     He eventually raises his 𝖊𝖞𝖊𝖘 back up to the smaller male.                  “ ℌ𝔞𝔯𝔡 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔶𝔬𝔲, да? 𝔅𝔲𝔱 𝔴𝔦𝔱𝔥 𝔣𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔫𝔡𝔰 𝔫𝔬𝔴. ℭ𝔞𝔫 𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔨 𝔱𝔬 𝔲𝔰. ” 

     ⚜𝐹𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑐𝑖𝑎𝑛𝑜;;– A soft hum of his own came out while he took in what the other said, thought heavily about what he said. He was right-- So very right. Any and all mistakes made, that could be made, could be the last for them. Even with the fact he could just so easily start up another timeline, how many more would it take before he finally got it? Feliciano knew very well that he needed to make sure that there were no more mistakes from here on. And one of that was within that last portion of his statement.

     He was with his friends, every single one of them. They all cared, they all understood, promised to be there. He spent so much time trying to make sure he was no longer weak and protected, he had almost forgotten the most important: teamwork and trust in his companions.

     ‘ You’re right, I need to start trying to get used to that. I guess I was just so used to ending up with so many or no one at all everytime-- I forgot what it was like when I had people I could depend on. ‘ He shook his head. ‘ I know you guys want to lighten the load, but I don’t expect you to handle all of it. ‘

[frequensexolvuntur]

@landforces​

     ⚜𝐹𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑐𝑖𝑎𝑛𝑜;;– It had always pained him to know that he had left so much behind by staying locked up like he did. All he had ever heard about in some passing comments and whispers in the distant woods how he had been labeled missing, for some time too, no less. He should have figured. This timeline ruined him when he made his decision. He abandoned everything and everyone he loved-- Yet he felt like he had an obligation to stay. If not him, then who?

     He was brought out of his deep thoughts, sounds of moving in the mansion becoming clear from where he sat in the library. Someone was here? Pulling himself out of his chair, he moved to make his way to the front, silently hoping for two things: the first, they didn’t get very far-- Second, that the door hadn’t already shut. Once he arrived in the front hallway, he was immediately sent into an internal panic.

     Taking a shaky breath, he took an equally shaky step before he felt the words catch in his throat. ‘ G--Gil... You shouldn’t be here. What are you even doing here? Wait, no, don’t answer. You should get out before you get hurt. ‘

[frequensexolvuntur]

Me, a dumbass: -Wants to make a Seborga blog even if I know that’s a bad idea on my end-

[frequensexolvuntur]

nextgenkittens:

While he’d had the feeling he was going to be denied, that didn’t stop Ignatius from pouting and groaning softly in disappointment. That was the downside of being a kid- hardly anyone took you seriously and thought they knew best just because they were older.

Now wasn’t exactly the best time to sulk though, so he pushed the disappointment aside for the time being and looked around the room they’d be staying in. It looked nice and all, but the thought of being more or less locked up for who knows how long, was unsettling.

“Great,” he sarcastically drawled.

If there was anything the energetic child hated, it was being cooped up. He understood that he couldn’t just leave the safe room whenever he wished, but he still didn’t like it.

At least he could make sure his sister was taken care of…

Aria meanwhile, seemed to perk up again once they reached the safe room. Her little kitten ears twitched in interest, and she broke away from her brother, making a beeline for the paper.

She wasn’t too worried about food just yet, even if she was starting to get hungry. The trek to the mansion in the first place had left her more tired than anything else however, so she was more willing to unwind first.

But before she even got started on what she wanted to do, the little girl gave their helper a shy yet bright smile, chirping a “Thank you!” at him.

     ⚜𝐹𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑐𝑖𝑎𝑛𝑜;;– That was a feeling he knew all too well, the feeling of being absolutely useless. He’d been there, he’d done that, so it wasn’t too hard to tell. The only issue he really had was how those things would have reacted to children. And he knew they weren’t merciful in the slightest.

     ‘ I know it’s hard when you have family to take care of and watch out for. ‘ He placed his hand on the child’s shoulder with a reassuring look sent his way. ‘ I had to deal with my own fratello being in this mansion. But I’ve been here for a long time. And while those things may know most of my tricks, it doesn’t mean I won’t try. I’m not going to let another family suffer here. ‘

     His attention soon fell on Aria, seeing her happily start using the paper he had laying around. At least it was getting better use than his own little writings here and there. That new energy was almost contagious.

     ‘ Feel free to use as much as you want. ‘ He let his hand fall back to his side as he made his way to sit across from here. ‘ I’ve got way more than I know what to do with it. ‘

[eternalmemes]

▒▒▒ ᵡ Firefly Sentence Starters !!

❝  This landing is gonna get pretty interesting.  ❞ ❝ Half of writing history is hiding the truth. ❞ ❝ Don’t push me, and I won’t push you. ❞ ❝ But you fog things up! You always have. ❞ ❝ Violence is going to ensue ❞ ❝ Do you know that girl? ❞ ❝ Didn’t we have an intricate plan on how they was gonna be not here any more? ❞ ❝ You do that, you’d best make peace with your dear and fluffy lord. ❞ ❝ I didn’t start this !!❞ ❝ You lost everything in that battle. Everything you had, everything you were. How did you go on? ❞ ❝ Someone *has to* speak for these people. ❞ ❝ I aim to misbehave. ❞ ❝ Well, that makes you a tease. ❞ ❝ Petty thieving ain’t exactly soldiers’ work ❞ ❝ That girl will rain destruction down on you ❞ ❝ It should have been me that got hit. ❞ ❝ Storm’s getting worse. ❞ ❝ We’re gonna explode? I don’t wanna explode! ❞ ❝ Coming from you that means - almost nothing ❞ ❝ Things always get a little more complicated, don’t they? ❞ ❝ This isn’t fear. This is anger. ❞            

[frequensexolvuntur]

nextgenkittens:

The children would continue to hold onto each other while they followed him, even after Ignatius had to stop carrying his sister around. He was a strong boy, but even his body had limits, especially when he was still so young.

“Can I help? I think I might know a few ways to outsmart them,” the brother commented, eyes flashing gold for a split second. Even if he hadn’t been able to unlock the door after it’d slammed shut on them, he was pretty sure his tricks could still be of use in this situation. He wouldn’t know until he tried, though.

Aria, however, knew what her brother was planning, and wasn’t too keen at seeing him pull it off. A fact she made known when she used her free hand to swat him in the arm. “Iggy, you know you can’t–”

Ignatius just cut her off with a sigh. He’s heard that particular line before. “What else am I supposed to do? I gotta do whatever I can to keep you safe.” He knew their conversation would probably be confusing for the person they were following, though the siblings were trying to keep their voices down.

     ⚜𝐹𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑐𝑖𝑎𝑛𝑜;;– It didn’t matter what either child would have offered to do to help their situation. He knew what would come of it, and he wasn’t about to let them drag themselves any further into it than they had. Looking over his shoulder, Feliciano stopped at the door just after they got to the top of the staircase, his gaze locked on Ignatius for a moment before he gave a sigh.

     ‘ I appreciate it-- But no, I cannot let you do that. ‘ That said, he opened the door and made his way into the back of the room towards the metal door. Leading the children inside that one brought them into what he knew was the safest place to stay in the entire house. Just as well, it had a few things that aided survival. Food that he found around and even some plants he had managed to grow so that he had some vegetables. It wasn’t exactly a bountiful haven, but it was a safe one nonetheless.

     He gestured to the beds, the tables and said items when he started to explain. ‘ If it takes longer to get you out, there are beds there to rest. I have paper around so you can play some games with that and I can make some stuff for you if you want-- And there’s plenty of food over there. But I wouldn’t recommend snacking a lot, it looks like I have plenty, but it’s still pretty limited. ‘

     He took a moment to pause and offer up whatever smile he could to them. ‘ Like I said, I’m going to get you out of here. More importantly, I’m going to make sure you two are safe. ‘

[frequensexolvuntur]

Headcanon;; Sense of companionship

Ever since locking himself away inside the mansion, Feliciano still knew of the friends he had over the course of his life, but he began to lose all sense of companionship and what it was like to be surrounded by friends. That doesn’t mean he’s entirely stone, however-- His heart is in the right place and he knows how to feel compassion and empathy. Rather, he just tends to push people away more than he lets them in more than compared to the first time he had come in, all the way through the final timeline before the current.

He doesn’t want to get close to anyone anymore for fear of losing them to a place like this, and the monsters lurking inside that he is so keen on keeping at bay, which is why he will always tell anyone who comes in to leave immediately before they’re locked in as well. He doesn’t want to deal with it-- Not after all he had been through. He couldn’t stand it.

[frequensexolvuntur]

Rolling this out to the public world! Hello! I am Aria and I am here to bring this to you. Could you please Like/Reblog this if you’re interested with hanging out and writing with a mainly Hetaoni based Italy/Feliciano from Hetalia? Would be much appreciated.

And this is a sideblog so all follow backs will come from @swcctmagix

[frequensexolvuntur]

Headcanon;; Fragmented memories

While this is technically a timeline that we essentially one where he got his friends out-- It doesn’t mean the past won’t always come back to haunt him. He lives in a near constant state of losing and regaining memories since his brain can’t handle holding all of them at once. Though he manages to recount more and more as time goes on, he still ends up keeping what he has that was split between him and Romano.

There will even be days where he won’t even remember when his friends and himself all signed that pact, won’t even remember all of the names that were on it. All except for his own and Lovino/Romano’s since the memories are split between them. It’s the worst for him because he has begun to feel like he is losing his sense of self as not only a person, but as the country he is supposed to be.

[themusewhomuses]

I  BEGGED I  PLEADED  I  CRIED

           ( “Don’t take them from me” )

[frequensexolvuntur]

i-frutti-proibiti:

     Feliciano had seen many things in his life. Seeing a clone of himself in the doorway of a haunted house was not one of them. He couldn’t deny that he was freaked out and suspicious, but at the same time he still wanted to be as optimistic as possible. Or at the very least, stay neutral until he found out what the hell was going on.

     “ Don’t come in? What could possibly be dangerous about this place? ” he said incredulously. “ It’s just an abandoned house. How do I know someone’s not just playing a prank on me? ”

     ⚜𝐹𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑐𝑖𝑎𝑛𝑜;;– If only he knew what would come out of stepping a single foot in this place. No, wait, this Feliciano was going to make sure the other had absolutely no idea what it was going to be like. Lest he watch this one’s life become a living hell like his has been. He wouldn’t be able to stand it. He’d never forgive himself.

     ‘Trust me, as someone who’s been here a lot longer than you think, you’re throwing your life and everyone else’s away too. ‘ He kept a strong stance as he made his points. ‘There are monsters in here, ones that I can’t even begin to describe. All of them stronger than you would like to think. Please, don’t do this. ‘

[frequensexolvuntur]

nextgenkittens:

Ignatius looked up, brow furrowing in confusion. The way the adult spoke… was something keeping him inside the mansion? Or did he choose to stay…?

“What about you? What if you get hurt?” the older child asked, voicing his thoughts and new concerns. Until he knew for certain what they were up against, he wasn’t going to do anything brash… well, he’d try not to. Still, he’d help keep any sort of dangers away if he could. Not just for his sister’s sake, either.

“M-Mister?” came Aria’s softer voice, finally calmed enough to speak again. Though, the obvious stammering gave away her residue fear “How…. how long w-will it take t-to get us home..?”

That was the main thing on her mind, getting home before they were gone too long and worrying their mother even further.

     ⚜𝐹𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑐𝑖𝑎𝑛𝑜;;– ‘ Okay, let’s take this one at a time. ‘ He said as he looked out the door to make sure the coast was clear. Luckily, still nothing. Good. He just needed to get them to the safe room on the second floor. Looking back, he motioned for the kids to join him in getting there.

    ‘ To start, you don’t need to worry about me-- I’ve been here a long time, and I’m incredibly fast on my feet. ‘ Technically, he could have left with everyone if he wanted to. And he knew there would be some time plane where indeed he did. But he chose to stay here. He felt like most of his soul went into this place because of everything that happened. And, no matter what he did, that it wouldn’t even have mattered in the first place.

     ‘ Now to answer your other question. ‘ He took a moment to think on it. ‘ Hopefully, it won’t take too long. But It’s going to be difficult for me to figure it out at first. There are things in here that are smart. So they know what I might do-- I’ll need to think of something new. ‘

[melamemea]

a short question based sentence collection .

“ why won’t you look at me? ”

“ why won’t you return my calls? ”

“ why are you avoiding me? ”

“ is everything alright between us? ”

“ have i done something to upset you? ”

“ are you sure this will work out? ”

“ do you know where he/she/they is/are?”

“ can we stay here a little longer? ”

“ are you lying to me? ”

“ are you hiding something from me? ”

“ why won’t you come out anymore? ”

“ what’s wrong with me? ”

“ what’s wrong with you? ”

“ how did we end up here? ”

“ is there something you are holding back from me? ”

“ what are you scared of? ”

“ are you scared of me? ”

“ why won’t you trust me? ”

“ don’t you trust me? ”

“ am i the only one? ”

“ was it really ever just me? ”

“ what makes you say that? ”

[frequensexolvuntur]

artificesmile replied to your post “Okay but I wanna quickly raise this, Feliciano, with all these...”

//I actually recently started playing hetaoni again, and forgot to lock the door. I'm so sorry XD

Let. Him. Rest. XD